Support for people with Depression

sock-knitter

hi there, i feel your pain, i'm going through a bad patch at the mo, and have the crisis team coming out every day to see me.
i agree with your OH that your kids are responsible for their own actions.
it has taken me a while myself to be convinced my kids are responsible for themselves, mine are both boys aged 16, and no longer live with me, they have their own flats now. they have been violent towards me, and i blamed myself after being left a single parent when my ex husband left us when they were babies.
keep up with the running, i strongly believe exercise can help, and i go to the gym at least twice a week.
i would advise you to go and see your gp, as your moods are very low, if you have thought and planned your own death, then i think he may be able to help.
lastly big hugs, as i know what you are going through just now
shaz xxx

determined_new_ms

Thank you shaz, I was really scared that ppl would judge me but at the same time need to express these feelings. I've contacted my counseller to arrange going back to see her. Am so sorry to hear you are going through similar x

Lula-Hula

Hi determined new ms,

I just logged on & saw your post, although I've not used this board before, I have in the past suffered bouts of depression & am so sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment.

You are a wonderful person who has provided so much help & support to others on the DFW board & you have achieved so much yourself while there.

This time of year can be bleak for many & although I've not taken any meds for 3 years now, at times I do sense that I'm teetering on the edge of the downward spiral. As long as I recognise that's where I am, I manage to step away from the edge & I agree that exercise can be very beneficial in lifting the mood.

The fact that you recognise you are 'teetering' shows that you are still in control & I'm so glad you have arranged to see a counsellor.

Hugs to you
xx

determined_new_ms

oh gawd so emotional! Welled up with tears at both of these kind posts. Thank u lula x

Lula-Hula

The world can be such a lonely place at times; whilst technology enables us to communicate so freely, it can also isolate us as we can do so much of our day to day living such as shopping, paying bills etc online. We lose that regular human contact & it's easy to start to feel very separate from society & sometimes we just need reminding that we do actually exist & our presence is valued.

xx

determined_new_ms

Hi (if there's anyone out there) rough day yesterday. Had to go to a course in London, and mood was very low. Called my temporay boss (mine is on leave indefinately) and told her how I have been feeling & if it doesn't get better I may need some time off of work. Felt good to at least tell her & have agreed I will call her if I need any additional support. Went to see my dd and that didn't go as I had hoped when I got there she wasn't there so I spoke to the family she is staying with and it looks like the placement is going to breakdown & they cannot cope with the way she is behaving. She then turned up but clearly had been smoking weed and I have told her before I won't spend time with her when she is like that. so came home & worried about her.

Did a lot of research on depression & found some good sites yesterday. Am going to try some of the things they suggested today to see if it helps me through the day -

• not allow myself to feel guilty (hardest one I think!) its not helpful and is very damaging
• spending some time with a friend I really like after work
• going to go for a run - couldn't face it last night
• watch a film with oh this evening
• clean the kitchen if I have time

I think thats enough for now. Hope eveyone else out there is doing ok x

flis21

Hey all, sorry I haven't been on for a while. Welcome to new posters and rergulars - I hope you're all doing ok. I'v ebeen very low recently, everything is getting on top of me. Seriously considering closing my business. It's so hard being a single mum to 2 such young children, running my own business, trying to keep on top of the house etc. And to top it all my nan is now very seriously ill in hospital. I'm only getting in to see her once a week, which I hate, but I can't take the kids in and have no one to look after them while i go. My Mum's kidneys are stable at the mo, but she's having monthly function tests, as the doctor has given her 6-12 months until her kidneys fail. I just really feel like everything is getting on top of me.

It does help to write it all down, but won't solve anything i suppose!

Best wishes to all,

Flis xxx

determined_new_ms

Hi flis sorry to hear that things are tough for you big ((((hugs)))) nothing to advise I'm afraid, just to look after yourself, your life must be exhausting at the moment and take time to make any life decisions until you're in a better frame of mind and able to fully consider everything. Stay strong x

determined_new_ms

still talking to myself! Good job my skin is a thick as tracing paper! Hope everyone out there is ok. Weekend wasn't too bad, in fact managed to have some laughter with my oh & went for a 4.5km run. Got my time down to 37mins - still a way to go before I can run 5k in 30 mins but an improvement. Today was quite bad & I'm not sure how I managed to get through the day, at 3ish I really thought I was going to go off sick. Hoping its just monday blues & will feel better tomorrow. I am desperately clearing my diary diary for mon-wed next week as I have the chance to go stay in a posh hotel with my oh who is on a business trip. I think relaxing, reading, walking & use of spa facilites will do my mood good

sock-knitter

hi determined new ms, the posh hotel sounds a real treat, and i'm sure it will do you good, enjoy
not been too good here lately, feels like i'm grieving, big sence of loss, joshua no longer wants any contact with me, and i'm heartbroken, the things he said over the weekend were the worse i've ever heard, and the only time he will see me again, is at my funeral. crisis team still involved, and i've a referal for day treatment at the mental health clinic.
today been for an independant living assessment, and i'll find out in one to two weeks, whether i will have a flat on an independant living scheme, maybe there is light at the end of this dark tunnel after all
shaz xxx