The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

jiblets1

Not to scare everyone, I know others that have been on clomid and really barely noticed any symptoms. I knew I would struggle, as I have had problems on many different contraception pills in the past. I wasn't best pleased to be proved right...

FairyElephant_2

OMG Winky - THAT IS SO TRUE - Wish I had read that when I was on it! You just made me almost PMSL (not joking gals - WHEN you get your BFPs - which you surely will - this is a very serious possibility!).

Jibets - YOU ARE TOTALLY NORMAL Hun - as far as my own experience and those of others travelling this journey that I have met/communicated with. Hope you do get counselling soon though Hun, as I said before I found it a real help, so hope that you will too.

AFM - well I'm having a ton of stress this week both at home and work, and I think my hormones must be all over the place as I have total paranoia that something is going to go horribly wrong. Not helped by reading that a lady who went through treatment just after me had a 2nd scan today and there's no longer a heartbeat. I just sat and cried buckets for her, and am now panicking that it's going to happen to me. I know, I know, I need to stay calm and be sensible, but when I think I've got it licked then another wave of panic comes over me!

costaerer

Hi All!

Been TTC with PCOS for 15 months. I am overweight which is a major factor in my infertility!

I am on my 2nd month of clomid at 100mg, i am not 2dpo and in my TWW. Driving me mad already!!!!! I hope this is my month....

On another note, i have got an appoitment at a private hospital regarding weight loss surgery, schedueled for next tues.....:eek:i hope this month i get my BFP so dont have to go down the WLS route....

Baby dust to all!!!

MadMac_2

FE - I'll say what you're already telling yourself - don't worry! Everybody is different and it is only natural to panic about these things, but it ain't over until the fat lady drops and all that, so try to keep positive and enjoy the good feelings, while ignoring the bad as much as is humanly possible.

Costaerer, oh my! Surgery sounds frightening, you're more brave than I am! Best of luck.

So, dare I ask quietly how those little embies are doing Winky? Hope you're looking after yourself appropriately and being suitably pampered. Nice to dream eh?!

Ginvzt, I'm just as low still, but hiding it well I think on here and in RL at work - just sob each and every day on OH's shoulders and poor chap as he's the one on prozac! I eventually told him just how very low I've now become and how life just looks like a pointless and worthless journey at times - it even frightens me, yet alone him! But unlike him, I can't just push off and find a younger and more fertile model as my best baby-making years are already well behind me and I'll never get them back, regardless of what I do. That thought is mightily hard to swallow at times and it is affecting my work now - I even struggle to face Tesco and all the prams and reminders that go with it.

So I keep reminding myself that I'm so very, very lucky to have my OH and sometimes I can forget that the simplest things and often the most important. Big hug to you - and everybody else in need today, xx

ginvzt

MadMac, keep the chin up! I know how hard it is, I as crying myself just a couple of days ago. I am going back home on Sunday, and the first thing on Monday I am going to meet with my friends and their children (5yr girl, and a boy and a girl at about 20-21 months). And then I want to visit another friend, who has a wonderful boy (I think about 7yr- I keep forgetting!!!)) and is expecting a second one. It is not going to be the easiest thing (well, might be good to see expecting friends, as she has been through a lot in ttc journey with a few mcs). Get some ice cream if you wish, or come around for tea and we can cry together

liloandstitch

Hi honies, I am back! Will catch up properly tomorrow, but BIG BIG hugs to all!!

Lilo

MadMac_2

Woohoo! Hope you enjoyed yourself Lilo and got lots of practice in...

Glad to have you back, x

shelly

Hope you had a nice break Lilo.

Nothing to report here except I must sterilise my moon cup and experiment with it before AF arrives in a week or 2.
Have a smear on Wednesday at Addenbrookes. I dread them since I changed to 6 monthly ones, I worry that 6 months between smears is too long. Also because they are now being done on the NHS as opposed to privately I wonder if the waiting time will be 6 weeks+ (whereas privately I had results in 2 weeks) or will my sample be seen quicker because I have had cancer?
I'll find out on Wednesday I guess....I should take my own advice and not worry about things I have no control over

becs

Oh Shelly Good luck. I'm sure it will be ok and I would have thought that they would push your results through quicker with your history. Addenbrookes have always been very good when I've had any treatment there. It's PDH that seem to be a nightmare! Good luck.
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Nice to see you back Lilo hope you had a lovely time.

shelly

becs wrote: »

Oh Shelly Good luck. I'm sure it will be ok and I would have thought that they would push your results through quicker with your history. Addenbrookes have always been very good when I've had any treatment there. It's PDH that seem to be a nightmare! Good luck.
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Nice to see you back Lilo hope you had a lovely time.

Thanks Becs. I was thinking the same, that with my history I might get results quickly. Time will tell.
I don't think I have ever stepped foot in PDH.....Kings Lynn QE has seen me plenty of times though