Support for people with Depression

determined_new_ms

Hi & welcome Butterflymind. Sorry to hear that you've had a rough year. Lovely to have someone else to support & be supported by! I have only just recently started posting on this thread as my depression has been at bay for sometime, but in the last 2 months has decided to come back with a vengence

Its my birthday on Friday and am trying to muster up the enthusiasm to celebrate. Have organised a meal with 2 old work colleagues for tomorrow (am trying not to cancel) and a meal with oh, ds & dd on Friday. dd has been very sweet & nice to me today - well it is her birthday in a month!

Just try to keep going and remember this too will pass x

Butterflymind

Hello Determinednewmoneysaver

Thank you for the welcome, I am hoping this year is the worse it will get, fingers crossed.

I really hope you can celebrate on Friday, and Happy Birthday in advance.

I am not sure if I can say the same as many of you here, that my depression is something I've always struggled with, last time I felt this bad was, well, let's not go there....

I just think it is very courageous of you all to post here, it wasn't easy for me to admit I needed any help, so I think you all deserve to pat yourselves on the back. It's helped me just to read through and realise I am not on my own in this. Very difficult to get OH or family, etc to understand. I've had every reaction from 'Well, it's because you don't go out enough', 'Snap out of it', to 'I suppose you plan to sit there and brood do you?' Trying not to take these comments on board....

Butterflymind

Hello again all

I hope you are all taking care of yourselves today. Don't worry if you don't feel like replying - I'm used to talking to myself! : )

Well, just taken the plunge with my very first a-d ever. Nothing to report as I don't think they work instantly...! Saw G.P. & she went through a set of questions, and I noticed she was marking most of my answers with a '3', no idea what that means, and is referring me to CBT.

Today I felt much better, just talking to G.P. and knowing there is help out there, it's like a weight on my mind has been lifted, after struggling on to cope alone.

I woke up this morning determined I am not going to let myself spiral down any lower. I've looked on MIND web-site, looked at info about my a-d's (gulp!), and taken on board a lot of info. I am going to try and stick to a routine, as it suggests, and be more active. I've put on half a stone with comfort eating over a matter of weeks and felt sucidal.

In the past, when I went through a bad patch like this, I refused all help and felt I could do it alone, it took me years to recover. Now I have all the same feelings back again and it's like this time it will be different. Reading all your posts is an inspiration, and although I know it's not an easy thing to get through, I am focusing everything on getting better/managing it. I'm not going to feel bad/ashamed/guilt anymore just because it's happened. I feel like, if it was a physical thing like I broke my leg, I'm not going to say 'No thanks, I can cope just fine without a splint/plaster/painkillers/crutch etc'. So I am taking what's offered.

I have admitted I need help which is the hardest thing, and I am going to find out what's out there to help me, and OH, & family. Sorry if this is a bit of a rant, but, I know how bad it got for me last time, combined with feeling worthless/ashamed, how it affected my family, like being in a black hole and not even having the energy to look up out of it.

I don't know if it will work but I am going to do my damnest. It helps that I have been getting myself financially on a more secure footing for years, at one time it was the only thing I felt was a positive in my life, so it takes a lot of the strain about not working at the moment. Unfortunately, I have been fighting the 'urge to splurge' to cheer myself up, but stuck to cash I can afford, not the cards, so I can rein it in a bit better! Can't flipping move for clutter of 'stuff' in this place...

BM (On a mission!)

sock-knitter

hi butterflymind, and welcome to the thread, well done on taking the first step and admitting you need help

super stressed here, packing up and sorting things out is not going well, am moving on saturday and no way ready.
well, i best get off and get some more done, wish i had people here to help me, but sons dont want to help, i'll remember in future when they next move lol

hugs al
shaz xxx

lovethymini

Hello butterflymind, sounds like you have had one difficult year, it's really good that you saw your gp though.

Well I've been off the a-ds for a week now. So far so good.

I have volunteered to help out with DS's School Fayre on Sunday, which I am now dreading. I will be fine once I'm there, so I mustn't think about it.

I have been cycling with DS home from school ever day - he loves it, and so do I (it's downhill).

Did anyone watch the programme on Tuesday called the Food Hospital? There was one woman looking to adjust her diet to help with her depression.

determined_new_ms

Hi Butterfly - sounds like ur being really proactive to get well again! Good for you. re the spending - can you allow urself a small amount per day/week for treats? Someone on a thread I use daily does this to stop herself having mad blow outs. So she will give herself £5 a week (which she usually buys something from Lush with) and that way she doesn't feel like its all slog & no play.

Shaz good luck with the packing - I moved recently and found the nearer you get to the big day the more you are able to speed thru things

lovethymini good luck with the going o naturel! I didn't watch it but I have heard quite a few ppl on here (MSE) talking about it with mixed reviews. What did you think? I know when I was doing my degree my mil got me a list of food stuff to help with depression/when you are under stress. Not sure if it helped - was so long ago - but I got a 1st!

Feeling determined to beat my mood today :think: friend is coming around at 3.30 and we will go for a walk & then going out with 2 old work colleagues/friends this evening for dinner to celebrate my birthday tomorrow.

My dd wrote on my fb yesterday that she loves me - which after everything is a huge thing and made me feel good (even if she doesn't feel this way always about me she did yesterday and I'll take what I can get!)

Have decided will go back to work next week. Today I have been able to do the things I need to rather than sit around so thats a good sign.

I read through previous pages (inspired by butterfly I didn't even think to before!) and found part 1 of chapter 10 of Tiff's chronicals really want to read the rest!

Stay strong everyone, seek beauty in something today and forgive yourself for all of ur past mistakes x

lovethymini

Thanks dnm, to be honest I feel very well at the moment - I'm not on anything at all and I have lost that emotional numbness that I was experiencing. The ones the doc tried me with the other week made me sleep for 24 hours at first, and I was so spaced out it was horrible - I daren't drive. This is just my experience though - everyone has different reactions to different tablets. Having said that, I researched the drug only to discover they also use it as a pre-med. No wonder I couldn't stay awake :rotfl:

Good luck with the packing Shaz, exhausting but exciting!

I didn't watch the food hospital, it's on 4OD I think, but sometimes I just think it's the same info we know already, rehashed to make a new programme.

If i don't "see" you tomorrow, dnm, have a lovely birthday!

:bdaycake:


"Stay strong everyone, seek beauty in something today and forgive yourself for all of ur past mistakes x "
- brought a tear to my eye, how lovely.
I think my thing of beauty today is DS's cute dimple when he smiles.

x

Miroslav

Not posted for a few weeks so thought i'd pop in to say 'Hi' to old posters and new posters alike.

I hope everyone is as well as can be (and as warm as can be). I'm still down because the recovery from my operation is slow.

Keep well everyone.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

I am fine and well,I just won myself a 7.1 Galaxy tab 2 weeks ago and it arrived 21st November,love it loads

Sorry to hear you are feeling down Miro and that recovery from your op is slow,sending you wishes for a speedy recovery,it will take time,just take it easy and soon you will be back to full strength.
Congratulations on the council flat Shaz thats great news,Hi to everyone that is new to the thread welcome

Hi Flis,Sorry to hear of your troubles *hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx

sock-knitter

hello miro and katie:wave::wave:good to see you both
miro, hope the recovery from the op goes better than it has so far. hows the relationship with the gf, hope it is going well, you deserve some happiness
katie, congrats on the win, you are a very lucky girl
after saturday morning i will no longer have internet access, for a few weeks, or months, til it is installed in the new flat, so i wish u all well., and i'll be back online as soon as i can
determined new ms, happy birthday for tommorrow
tiff are you out there, been a long time since you posted
sazzy and gilly, how are you both
hugs to all posters, new and old
love shaz xxx