A new start for Mooloo

Savvy_sewing

Well its a very jaded Moo, sitting here. I feel as if i have been run over by a steamroller. The wind has been taken out of my sails this time.
The bounce back is not coming.
DGD was a nightmare last night. I dread her moods today. She is currently eating some choccy spread on toast, after having coco pops. Mmm not normal breakfast, and I hope not too much chocolate!
It has started to snow again here. not sure if it will stay on the ground enough to be making snowmen. DGD is dying to do that. But the grass is not covered yet.
Molly is hoping to come by today. Which will be good. It seems such a long time since we saw each other.
Right I have moped about, had a really bad night. DGD woke around 4am and was playing with her toys, and banging on her gate by 6am.
We have had 3 hours of childrens TV and I am already tv fed up!
I managed to make two more little stockings last evening, but had to go to bed just gone 8.
I think my stressing has used up all my spoons already! Not good.
I have to dig deep, get out of this depression that I see myself spiralling back into, and get organised again.

I know I am not superwoman, but at the moment, I feel like useless woman, as the move was taken out of my control once more. Just as I thought things were going along smoothly.
Alas the catastrophy mode, Molly has identified in me, is difficult to push away.


Snow is coming down harder now.
DGD is watching it out of the window, hoping to be able to make her snowballs!

Savvy_Sue

I don't know what to say, but if the depression doesn't lift please get to your gp and tell him. anyone would feel overwhelmed by all this.

Mooloo wrote: »

Oh Sue just noticed the bit about having a broken arm. Poor you. I have never had a broken arm, but just being limited in my left arm is bad enough.

well, atm my arm is tied to my body while the shoulder heals, but at least this should be temporary, even if it's a long temporary, so I'm not going to moan on here! but I do have an inkling of what it's like when in the blink of an eye you go from roughly in control of your life to - nothing. just over 2 weeks ago I was at work, fully independent etc, and now can't cook, can't wash, can't dress, can't shop ... unless I have help.

Savvy_sewing

Savvy_Sue wrote: »

I don't know what to say, but if the depression doesn't lift please get to your gp and tell him. anyone would feel overwhelmed by all this.

well, atm my arm is tied to my body while the shoulder heals, but at least this should be temporary, even if it's a long temporary, so I'm not going to moan on here! but I do have an inkling of what it's like when in the blink of an eye you go from roughly in control of your life to - nothing. just over 2 weeks ago I was at work, fully independent etc, and now can't cook, can't wash, can't dress, can't shop ... unless I have help.

I can relate to that. Except that my problems were not exactly sudden. But definitely the frustration is there. Do take care of yourself, and accept all the help that is around. and if its not there, ask!.
I will go and see the gp, I have an accupuncture re organised with him next week, on the Tuesday. When DGD is in Nursery. I will talk to him then.
The DLA are writing to him to ask him about my situation, before they decide on my outcome.

I better go and get dressed. hate moving from room to room at the moment.! DGD is finally playing quitely with her toys and accepted that I had a programme on the TV thats mine and not hers. But not immediately. It was a struggle. Thank goodness I had pause and rewind on the tv. I was not going to give in to her making a noise over everything to try to get me to give in.!!!

Trying to talk to BF via email about my feelings, as I am organising it all alone and feel out of it. He has said that he will get the food and drinks in for christmas. I will be going to him for christmas eve anyway. Dispite my home being topsyturvy. It will just have to wait.
Molly has offered a small christmas tree we could use for DGD at the moment. So I will maybe just make a few decorations and have a go at brightening up the front room.

Savvy_sewing

Well I am feeling a lot better, after seeing Molly, and coming back out of my spiral, slowly. I am trying to calm myself down, and accept that things have not gone smoothly, but that I can sort it out, and have mostly sorted it out, on automatic pilot over the last 24 hours.
I am exhausted from the stress, the depression is trying very hard to take a grip on me, and i am trying to fight back.
After Molly had gone, DS wanted dropping off in town, and so I ventured out. The drive at the top was a bit dicy but when we were on the roads they were fine. DGD wanted to go and see her great grandad, so we parked at the top of his road and slowly inched down it. She slipped on the ice 3 times, and as she was holding onto my left arm, that has given me some problems.
She has been good since we came home, relatively anyway, but compared to yesterday, she has been a little stubborn, but not quite so tantrumy! Thank god. But we still have to tackle the bed.
We ate leftovers today, so it was easy, just microwaving for our meal.
She is about to be taken for a bath, and then bed. So the wall heater is on in the bathroom to take the chill out of it!
Even Molly commented on how cold my bathroom is.!
My Mum gave me a pair of black slipper boots today. My feet are now toasty and warm. Bless her.
We have arranged that I will borrow my Dads Dongle between the day the broadband is cut off from here, and we move into the new house.
Mum and Dad go away the day I move in. So he will get his dongle back, just in time. We will stop the night at my parents, between the removals packing and delivering our things.
The house contents insurance has been put back onto this house, and will be transfered again on the 21st.
I havent bothered to change the car insurance again. I doubt it will matter as its more secure here anyway.
The sky should not be a problem as long as we have a dish. I am hopeful that the council will have given me the keys by the 10th so we can let the man in on the 11th.
I have re booked the carpet fitters to measure on the 10th, and to have the other carpet delivered to them instead.
They hope that they will have enough of the other carpet I wanted in stock, and are hopeful to get the carpets fitted at the beginning of the following week. They will actually have longer to get in and fit the carpet by the move being delayed till the Tuesday of the following week, as aposed to the friday.
TV licence hadnt been done yet anyway. Believe I can do that on line anyway.
Post redirecting will need to be done, but I am going to wait until I have the key to the other house. Anyway our local village post office, in the village 3 miles away, closed down this week. It was open on Monday, but not today. So must have closed on the 30th.

BF has asked me to think about the christmas menu, shopping list, and he is going to get the food and drink in. His house will be decorated by him and his daughter anyway. I have a few bits and pieces that I may just set up here, to make it feel christmasy, without all of it.

So I think that we are back on track, be it very late.

jackieglasgow

Mooloo, do the car insurance, if anything happens when you are driving you could be in trouble, possibly with the police, and the insurance company who may not honour your policy. Better to be safe than sorry - at this time of the year especially given the road conditions. I am glad you are sounding a bit more determined and organised tonight.

Savvy_sewing

jackieglasgow wrote: »

Mooloo, do the car insurance, if anything happens when you are driving you could be in trouble, possibly with the police, and the insurance company who may not honour your policy. Better to be safe than sorry - at this time of the year especially given the road conditions. I am glad you are sounding a bit more determined and organised tonight.

The car is insured, its just the contact address is changing on the 10th to the new address. As I will hopefully have the keys on the 10th I will be between the two houses, so should be OK. The tenancy will say I am there, so it will be my legal abode.
(I think).

I am running late this morning. Had my eldest, Biggest of Mooloo on the phone for over 36minutes, and I am well behind. But it was good to talk. Bless her she is suffering with the cold etc, as well as the pregnancy. I fear it will not be a breeze! She had a migraine yesterday and was unable to go to work.

I am off to take DGD to Stay and Play with her Mum, and I am not even dressed yet. Better go.

I am feeling much better today. Thank goodness.

gizmo111

Savvysue - sorry about your arm, hope you get better and heal quick - I missed this on the thread.
Mooloo
I think you are coping admirably - this cold is enough to send anyone over the edge. Give BF simple menu's for xmas so you spend the time together and with the family, not cooking, although I have to say preparing veg with a large sherry when the girls are in bed makes xmas eve for me.:j

Regards DGD, I think some of her behaviour is related to the lack of structure when she sees her mum, she has developed a secure attachment to you (which is excellent), but her attachment to mum is insecure and in some ways too informal. (Little one doesn't know where she stands and is confused who is her priority, mum or gran - in adult terms) This is something that you must have addressed in the SG Support Plan before you agree to it - SS must do some direct work with you all so you can understand how not living with her mum will impact on her now and in the future. I have some books you can borrow and can direct you to some highly respected published research available on the net when you are settled in new home if you wish. But the upside of her behaviour is it is totally normal and a healthy way of expressing her emotions and confusion at the changes, all which mean you are doing a great job with her although I appreciate it is tiring you out and is frustrating and difficult to manage with your other commitments etc. xx

Molly
I hope you are feeling better - I've been away for a week or 2 and missed lots. x

Savvy_Sue

gizmo111 wrote: »

Savvysue - sorry about your arm, hope you get better and heal quick - I missed this on the thread.

TY, I'm definitely improving but still lots I can't do!

gizmo111 wrote: »

I think you are coping admirably - this cold is enough to send anyone over the edge. Give BF simple menu's for xmas so you spend the time together and with the family, not cooking, although I have to say preparing veg with a large sherry when the girls are in bed makes xmas eve for me.:j

no, Christmas for me starts at 3 pm on Christmas Eve:

assemble boys,

equip each with veg peeler, age-appropriate knife and chopping board,

crack open nice drinks (milkshakes when they were little),

put Festival of Nine Lessons and Carols from King's College on Radio 4

no-one leaves till all veg done, and I

WILL sing descant!

although last year we had to miss it and take my mother out to lunch: it would have been their diamond wedding anniversary if Dad hadn't died 3 weeks earlier and I had a present for her he'd asked me to get. and this year I am contemplating lunch out because I can't bear the thought of trying to direct operations while armless!

and I'm sure gizmo is right about the tantrums, it's all quite normal and healthy under the circumstances ...

Savvy_sewing

Thanks both!.
Gizmo, I shall be an avid reader if you point me in the right direction.
SS here have not directed me ever. Ah well what should i expect from them.
I have written my letters and posted them, complaining about the funding etc for the Contact. The bill now stands at £1246 and I am not impressed.
I was told via email that it would be 1 -2 weeks, ages ago. Then again on Thursday that was the same reply. So I have written to the social worker, and to the head of Childrens Services in Northampton. He will have got it by now. (Or his secretary will have). I have threatened that if they do not pay me, that I will be seeking legal advice from my solicitor and possibly compensation for my treatment!. Ha put that in your pipe and smoke it !
Dont mess with Mooloo anymore!

The delay on the house is frustrating me. But most I can do has now been done.

I spent the weekend at BF's, and I mostly did some sewing of my stocking garland for advent. Be a bit late but nearly finished.
BF was a great help with DGD and gave me a much needed lie in this morning.

DS has been home with his mates and a dog again. Not happy but they went much after I got home.
Just going to eat our meal now.

Errata

Good to read you had a restful wekend. Please make sure you take the key to the cottage off DS when you move out and before you have the carpets cleaned. A dog let loose on empty rooms with just cleaned carpets is not what you need.