Support for people with Depression

determined_new_ms

hi shaz. Lots of cyber love going out to you right now. Sorry that its been such a rough weekend. Is Josh ur son? try to think that he's just young & trying to come to terms with his life & issues at the moment. I know its hard. Hopefully with maturity things will improve.

Fingers crossed for you re the assessment & that you get the outcome you want. Try to be kind and lovng to urself, try not to be too hard on urself. Whatever has happened & however you got to where you are you tried ur best with the resources you had. That's all any of us can do.

DNM x

sock-knitter

DNM hope tommorrow is a better day for you. do u go running every day? my knees wont let me run (arthritis) but i do go to the gym twice a week, which helps with my mood
yes josh is my son, and after the events on the weekend, i really fear that he will never speak to me again, we never had the easiest of relationships, but since he became involved with an older woman, she seems to have complete control over him, and dosent want anyone but her to spend time with him, so she twists what we say to him, and manipulates situations, and tells him lies which of course he believes, as he is so vulnerable
good night
god bless
shaz xxx

LadyMorticia

Welcome to the thread Newbies.:grouphug: The M.E brain fog has royally !!!!ed my head up so apologies for no "individual" posts. Will post proper replies soon.

I think I might start writing again. I have alot of inner turmoil that I need to address and putting pen to paper is the only "safe" way I know of dealing with it.

determined_new_ms

Hi everyone. I'm guessing the lack of posting means most people on this thread are having a hard time at the moment. I'm still struggling, mood is low, and motivation to do stuff is even lower. I've decided to make a gp appt to get anti-depressants as mood isn't lifting, its been about 6 weeks I've been feeling low so I feel the time is right now. I have 5 days off of work & am going to Coventry with oh on Monday - looking forward to this but hoping its not going to be too expensive - due to mood am having trouble living within my budget as I don't care about much at the moment. Decided today to focus on getting a couple of things done & feeling good about that rather than a big list of things not done to beat myself up over. Love to you all x

lovethymini

Evening all, been lurking for a few days, wanted to post but didn't know what to say!

Firstly - Determined new MS, sorry to hear of the low mood phase you're in, I hope the clouds break for you soon. I think your idea about short to-do lists is spot on - I need to do that instead of 2 pages of A4.

A little bit on me - I've been depressed since childhood, diagnosed just over 3 years ago, and I really want to be proactive dealing with this, (as and when my head is above water) in the hope that I can feel more in control and hopefully help others.

I never linked depression with overspending until I found MSE, but put it this way - when I met my DH he built me a shoe cupboard

x

flis21

Hey guys,

Sorry for not posting for a while, I have been having a v hard time, but feel a little better now. My nan is in hospital and she's been really bad, but when I saw her yesterday she was looking a lot better. Last friday I discovered someone who was supposed to be my friend was saying some truly horrible things about me behind my back, particularly relating to the fact that i don;t look after my children properly (which is a load of crap!). That spiralled me down and for about 4-5 days I didn't want to leave the house, I was crying all the time, couldn't sleep etc. But I am picking myself back up now, thanks mostly to my other lovely friends who have rallied round me.
Saw my Gp on tuesday, my iron levels are still low, which is why I feel so tired all the time, am now on the maximum dose of iron tablets to try and raise it. Also reviewed my meds, with a possible view to raising the dose, but she wants to see me again in 2 weeks, as the stuff with my so called friend had only recently happened and that was making me v upset. She wants to see if I can bounce back a bit and I'm hoping I can, I feel a bit better now.

Lovethymini - welcome to the thread. Oh depression is definitely linked to overspending, you wanna see how many christmas presents my children now have since I have been feeling low recently!! Before I had them I used to spend on myself, now my overspending tends to be linked to them instead!

Hope everyone else is ok and finding light in the darkness.
Flis
xx

sock-knitter

morning all, very low mood here too, still have crisis team making daily contact, alternate days telephone call, then next a visit.
just feel like i'm in the bottom of a big black hole, and cant climb out.
i overspend too, on things i dont need
hope we all find brightness soon
shaz xxx

determined_new_ms

Hi everyone! Good to have some moral with others that know how I'm feeling. Shaz thats a big step that the CHRT are now visiting alternate days, that sounds to me like a step in the right direction. I did something really lame yesterday. I was supposed to be going to a comedy night with my friend & her dh and then 3 hours before I couldn't face being around anyone so cancelled. My friend was really peeved with me. So that was something to feel carp about. I hate myself when I'm like this & think its no wonder if my friends turn away from me & wonder when my oh will tire of me. Oh well can't think like that. will make GP appt for wednesday afternoon when I return home. Love to you all x

lovethymini

I really, really want to cancel my appt with the hairdressers tomorrow, I'm just not in the mood to talk to anyone, but I'm not letting myself cancel. I will feel just as bad cancelling her at the last minute.

Just to share a mishap I had yesterday - took car to carwash just 3 miles away; got there to discover a long queue and decided to wait, car was getting hot (he doesn't like queueing), then it was our turn, car died in the middle of the carwash tunnel thanks to water getting onto a wire somewhere, so a kind Polish man helped me push the car, he was so enthusiastic/strong I had to jump back in and yank the handbrake to stop us crashing into the car in front, managed to locate cause of sudden death of car - blown fuse, replaced it, got car working (screen all steamed up by now, so frantically wiping away so that I could move car along queue safely), car engine getting all hot, finished getting washed, got dried, pulled away - Car died again, pushed car, couldn't budge it, kind man asked if it was still in gear (yup) put car into neutral, another man help me move car, parked car, put head on steering wheel, got out, put some petrol in from my emergency petrol tank, drove to petrol station, refuelled, key fob battery died, took 20 tries to switch immobiliser off, got home 1 hour later.

I think I'll avoid that carwash for a while.

Not taking any medication at the moment, so I'm acutely aware of my state of mind. Yesterday's mini adventure kind of perked me up though, perhaps it was the adrenaline rush caused by the panic.

Off to collect DS from school, a brisk walk will be good, trying not to think about the energy required looking after DS from now until his bedtime.

x

sock-knitter

been to a funeral today, and just got back and my head is a real mess. was going to cancel going, but it was my best friends husband, and needed to be strong for her.
lovethymini, wow such a lot to happen to your car, i would have panicked like mad, well dont to u for coping
detemined new ms hope the gp appointment goes well on weds and they can offer you something helpful
have crisis team coming out today, have a feeling it could be the last one, which IS a positive, and things arnt as desperate as they was. still cant wait to be offered a flat and move out of this house tho, so many memories. also very worried about ds2 he is in police custody at the mo, just glad the violence wasnt aimed at me this time, and also feeling guilty that i'm thinking that way
yep head messed up and confused, and i'm rambling lol
hugs all
shaz xxx