The Trials and Tribulations of Trying to Conceive when its just not happening (12m+)

tea_lover

Congrats mrshappy Being an auntie is ace! Hope you're managing to get lots of baby cuddles... enjoy them... next minute you turn around and they're a bolshy 11 yr old lol.

tea_lover

I've just read this quote on another blog....

"Part of every misery is, so to speak, the misery's shadow or reflection: the fact that you don't merely suffer but have to keep on thinking about the fact that you suffer. I not only live each endless day in grief, but live each day thinking about living each day in grief." ~ C. S. Lewis

Exactly.

Floaty

Was all geared up for my first fs appt this morning, and the hospital just rang to cancel (doctor's off sick) with no new date. Gutted.

abis21

onlywayisup wrote: »

Hi all.

Have been reading this week but so busy with work (no work internet access) and feeling so sorry for myself i havent posted.

Been feeling a bit down the past few weeks but will get my results of my mmc/possible partial molar this week so will know what im facing better. Think im going to be treated as PMP anyway as its seems to be that they air on the side of caution if theres any debate.

Just means putting ttc on hold until next year which depresses me no end. All but one of my friends have children and i get the feeling there all getting sick of me banging on about it all now. I just get the feeling only people who are going through it/have been through it really 'get it'.

Good luck lucy got my fingers crossed for you and hugs to all the others having a hard time.x

I had a MMC/PMP last May, so I get it if you want to talk to me about it. I'm on the other side now and 27 weeks pregnant with a healthy baby. I can't tell you how many times I thought that this would never happen and the journey was bloomin awful at times. Theres also a molar support forum which I found ever so useful as everyone on their 'gets it' too.

Still keeping an eye on all my lovely TTC friends - hope you don't mind

time2deal

Floaty - how very annoying. Are you NHS? Hopefully it won't be a long wait for another appointment.

tea_lover

I've done a really stupid thing I looked at my ex husband's fb page. He has a baby.

Primmer

Lucy - good luck - try to rest when you can,it may have been a nightmare journey but if your onboard embies turn into a BFP it will have been worth it. Really hope it works for you.

Only way is up - sending hugs, waiting for results and their impact is awful particularly when they can further delay matters.

Floaty - hope you don't have to wait too long for another appointment.

Tea - the quote you posted earlier describes my feelings perfectly. Hugs for fb page, that must have been awful for you to see. however, he is your ex for a reason and whilst it is unfair that is what you need to focus on.

tea_lover

Primmer wrote: »

however, he is your ex for a reason and whilst it is unfair that is what you need to focus on.

You're right. I could list a thousand reasons why we split up, and all of them are just as valid today as they were 12 years ago. Logically I know that, but I can't help feeling I'm being punished. I should have tried harder to make things work, we were only married for a couple of weeks. Just seems like since then I've ended up with a pretty-shaky (and that's being polite!) relationship, and I can't even have children. I should have fought harder to make it work... feel like I've brought all of this on myself.

time2deal

OK - here's goes nothing! I've booked to start an ICSI cycle - going in on Wednesday to work out the timing and collect the medication to start this cycle.

I've had a proper burst of stress/excitement/fear.

time2deal

p.s. And I did tell DH before I told you ladies. But only just..
Next step: Break the piggy bank...