A new start for Mooloo

Savvy_sewing

Thats probably why I am feeling as if I have been run over by a steam roller today.
I have had my tea, and I really am feeling as if I shall be going to bed soon!. Trying to keep myself motivated today is not going to work.
So I am sitting in the arm chair, with the laptop and the TV, and was thinking of watching some of the Sport Relief then going to bed. I really do feel to tired to even light the fire! Luckily its not that cold today. (it will save me on some fuel though!).
I made my spicy one pot dinner, which was so nice, and simple. Dont know why I didnt think of cooking my dinner all in one pot before!
Think its late enough to have a few of those choccies that my parents bought for me. Oh actually now i remember I have some from Valentines day upstairs! ooooooh

Savvy_sewing

Well I would say good morning, but its not.
The weather is fowl today.
I am trying to get moving, but its not working today.
I will not have to worry about going to Oxford anymore, as my BF has finally decided after nearly 6 years thats its over. Here was I trying to save some money for a weekend away, but thats better used on my family now.
I am in a state of shock, and cant stop shaking. Apparantly, he doesnt trust me to teach a man how to sew. Apparantly I am not to be trusted, as I passed on information via a PM.
Well hello my BF, I know that you read my threads, I have known it since I lived in the flat in Oxford. I have nothing to hide, and if I did I would not have put it on an open forum. So therefore becuase I have answered to a PM you are not able to know what is happening. You cannot control my life then.

everyone on here, have been kind, supportive and informative. there has been nothing clandestine about any information given to me, from a PM. Except some kindness with gifts for DGD and myself when things have been tough.

Everything has been above board, I am not a secretive person, if I was then things would not have been on here in the first place. Yes my identity is known to a few people, out of the hundreds thats read my thread. But it is limited and has not been bandied about. Except the one photo of me holding the grandchildren I think.

Without the support of here I would have gone under a long time ago.

As you expect me to tell tales, here it is. For the world to see. Yet again when I was in need of you... Where are you? You should be ashamed of yourself. Your jealously and your crooked mind has come to this.
You have taken the floor from under my feet and left me when I needed you most.

Well my friends on here, will help me to get through, and I will continue to post on here, when I am in the mood. I will survive even though you currently have destroyed me. so here my darling BF. You can have it all as public as you like. Nothing clandestine about this.

Oh and the things you can bring me back, are my sewing machine and sewing box. My draw full of clothes, and a few hanging in the wardrobe.
They are only things.
Things do not make a person, its their heart and thier sole, and their personality. Not their things.

Edinburghlass_2

oh Mooloo, I'm really sorry to read this, you take care of yourself and please do continue to post even when you aren't in the mood because everyone does care about what is happening in your world.

Errata

I second E Lass, I'm sure a great many others will too. Take good care of yourself this weekend. As always, my best wishes.

whiteguineapig

oh i am so sorry too
please look after yourself
you are such a nice person, you don't deserve all this

Savvy_sewing

Sorry it probably is a bit of rage that has me posting. but I really cannot believe that I am expected to be so devious and fit a relationship into my life with all the stuff I have going on. Its complete madness.
I am hurting, and now I am getting text messages that are spiteful and childish.
I have no idea what to do with myself this morning now. It was supposed to be a rest from all the crap life has thrown at me, to recharge my batteries and be able to continue to cope for the coming weeks ahead.
I only wanted to sew to earn some money to stay in my cottage, and to do something outside of my family.
It should not matter if I teach a man, woman, black yellow or white. Id teach a monkey if it wanted to learn.
Well the only thing I can do is stay angry today. Or i will not survive.
Good job I touch type cos I cannot see the keys for my tears! What a stupid woman I must be to think that my BF would be with me forever. Through the thick and the thin. He has never trusted me, becuase I met him via a website. So becuase I left my husband for him, then I must leave him for someone else. 6 years later and he still thinks the same.
I must remember that and stay strong now.
Cos even though I love him so very much, he will always be the same.

remmie

Oh Mooloo, let me give you a great big hug, you poor thing!

From following your thread all I can say is that he doesn't deserve you. You are a very special and caring person and I hope that one day you meet someone who will appreciate you.

Take care, we are all here for you, feel free to rant as much as you like.

bertiebots

Oh no Mooloo... I dont know what to say. All I can do is send you a big ((((HUG)))) and hope you can dig deep and stay strong.

Savvy_sewing

I cannot concentrate thats for sure, went away frm the computer, and wondered around trying to work out what needs doing first. But to be honest I really dont care. Nobody is coming to the house except Biggest of Mooloo to return DGD at some stage so its only me that it matters too.
Think I will need to stock up on tissues though.
I have done the washing up, dressed and put my hair up in a ponytail, to keep it ou of my way. My arm didnt like being up in the air but there you go.
Mum said eat some chocolate and do what you like to do. Well thats sewing. So I may abandon the housework, and do that. But I better not eat chocolate at the sewing machine.
good job I have more than one sewing machine.
But looking around me now, I better just try and tidyup the front room, as it really is a bit of a bombsite from the kids yesterday/and the day before, and i only cleared the middle! Better do the edges.

jackieglasgow

Och Mooloo, have a hug from me. What a silly man. X