Support for people with Depression

Tulip

I am off now


Night! Night!


love and light,

Katie xxx

geminilady

It is still very quiet on here.Where is everyone?

shazrobo

hi geminilady, how are you?
how is evedryone else?
not been up to posting, life a bit difficult at mo. dont think ian and myself going to last much longer, cant cope with his moods and sulks, dont know whats got into him lately, he never tells me anything, i didnt even know he had today off. he went out and got very drunk again last night, now expects sympathy cos he got bad head and stomach, serves himself right. josh been a moody so and so lately too, if he cant have his own way.
school hols coming up, no plans weather too cold to go anywhere, and most places super busy
sorry for rant
shaz xxx

Tulip

I am off now,

chat tomorrow

Night! Night!

love and light,

Katie xxx

shazrobo

cant stop crying, i love ian so much, its really hurting that he chooses to treat me this way, then i'll be daft enough to forgive him when he decides to come round, and we'll be ok for a couple weeks, til same thing happens again, and i'll get the blame, as he always blames me as the reason hes in a mood

Sazbo

Shaz sweetheart i'm sending you big hugs. Please don't cry hun. Do you have any inkling as to why Ian is being so moody? Is he having problems at work or something? But whatever the reason he has no right to take it out on you at all, that's just not on.

This is just me thinking out loud shaz and I'm not saying I'm right, but it does seem a lot of the time that you are doing all the compromising and making allowances around him? If he doesn't want to do something then it's always you that compromises. There never seems to be a lot of him putting YOU first?

But forgive me shaz if I am speaking out of turn there xx It's just that we care about you a great deal and want to so much for you to be happy. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it so:o... same goes for everyone here really... you are in my thoughts every day.

Gem hun - yes it's been very quiet here. We've been out xmas shopping today (had the day off work) and got home quite late this evening. I owe you a reply to your message which will be winging its way to you tomorrow:) How are you today? Any plans for the weekend? xx

RBK you've been on my mind lately - hope everything's ok with you hun xx

Well, reckon I'm gonna turn in soon, feeling quite tired. Hope everyone's doing ok. Take care and sleep well.

Much love to all,
Sazzy xxxxx

geminilady

shazrobo wrote: »

hi geminilady, how are you?
how is evedryone else?
not been up to posting, life a bit difficult at mo. dont think ian and myself going to last much longer, cant cope with his moods and sulks, dont know whats got into him lately, he never tells me anything, i didnt even know he had today off. he went out and got very drunk again last night, now expects sympathy cos he got bad head and stomach, serves himself right. josh been a moody so and so lately too, if he cant have his own way.
school hols coming up, no plans weather too cold to go anywhere, and most places super busy
sorry for rant
shaz xxx

HI Shaz,I am ok thanks my mood has lifted so fingers crossed it will last over christmas as i don't want to spoil it for my boys the youngest is 17 but it does affect people when someone in the household is down.Sorry you are finding it had with Ian at the moment.Have you asked him why he is moody?It does seem strange that he did not mention he was having a day off,maybe because he wanted to spend it with his mates and thought you would object.I too would have no sympathy if someone drinks too much they have to suffer the conquances.Sorry Josh is moody,how is Daniel at the moment?i suppose you must often find even if one of them is ok the other plays you up.I know how stressfull you find the school holidays so make sure you have some me time while you can,treat yourself to something nice because you deserve it.

geminilady

Sazzy I am fine thanks,have you finished your christmas shopping now? I have almost finished as i only have the boys to buy for.I have booked the Tuesday before christmas off to get odds and ends and do my big food shop,got a quite good break over christmas,off from christmas eve until new years eve when i just have to do a couple of hours then off again until the following wednsday really looking forward to the break as i have only had one full week of this year,took the rest a couple of days at a time. Just shopping to do tomorrow then watching xfactor final,i would like Ollie to win but think it will be Joe.I usually spend sundays catching up on the tv i have missed i am a big eastenders and corrie fan.

shazrobo

morning, thanks for replies, as far as i know he spent the day of recovering from his hangover, tried texting him to see if he was ok, texts got ignored as did my phone calls. he text me goodnight at 7.30 pm, very strange he never goes to bed that early, think it was just to stop me texting. have absolutly no idea why he is ignoring me, i text him again this morn, and no reply, i know he is on earlies today, so again ignoring me.
yesterday i did ask him what day he was coming over next, as i knopw he works shifts, and reply was, 'i'll let you know when i can'
starting to have suspicions but i'm not sure, just seems really strange. am confused and rambling lol.
think josh was moody cos daniel home for weekend, and after doing as he likes all week, there has to be compromise with daniel.
daniel is doing really well at the moment, his new medication really seems to have helped him.
glad your mood has lifted gem, and that it lasts, think i'll be just putting on a brave face for the sake of my kids,
sazzy, enjoy the xmas break, you deserve it hun
hugs
shaz xxx

Sazbo

Gemini - think I've got most of what I needed for xmas... although to be honest with every year that passes I become more and more turned off by the increasing commercialism of it all. I wish people didn't feel they have to spend loads of money at xmas, y'know? The thing I was most thrilled about gettting was some beautiful glossy green holly when Gilly Badger and I was out this afternoon, that had lovely red berries on it:) Perfect to adorn the xmas wreath on our front door and snipped from a hedgerow, so very MSE;)

We are of out in a min to watch Villa Man U in the pub but we too will be settling down to watch the X Factor final when we get back. I'd like Olly to win too:)

Shaz - how are you this evening? I just hope Ian treats you the way you deserve to be treated - it's really not so much to ask, imo... big hugs hun xx

Hope everyone's having a nice Saturday.

Much love to all,
Sazzy xxxxxxxxx