The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

MadMac_2

Hello all, just too low and down to say much at the moment, sorry. CBFM gives me a peak today but huge row with OH last night means it will probably end up being another wasted day. I'm not sure how much more I can take, but will try to be back with a more PMA soon.

Love and hugs to you all and I know most will understand how I'm feeling at the moment, x

ginvzt

Hello all,
it was a pretty good weekend. Started another round of Clomid on Saturday. Feeling ok, just felt very down yesterday. So, had my ice-cream session.

I am trying to buy a cot for when our godson is visiting us. Hope to have it sorted this week. Now, can I just have my own baby to put in it?

We went to fish/aquatics auction yesterday for the first time. And it was a great fun. We didn't intend to buy anything, just to have a look, but came home with some filter material, a bag of floating plants and 2 new fishes...

And - first piano lesson tonight!!! Something to look forward.

Leopardlady

So sorry to hear it is all so hard at the moment MadMac, please look after yourself, maybe you should try and get some make up s~x in tonight, therefore at least it would not be a wasted day. I know i am very very lucky that my OH and i do not have huge bust ups at the moment, but i do completely understand why you are so down.

Just remember we are all here for each other and we are all here to listen and help when we can.

Take care

liloandstitch

Fingers crossed for you leopardlady.

My thoughts are with you Madmac xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

All hell breaking loose in our house, I have been signed off with depression. Doc wants anti ds, I dont so at the moment it is being monitored. He is ok with me going ahead with IVF, as he understands the reason for it, and why I dont want the drugs, but we are taking it one step at a time. Unfortunately it means that I no longer have a job to go back to as I am self employed and they wont hold the contract any longer after all the time I have been off. so add broke to my list of woes.

But hey, I am alive, the fact that I cant drive the car without near missing everything else, and cant go out on my own are all minor details really!!!!!!

Lilo

shelly

Oh Lilo, so sorry to read about your depression!! don't know what else to say, sorry

Nothing much to report as usual. AF been and only just finished properly at the weekend so we got in 1 bd before hubby left today for a business trip to Hong Kong! Was very short notice. They told him Thursday that it was 'possible' he might be going to HK next week then on Friday they had booked it all!
Nevermind, its not fertile time so I'm not too worried that I am missing out

emmzy

Lilo I totally understand where your coming from, I havent left the house without someone to "guard" me in years I cant even go round the local shop 10 minutes away without supervision incase I freak out and take a panic attack Im only 23 so while all my friends are out partying and stuff Im sat in the house with OH being miserable lol but it does get better I got almost perfect and even had a full time job for a while 2 years ago but the house was broken into while I was out and it sent me back to my old ways

Madmac hope you feel better soon too

Anyway nothing exciting going on for me except that as well as losing my test results they also havent sent me a referal letter for the gynae ward in the hospital so its back to the doctors again to chase them up. For the people who have been at this for years I admire your ability to keep a cool head when some doctors are complete muppets lol

liloandstitch

Thanks for all the good wishesXXXX That sounds really pants emmzy. Well done you for coming out of it once, I hope you find the strength to pull out again.

Mine has been mainly caused by the lymphodaema in my legs, and has completely crashed my confidence. Trouble is I am losing the will to live trying to get anywhere, let alone anyone to understand. I have appointments coming up, but my legs are swelling after really short distances, and so my ability to go out is extremely limited. So rather than looking for other ways to get out, I have limited my trips, and totally lost my confidence to go out at all because of it. I am really on one of those hamster wheels, which has really fryed my brain!!! Anyway, I shall clear my brain for a while, and then see where I am .

Lilo

ginvzt

lilo, please take care of yourself - I do hope it all gets better soon!!!

Shelly - that was a VERY short notice!!!! I like getting out of the office, but unfortunately, they do not send me anywhere as exotic as Hong Kong!

I had my piano lesson last night and really loved it. I was afraid I am slipping into depression (well, probably still am), but making myself busy with sewing and playing piano, I feel it helps me. As I forget everything else and lose the count of time!!!!!

Lilo, is there anything you like doing? (Like painting, any crafts - embroidery, knotting, cross-stitch, anything?) Or something you always wanted to do, but never could really 'get to it'? Maybe it would help a bit if you tried to take it up? I understand how hard it is, but things will get better!!!! And it seems like you have an understanding GP, which is rare in my experience!!!!

Somnium

heya ladies am more of a serial lurker these days, well on this thread, just wanted to let you know I havent forgotten about you and still think of you. I hope some more of you get BFPs soon its been kinda quiet of late, fingers crossed maybe santa will bring you some Would love to see some of you graduate to the PG thread like my self and FE and before we leave it. Lots of sticky vibes to you all xxx

jiblets1

Hi all, i wonder if it's the time of year - I'm barely holding it together at the moment too. Depression are us.