A new start for Mooloo

Savvy_sewing

Oh gosh, am overwhelmed, so many good wishes!. With all of that behind me 2010 must be better.
My computer has died, silch, nothing, so i am borrowing my daughters to log on.
We didnt have much of a christmas, dispite all the planning, DGD and her Mum both got gastroenteritis on Christmas eve, and were ill, so I spent Christmas eve watching tv on my own!. Then on Christmas morning, just as DGD was opening her presents it was my turn to get ill.! So I spent Christmas day in bed!.
On boxing day, Twin1 decided she needed to get back to her flat!. So I tentatively ventured out to take her back, and then back home.
Yesterday my BF came to see me, bearing some lovely gifts. A new modern teasmade, a digital radio, and a lava lamp to name but a few!. My parents gave me a set of telephones for the house. Biggest of Mooloo's gave me a lovely pamper kit!. Now all I need is the time!.
today I am playing taxi to twin2. She and her BF are off to visit his mum. This is a miracle, as she had dynied them all year.! She was against them from the beggining and didnt want anything to do with the new baby. So lets home that she has found some charity in her life.!
They are coping, but still in the hostel. they seem to have a good little community of people that they shared Christmas with. (didnt want to come to me anyway. Which was just as well, dont want Twin2 being ill so close to baby. Due in just over 2 weeks !). DGS has gone to the other family on boxing day. We have had to tell them that he is not on babyfood! Can you believe it they have been giving him Jarred babyfood!. He is 2. So rediculous.
Biggest of Mooloo is going to have DGD this evening, and I am going to go over to Oxford to see BF without a baby in tow!.
I am feeling a little sad today. Been very tearful. Think that life is just overwhelming me at the moment.
I am scared that I am litterally being left holding the baby.
I have just said to Mum why doesnt she take her daughter for a walk to the shops for the few things that she wants. I cannot see that she will come to any harm just doing that?
There are no set rulebooks given to us. I think that its time that Mum had some time with her daughter without me on her back?
Well I suppose if I am about to do wrong, I will find out later.
If she had been abused, or had had unanswerable problems then I wouldnt. But she has never come to any harm. It is all what the SW has percieved afterall.

I am tired of it. I dont know if I can cope with all of this in my life. I really am in a bit of a down mood.
I suppose that I am thinking far too much at the moment. The what ifs, the hows and the whys. I am running scared that I cannot do this.

Perhaps after I have had a night off, I will feel a lot better, and can recharge my batteries and get myself moving, and motivated.

minimoneysaver

Chin up Mooloo. I hope that you get your computer up and running as it is your lifeline to the outside world and a support system to you.

queen_vi

hi Mooloo hope your feeling better today
any news on your computer is it working yet

Jo4

Mooloo, I hope you got your batteries recharged and that you are feeling a lot better now. Is there ant chance that your computer just needs a new power pack like the last time?

Savvy_sewing

Hello, just borrowing the internet access at Twin1's. Visiting with DGD for an hour or so. Things are getting back to normal health wise. Even BF got the bug, and as I arrived to visit he ran off to be ill!. (He promises it wasnt the sight of me!).
Its going to be a quiet evening, BF is coming over to the village to visit me, and I will have DGD so we will just have a glass of wine together and listen to BigBen at the appropriate time.
DS is off to Oxford, had wanted me to take him, but as i am not going he is going to have to venture out on his moped!. He still isnt using it to go to work, he is still stopping at his sisters and getting the bus, so I havent actually seen him since Christmas Eve.
Twin2 is fit and well, and the midwife is definitely happy that baby has turned and is head down. I just need the energy to finish the lining for the moses basket.
Had hoped to have used my last hair dye on my hair today, and go into the new year at least without the Zebra stripe at my parting, but DGD would not go to sleep at her normal time for me. So it looks like unless she goes to bed early I am not going to manage it before BF arrives. Things there are on a "not sure what to say or do" stance at the moment. But at least we are still seeing each other. Its just even more difficult with a two year old in tow.
I am not getting the funds from her mother, as she has got herself into problems with her money, and so is paying off debts before she can give me any money. so I just said that "Who is going to buy her daughters nappies, babywipes and food, not to mention the fact that she needs new shoes!?" Also that I dont have enough petrol to come back again this week. Which I dont.
Dont have the petrol money to go to Oxford either. so I will be at home this weekend unless a miracle happens. ( I dont want to use the money for food etc) I really need to stick to the budget as best as I can.
Mind you now that the budget is a bit messed up, I am actually still £200 a month out!. DS not giving me funds and Twin1 not giving me regular funds has messed it all up completely.!. So back to the drawing board.
I may have to consult the solicitors and see if I have a right to get the childbenefit and the child tax credits for DGD paid to me. (But then I will be leaving her mum in a financial mess again too!.)
Twin2 is also still behind on her bills. She admitted it when we were at the midwife yesterday afternoon.! Possibly only becuase the housing woman was on the phone and chasing her, so I overheard.!!

Well we are off into the New Year, so lets just hope that a new year, will bring us a better wind.

I wish everyone on here a Happy New Year, and hope that I will be able to get my computer to be fixed verysoon. (I may have to wait until my parents are back from France, and ask my Dad for the last of my savings. (£190). Which was going to be used to pay for the Car Tax in February.

We are going to have Chicken tonight. I have two very large portions defrosting, and will do them with Roasted carrots, parsnips and mashed potatoes.

shaz_mum_of__2

Mooloo i am sure you should be entitled to all the benefits relating to DGD as whilst she is in your care , but they will be taken away from her mum which may cause more problems...........but at least she may get some support??

Hope you have a better year in 2010 and that you and BF sort things out

Shaz

Jo4

I hope you and your bf have a good night and that your grand daughtersleeps all night. Heres to 2010! :beer:

Savvy_sewing

Hello, still havent got my computer working. Will take it back to the shop where I got the power pack from, and see if he can help me tomorrow. But funds are so tight, I will be having to borrow from Peter to Pay Paul type of thing. Which I hate doing.
I still havent seem my son since christmas eve! I am expecting him to come home today though.
I am in Oxford, decided to come down yesterday.
We have a date for Twin1 to be assessed, currently its the 1st of February. So I shall have DGD for another month at least.
Actually looking forward to the 3 months when they are in assessment, so I get some time off.! Was thinking about trying to get some temporary work? We will have to see.
No joy on the finances at the moment, my family are in for a shock though, as i am making a note of what was "due" to me, and adding it all up. I am not letting any of them off this time. I need the funds to survive. Wont be able to keep a car on the road if I dont get help from them.
I shall be off back to the cottage in a few hours. I have the decorations and the cards etc to get sorted out. Claim some space back!
BF seems to be adjusting to my having DGD at the moment. So things are feeling a lot more stable again. Thank goodness.
His daughter babysat for us last night, for an hour or so, and we went out for a drink in a riverside pub here in Oxford. One of the ones that features in the Inspector Morse, and Lewis series on the TV. Very nice, but a bit chilly!

My parents are due back from France tonight. So I will have family near me to chat with again!. Once they have recamped back at home. Usually takes Mum a few days to adjust to being back home.

I spent £19.88 yesterday on some Cones of thread for my overlocker, and some material for curtains for BF's stair. He gave me back £10 of it. (Which is more than the material cost!), so sort of in profit.
I am determind to start sewing again, as DGD has stopped me in my tracks this last month.
Better go now, as BF is being pestered by DGD to read to her!.

Take care all, and if I cannot get on on my computer I will log on at my folks place in a few days.

Jo4

I am glad you are sounding more optimistic and that you actually got to go out with bf without gd. Could your ds not watch gd in the evenings after work to give you a break?

Errata

Good to read you and the BF had some time together and sounds like things are a bit less rocky for you both.

No joy on the finances at the moment, my family are in for a shock though, as i am making a note of what was "due" to me, and adding it all up. I am not letting any of them off this time. I need the funds to survive. Wont be able to keep a car on the road if I dont get help from them.

Thinking about what's happened with the twins - one not being able to hand over the CB to you for DGD because she needs it to pay her own bills and the other one not using the cash she got to clearing her rent arrrears so she could move out of the hostel into a house in time for the new baby - I think you need to have a Plan B.
Yes, you should get some money back from them, but realistically the likelihood of that happening seems vanishingly small.