The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

ginvzt

Lilo - enjoy your holiday!!!! Sorry to hear about your car hope they will manage to sort it out!!!!

ginvzt

I am getting my hopes up for this month. I am trying to stop myself, but it is not working very well. I am only CD21, and, if I listen to my consultant, I shouldn't test till day 37 (I have ~28 day cycle!!!) - don't thin I will have enough self control if AF is late. I think having lots of cm (sorry fro tmi) and sore nipples doesn't help....

(Oh, and I am going to collect a car seat for my godson today... - found one on ebay brand new in the box half the RRP, so that is money saving!!!!)

nadine220

Enjoy your hols lilo - hope the car gets sorted while you are away and everything else holds out for Saturday!

i am on CD8 today so lots of BDing over teh next 2 weeks. Starting folicle tracking for the first time on Monday and typically OH is going away Mon night until Thurs and can't get out of it. Boss has said I can work from home Monday so as soon as my scan is done OH is for it!!

I think there must be something in the air at the moment with people feeling down, yesterday all the women I work with incl me were miserable and snappy. I burst into tears in Next and my poor friend wasnt' quite sure what to do with me.

Tears were due to another friend emailing me to say she thinks this is the month for her. She missed her last period but forgot because she was on holiday........ I wish I could forget that I was supposed to have a period - I know to the second what day I am on and what should be happening! Her AF was due yesterday but I haven't heard anything else from her so she might be hanging on til the 12 week mark (or not be PG)

*sighs*

wishing lots of baby dust to everyone xxx

jiblets1

tryingtodobetter wrote: »

For some reason I had it in my head that this month was going to be the month, but AF arrived this morning I know I shouldn't build my hopes up and I usually don't but this month I felt more positive.

I think the positivity was due to me losing weight, although I've probably undone all the good work today :mad:

Sorry about the moan

We all have months like that. I think each month where I'm rubbish mentally helps me to be a bit better the following month.
Well done for the weightloss! Just because this month wasn't your month doesn't mean that the weightloss won't help. Keep at it! (and don't worry about having a bad day with it - you are definitely to allow yourself some indulgences, even when trying to lose weight)

jiblets1

OH and I have an appointment with the counsellor on Thursday. I'm pretty pleased that OH is coming with me. He's not been keen to before, but now he sees that I need him to come with me. And also, the counsellor is going to come to the house! I'm really quite surprised, but she asked if it would be easier and it would. I'm starting to get myself a bit wound up with this operation coming now. It's November 24th, and primarily I hope I don't die. I know that's a bit daft really, as it's not particularly risky, but I can't help it. I hope I don't die.
Then, after that I'm worried because once this dodgy tube has been removed I'll be back in the game. And that's scary. Cue huge stresses again every cycle. I'm not sure that I'm ready to have hope again...
I definitely need to see this woman. My head's a bit messed I think.

MadMac_2

Oh jiblets, if you were near to me, I'd be straight round there knocking on your door to give you a huge hug - so be thankful I'm a long way away! I think we all feel a bit like that when faced with surgery, but you'll be fine just like everybody else and I'm kind of reassured you don't want to die - your head isn't as messed up as mine can be at times! Stress when you can't try, more stress when you can try, more stress when you have to keep trying and trying.... never bl**dy ending! Grrrr :mad: Anyway, sending lots of support and hugs your way and I look forward to reading how it goes next week, x

Ginvzt, will keep my hopes up for you and have to admit as an aside that I had never heard of Ludovico Einaudi and had to Google him to find out more! Sorry LL, showing my ignorance here...

Lilo, sorry I missed you but hope you recovered from your car headaches and enjoyed your break (as you are now away!) and AF has fallen just in time for the bloods to follow. Why can't our bodies be more co-operative when we seem to have control over so many other things?!

Angela - I'll join you please in your silent scream if it will bring on some good news! :cool:

Tryingtodobetter, well done on the weight loss and you're allowed to pig out every now and again - life would be so boring otherwise! Hang in there, feel free to moan and I'm always around to listen, x

Huge positive vibes to all and here's a virtual hug to anybody in need as it has been a while since I've sent one! :grouphug:

ginvzt

Madmac - I haven't heard about Ludovico Einaudi until my OH played it once. And don't keep nay hopes up for me - if anything, mine need to be squashed, so I can get back to normal life. I am afraid I might 'work up' myself too much and then it is very hard to adjust when the negative news come...

Leopardlady

HI all. Madmac i hadn't heard of Einaudi either until OH played some and then surprised me with tickets. We had him paying while we signed the register at our wedding as well!

Well CD16 for me and i feel nauseos and uncomfortable, not helped by a manic manic day at work. I am quite sure i ov'd stupidly early this month, so not sure at all what my cycle is doing, oh well.

I hope you all have a fab weekend and i will see you all back here on monday morning

MadMac_2

LL, hope you're feeling better after a relaxing and enjoyable weekend, here's hoping anyway!

We are big Philip Glass fans and have seen him live before, but when my OH first played it to me all I heard was plinkity plonk sort of sounds! Ooh, don't tell him I said that, I probably lied at the time! :rotfl:

Ginvzt, all so easy to work yourself up for something and then fall down with a bump, but you just never know do you, so I always get a *little* bit hopeful as I just can't help it!

I'm on my own this weekend, never a good thing for mental health, but oh well, at least AF is behind me and I'm feeling more human. Roll on next weekend when we'll be together again :cool:

hamish222

Hi
Hope you don't mind if I join you. Have been reading the thread and all your stories. I am 37 and have been trying for years to have a baby. (in saying that have never went down road of timing etc). I went to gp's over a year ago and he did some blood tests and appeared I was ovulating okay(I have regular periods every 25-26 days).
Next step was for dh to get a semen analysis but we didnt get it done, just put it to back of our minds and carried on as were until last month when my Sister said out of blue that we should really think about a baby or we would regret it and if it wasn't happening should adopt. Had never told anyone before so it surprised us. We discussed it and decieded that needed to try properly or would regret it.
Went to Gp who has organised hubby to go next month for his first test and has sent a referal for me to fertility consultant. (not sure how long till I will hear from them).
In meantime I have bought clearblue fertility monitor and going to give it our all with having bms on all the days we have a chance.
I have also went on health kick, joined gym and eating a healthy diet. Have lost nearly a stone so far. Have also gave up diet coke had at least a 2ltr a day habit. Don't smoke and very rarely drank (have given it up totally for time being)
Also both me and dh are taking a pre conception vitamin tablet. Hopefully some of these changes will have a positive impact.
Dh smokes and drinks at weekend, his diet in general is not too bad. But depending on his results he will be looking at stopping or at least cutting down his bad habits.
We also had a holiday booked in Sept which will cost as around 5000 quid so thinking about cancelling this (would just loose deposit) in case we need any private treatment further down line. Don't want to put our lie on hold but don't want to be in a position that need treatment, cant get it on Nhs and have spent it all on a 2 week holiday.
Sorry for rambling