A new start for Mooloo

Jo4

Sorry to hear your news Mooloo, you are in my thoughts.

minimoneysaver

Anymore news Mooloo?

jackieglasgow

Och Mooloo, I don't know how I missed your update last night, I'm sorry. I hope that you have managed to hold yourself together this weekend. I'm sure we'll hear from you when you are ready to put your thoughts on this latest mini disaster together. Take care love.

Jackie X

Molly41

Hi Mooloo,
Thinking of you and yours. Really hope you all doing ok? (((((HUGS)))) x

shaz_mum_of__2

Oh mooloo

What can i say , keep your chin up and don't feel guilty

Shaz

minimoneysaver

Mooloo hasn't been here since Friday night. I hope that everything is okay. xxx

Keeping_Motivated

Didn't Mooloo say she was going to see BF to talk, maybe she still went and has not been able to get on line there.

I hope things are ok with Twin2 and my heart goes out to the children who must wonder what is going on, I hope they are ok and that Mum has been allowed to at least visit.

minimoneysaver

I second that Keeping Motivated. x

Savvy_sewing

I dont know what to say.
There is no news, as nothing has been done, they will do something called skeletal scans tomorrow, I believe. I spoke to a nurse today. The chidren are there for "thier safety". I have not been. I am not well enough to take it all and have kept back, as there is nothing I can do. Twin2 is staying with twin1, and visiting the children.
On Friday evening DGD went to stay with Biggest of Mooloo's and her BF. I collected her this afternoon. She has been a bit grumpy and calling for her granny apparantly. Granny does this, grannies house, etc etc, So testing times for the family.
My BF came and we talked. We are going to give things another go, on the proviso that we continue to talk more, and that we look to the past to makesure we do not make the same mistakes, which led to our breakup. That we try harder to make things on a more even footing.
Talking was not easy, but necessary.
Of course all of this with the children has not helped.

We did have an invite to the new Jamie Olivers Italian for lunch, in Reading. Sorry Hester I didnt have your number or the time to call.
BF's son has relocated from Oxford to Reading to help in the opening which was today.
We had a lovely lunch, the three of us. I dont remember having eaten so much in a long time. We all had to have a sleep in the afternoon.
But my mind keeps going to the children, and probably my cowardice for not calling into the hospital to see them. I am Scared that I will end up saying I will take care of them, when we all know that I cannot. I am scared that I am too ill for all of this.
One of the things that talking with BF has really highlighted is that he feels his frustrations when I am wearing myself to the bone for my family, and that they do not seem to understand its effects on me. Although I think that this week, they are beginning to realise that I am not superwoman anymore.

Well I am sorry that its a brief entry considering the masses that are going on, but I am bone weiry, and still in a state of shock really. A numbness has taken hold of my heart and my head.
I even found it difficult to write in my diary, and I have never found it so before.

I will never forgive myself if they do find problems with the grandchildren, that I have not seen, or that Twin2 was not aware of.

Savvy_sewing

Sorry people, dont know how I did that? Posted twice?
Thanks for all the concern.
I will be meeting twin1 tomorrow morning, she is coming by bus to Towcester and we are to see the English Churches people and the housing officer, to see if she can get her little house. Then I will go on to town with her, and see her sister at the hospital. Hopefully we will have some better news by then.