MSE Pregnancy Club XIII

BeenieCat

Oh i won't be getting rid, i was just in a state, i guess i knw he'd check web history, i dunno, i feel like i'm a schitzo

Fitzio

That's not good. Regardless of who is doing what, it doesn't sound like a nice environment for your kids. You are so young and have a whole life ahead of you. Make sure you don't waste it.

searching_me

beenie dont please ... dont let him win ...

now i need to cry this BFing aint working jayden wont settle on it im in pain and shattered from the amount he wants but i cant give him ... i think like poo that i want to give him bottle x

money_maker_3

SM, dont feel bad about it huni xx
Why dont you mix alternate bottle and boobie and see if that helps ? Or try some of the suggestions on the parent thread to increase supply?
I am going onto formula from today, I only managed 25ml at both of my attempts last night, and thats not even enough for half a feed, so no point in continuing for me

searching_me

my milk supply has gone down so much either that or hes feeding so much i cant keep up with it but this has been 2 night and days of this i cant keep on x

searching_me

i feel bad coz i know im gonna be judged if i do go on it ... my boobie hurt x

money_maker_3

who is going to judge you?

searching_me

health vistor x

SugarSpun

Beenie, go see your GP, and a locksmith. I'm not going to internet-diagnose you, and it wouldn't be appropriate if I could, but your sleeping pattern is a classic sign of depression and you should get it checked out. It sounds like your home situation is making it worse if not causing it, and since you have an older kid as well as the one you're incubating you need to think of the three of you and what's best for you all.

Nobody should have to suffer physical or emotional abuse from a person who claims to be their partner. Even the word "partner" implies various things: companionship, respect, support, all of that, and you're not getting it. What worries me more is that you seem to be happy to blame yourself, and that also is unacceptable. You're pregnant. No one should lay a hand on you, no matter what you think you might have done to deserve it.

I suspect that you know what you have to do, and evicting your tiny tenant isn't it. We can all offer support and sympathy, but we can't take the step for you. If it makes it easier, break it down into small steps:

is there somewhere you can go, or is it better if he leaves?
is there someone to be with you while he packs and goes, or you do?
would it be wise to lodge a complaint with the police so there's a record of his actions?
is there a joint account you should be moving money out of?

Protect yourself, and your little ones. Please.

SugarSpun

SM, every feed you've given him has been beneficial. Don't feel bad if you can't keep up with him. If it's painful and you're stressed and he isn't sleeping, then supplement or switch him completely. You're not a bad mother if you're doing the best for your kid.

((Harley)) I'd go with you if I could, but I'm useless at ultrasounds. They're like Magic Eye images to me - I can spot the brain and the spine and the rest I just pretend I know what I'm looking at