Support for people with Depression

jenniewb

Sazbo wrote: »

Aww are you sure you're ok pips? Many's the time I've sat on the tube fighting tears, sometimes successfully, sometimes less so:o... and occasionally I'd realise someone was looking at me, wondering whether to say something or not!

Glad I'm not the only one! My best plan is to wham up the MP3 and if anyone asks I have my eyes tightly shut! (No one ever has said anything so far!) But I've seen people in tears on public transport too- offered them a tissue but normally understand they don't want to talk about it- just know if I am in the same position, having a tap for a nose can make it feel alot worse if you don't have tissues! (Have learnt to carry a few packets around with me now!)

Hope everyone here had a better day then I had. Its set to get worse: fillings due tomorrow as a result of a mini eating disordered relapse I had 3 weeks ago and then I am set to run flat out of cash robbing from peter to pay paul (credit cards) though should teach me a lesson: do not overspend at Christmas no matter how good the sale prices look!

shazrobo

morning all
hope your feeling better today pipkin, i've been known to burst into tears in public places too, and never leave home without a small pack of tissues
beachbeth, have you tried lavender essential oil in bath, and a few drops on your pillow, helps me sleep
sh1305, glad to hear your feeling better, and sleeping well
hugs all
shaz xxx

beachbeth

I can really identify with how you feel, losingpatience. I have felt like that and still do at times. Please make sure you keep seeing your gp. Whether he gives medication or refers you to someone else he is best placed to help.

All I can say is hang in there because there is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if you can't see it.

jenniewb

losingpatience wrote: »

Morning all

Having a bit of a carp time of it all at the minute. For the first time in my life I've asked for a sick note from my doctor, was off last week and can't see how I can do my job just now so going to be off the rest of this week. I'm not sleeping at all, I just can't switch off despite being completely exhausted so now even the simplest task like making a cuppa is so hard as I'm just so tired. Feeling really low at the moment, keep crying over the smallest of things. Was supposed to be going shopping with my mam and sister on Saturday but ended up having a panic attack and stayed home, I couldn't face going out into town with all those people.

I feel so guilty for being off work, but I do accounts/finance and I know I won't be able to do my job, it's a stressful enough job at the best of times without feeling the way I do. Before I went off I was making mistake after mistake which was starting to reflect badly on the company, I just can't seem to concentrate on anything at the moment and it's pretty soul destroying feeling this useless.

I found myself getting all morbid last night as well. After the scare of thinking I might lose the OH I was thinking I can understand why people go through life alone without letting anyone be close to them. That way you won't get hurt if you lose them for whatever reason. The thought of losing my family and the ones I love makes me feel physically sick, I just can't stop thinking about this at the moment.

Glad your doctor seems to have been helpful in writing you the sick note- has he/she offered any support in the way of councelling or therapy? (or are you looking for anything?) just know it makes a big difference to me anyway.

Can relate to the other things you mention, I wonder if its a side effect of being depressed- the "morbid thinking" (I never know what to call it). I do this alot and its so much worse when I am low, its an intrusive thought I can't seem to shake, scares me alot and I never know what to do with it besides try to keep my mind occupied and not look to far ahead which I know is not a real solution. I try to talk about it with my therapist but I am too worried about tempting fate. If anything to anyone I really don't like to think what my actions would be. I do think though if you can talk about it or even just write it down to show someone if you can't get the words out, it can really help as if anything it lets someone else know where your at and you stand a better chance of not feeling so iscolated and so the depression loses some of its grip.

Am off to the gym now (my free time seems to be gym gym gym) I wish I knew a way to cut down without getting fatter! Not going feels scary, going feels like a mindfield in itself (lots of cardio and high heart rates and discomfort) so am a bit ....(where is that "confused" icon when you need it!!) I hope one day I can get some of my life back instead of devoting it soley to exercise which doesn't seem to benefit anyone, least of all me!

Hope everyone else is managing OK and the weather perks up a bit- feb is such a miserable month isn't it?!

beachbeth

Its been snowing here all afternoon. Glad I took the dogs for a walk this morning before it started. Felt in need for comfort this afternoon so I got some bread going in my breadmaker and made some chocolate brownies (think that time of the month is approaching!:cool:) You should smell the aroma in my kitchen!

rubytuesday

Managed to get to the city farm with my walking group today despite the sleet, snow, rain. That always make me smile!

beachbeth

I don't mind walking in the snow, its just the wind and rain I can't stand! Still, I'll be glad when the spring comes and we see some sunshine. I think the sun came out for about 30 seconds this morning. I very nearly dashed outside with my sunglasses!

rubytuesday

beachbeth wrote: »

I don't mind walking in the snow, its just the wind and rain I can't stand! Still, I'll be glad when the spring comes and we see some sunshine. I think the sun came out for about 30 seconds this morning. I very nearly dashed outside with my sunglasses!

I try and get out in most weathers and enjoy it but probably the icy wind is the worse!

System

Completely broke down in front of a friend earlier. they were saying how they'd agreed to go to a photoshoot and asked if i'd come with and i ended up having a full on panic attack at the mere thought of someone taking my picture. I hate how i look and unless she can work miracles the photgraphs of me would be hideous. No idea where it came from but i just felt completely overwhelmed:( I really don't like myself right now.

Currently attempting to do my "homework" for tomorrows session with my OT., Its like being back at school again. I wish i would let myself get more out of this.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,*hugs* to those that need one I have been well for months now and doing good.Seeing my boyfriend on Saturday instead of tomorrow so that will be nice for me.

Have a nice day everyone!


love and light,

Katie xxx