on the verge of ending it. cant see a way out

rosered1963

Great to hear from you. XXX

laura2481

Glad all went well. XX (posting mainly on you main diary)*hugs*

Nargleblast

Well done Blondie. Your new life starts now, and with the support of your colleagues here on the DFW forum the sky is not the limit!

pepe2008

blondiedebtfree wrote: »

I just wanted to update you all from yesterday.
I went to the doctors, feeling a bit like a little kid who had been naughty.

My doctor was great, he knew how i felt. I cried my eyes out.
Hes given me tablets and signed me off work for a month. He said i have to take the paper to the job centre to claim.

I feel better today. Im so sorry for making you all worried about me.

I want to say that yesterday was probably one of the lowest i have ever felt in my life and all your messages helped me feel better. I cnt thank you enough.

I am going to my sisters today to take my nephew to the park to help clear my head. Maybe sit on the swings. xxxx

Thats probably the best post I've read all year. From a six-foot plus trucker who has also sat in front of his Doc and cried his eyes out..........this is the time when you need to make some time for yourself! All money stuff can be sorted out one way or the other, but money is NEVER worth destroying your personal happiness over.
and dont apologise for ANY of your situation. xx

savingholmes

Hi blondie - enjoy your day. Make sure you plan little treats just like today into your week... It does make a difference.

Pepe - thanks for your honesty - I have had time off work for depression too but if you saw me at work now you would never know.... it is just a season of life that comes to a lot of us at some point or other...

kborom

The first step is always the most difficult, so well done for doing that Blondie.

Remember that your main responsibility is to yourself, put your own requirements first and things will soon start getting better.

pepe2008

savingholmes wrote: »

Hi blondie - enjoy your day. Make sure you plan little treats just like today into your week... It does make a difference.

Pepe - thanks for your honesty - I have had time off work for depression too but if you saw me at work now you would never know.... it is just a season of life that comes to a lot of us at some point or other...

Thanks s h, been there three times! Its amazing what can trigger it, cognitive therapy can work well and can be practised quite easily.
My siggie read ' Constantly failing to surprise myself' for a while and that summed it up. I now know when I am reaching for the 'self-destruct' button and can pull back before doing somthing daft that just upsets me and all around me.

Talk, talk, talk, dont suffer your problems alone Blondie. x

bank_of_slate

Hi Blondie, hope your day with your sister was a good one!
Great to hear you sounding more positive, please keep posting
...Linda xx

Rammstein1

hey blondie
ive just read this from start to finish and have tears running down my face
iv got to admit that i havnt seen any of your diary but after reading all the replies here it is obvious to me that you are a well respected member of this forum who has got so many friends on here that you should never feel alone or unloved and especially not pathetic
you have taken the 1st step to getting your life in order and thats the biggest one
you really need to think about this ex b/f of yours
how any man can blame his partner for the loss of their child is beyond me and even though i dont know you i think you deserve better than him
you have so many friends on here who are only too willing to sit and listen to you
i cant give any advice but i can say well done for going to the docs and starting out
im a 45 year old bloke who lost his soulmate because of my debt and i have been close to where you were yesterday but with the help of the friends i have around me i am getting there one day at a time
you will be loved again because you are obviously someone who deserves it and that will be seen
good luck and best wishes
im off to dry my eyes now

Rammy

GT60

Hi ya Blondie
Hope you are feeling a lot better after your day out.
If you want a laf have a look at my reply in http://forums.moneysavingexpert.com/showthread.html?t=1582935
I think i have manage to upset all the car drivers:rotfl:
it's about time hgv drivers got our own back

Get well soon please
Niall