The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

Winky,_The_House_Elf

:rotfl:Do you know what? I thought I had posted a long rambling post, which was about the 2 embies I have had tranfered and how fantastic the Liverpool Womens Hospital are, only to have lost it. I have looked back over the thread and I can't find it... I just hope I didn't put it in the middle of the 'tips for the Panasonic Breadmaker' or 'Stardrops I have seen the light' threads!:o Gawd knows what they would make of me saying 'I'm praying for a Sticky one:p

Anyway long story short, 2 top grade embies on board & 2 more frosties:T as I've agreed to be part of the lutal support trial (To see if giving progesterone pessaries until week 10 reduces miscarrages) I have to test on day 13, so my test date is the 28th August!

ginvzt: Good luck for tomorrow! Have you written down the questions you want to ask? I always find that I forget stuff, or I don't hear the response properly as I'm trying remember what else I wanted to ask.

Jibblets: My OH got that way too and didn't know how to deal with it either. He came across as chilled out about it but wouldn't discuss it. Once we got the chanels of communication open again it was much better. It seems that you are doing that already so good luck! Please chase the councellor if you don't hear first thing tomorrow.

JoJo(((((((HUGS)))))) lets hope that you are right about feeling this could be your month.

Whoops! this post has ended up being too long.....

Winky x x x

De-caf, milk and 2 sugars please J...I think I've got some of Twinks Hobnobs here somewhere....budge up

jiblets1

Congrats Winky, looking POSITIVE!

I'm glad one of us is keeping the rest of us a bit more lively

ginvzt

Fantastic, Winky!!!! And good to hear good review about Liverpool Women's Hospital, as if we end up going IVF route, t is one of the places we might be able to go (there or Manchester, I guess).

The problem about tomorrow is that I don't really have any questions, only "What is next?"...

And about the tea - I'll have the camomile with some honey...

angelavdavis

Congratulations Winky! Hope your 2ww goes smoothly.

FairyElephant_2

JoJo - so sorry to hear that you won't get funding - I know I was devastated when I found out that we wouldn't due to DH's kids from previous marriage - we got told by letter and I tore it up into tiny bits whilst crying & ranting - it is just so unfair, and puts an added financial pressure on top of all the pressure you feel under when having treatment anyway! (((HUGS))) to you Hun. Hope the acupuncture goes well, and that you don't need the IVF anyway......

Winky - well done, and enjoy the pessaries!!! (OMG, they are sooooo yucky aren't they?!?!?!).

ginvzt

Well, I am back from my appointment. Feeling very down today and was trying to hold back the tears during the appointment, although not very successfully by the end.

I am going to get 4 cycles of clomid, so I think I will be crying even more. At the moment I don't believe anything is going to work, so it feels a bit of a lost cause. The consultant was lovely and very supportive, he sounds knowledgeable and everything, but I just don't believe in myself anymore. He is transferring me to his NHS care now, so if we don't succeed in the next 4 months, I'll be having some more scans, etc, that Bupa would not cover anyway. Oh well, a bit mroe crying and then I have to do some work. Not that I feel I am capable of doing that!!!

JoJo77

Congratulaions Winky, hope all goes well!

shelly

Best of luck Winky!

angelavdavis

ginvzt wrote: »

Well, I am back from my appointment. Feeling very down today and was trying to hold back the tears during the appointment, although not very successfully by the end.

I am going to get 4 cycles of clomid, so I think I will be crying even more. At the moment I don't believe anything is going to work, so it feels a bit of a lost cause. The consultant was lovely and very supportive, he sounds knowledgeable and everything, but I just don't believe in myself anymore. He is transferring me to his NHS care now, so if we don't succeed in the next 4 months, I'll be having some more scans, etc, that Bupa would not cover anyway. Oh well, a bit mroe crying and then I have to do some work. Not that I feel I am capable of doing that!!!

Sorry to hear you are down ginvzt. It's probably no consolation, but I sobbed all the way through most of my appointments! No one can be prepared for how deeply it affects you emotionally.

After all you have been through, its only natural to feel down and negative about things. You need to say to yourself over and over "I deserve my own little baby" - put a note on each mirror you are likely to look into, you need to give yourself a chance and start instilling some positive mental attitude in yourself.

Big hugs coming your way..... x

ginvzt

Thanks, angel. Googling clomid doesn't help either, especially, since I am ovulating. And the downsides are the weight gain ( I am already in the battle over this with my body), headaches (as if I don't have enough) and increased risk of mc/ectopic.

Anyway, OH is on his way home now (started early today!!!), so we will need to tidy up the house and make the blueberry cheesecake - I have invited our next door neighbour and his daughter for tea/coffee and a cake tonight. We have been here for 5+ months so far and kept telling ourselves we will invite neighbours around, but never did it. So, tomorrow is the day.