on the verge of ending it. cant see a way out

blondiedebtfree

I just wanted to update you all from yesterday.
I went to the doctors, feeling a bit like a little kid who had been naughty.

My doctor was great, he knew how i felt. I cried my eyes out.
Hes given me tablets and signed me off work for a month. He said i have to take the paper to the job centre to claim.

I feel better today. Im so sorry for making you all worried about me.

I want to say that yesterday was probably one of the lowest i have ever felt in my life and all your messages helped me feel better. I cnt thank you enough.

I am going to my sisters today to take my nephew to the park to help clear my head. Maybe sit on the swings. xxxx

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Hi Blondie

Thanks for the update, I am glad it went well at the GP's. Going to the park sounds like a wonderful idea - no worrying today, take some time just for you and keep posting. x

Hollyberry

A big :T to your GP for listening carefully and understanding. That's great news, and a medicinal trip to the park sounds good too. The healing power of swings, flowers and hopefully ducks too can't be underestimated.

Be gentle with yourself, eh? I'm really glad that you felt able to post here yesterday, and that it helped. Now where's that big bouquet of flowers smiley when I need it?

ebonylight

That's good that your GP was on your side, it took a lot of courage to go and talk to him! Well done you.

Nothing better than an afternoon in the sunshine, soak it up and enjoy the moment hun

You know where we are if you need any more support and love

rupe34

:hello: Hey Blondie - I'm posting on both threads to say that I am SO GLAD to hear from you today!!! Well done for going to the doctors - like many of us I've been there myself and found my doctor to be WONDERFUL - sounds like yours is too. Soak up some Vit D in the sun - and we'll see you later x

Swinstie73

Hi Blondie,

Never knew about this thread - yikes! You have always sounded so upbeat and you will get there again - just want to lend my support (I even got my hair highlighted again), so am now officially a Blondie gang member! Keep positive and don't squeeze Marmite too tight..

Norfolk_Jim

I'm glad your doctor was helpful. There is light at the end of the depression tunnel, it just takes time. Last Feb I had a total breakdown and could really relate to your just not knowing what to do. I too realised I needed help and went to the doc. I was off work for the best part of a year and it was tough but now I'm so much better and really starting to make some difference in my life. I'm sure that you too will become in a position to get back on your feet but for now you have to give yourself some space to get well.
The worst that will happen is you'll go bankrupt -Not the end of the world, its only money and things in the end - and there are many stories on here where that was a real relief and a new start - which is what it is meant for. So please try to remember as much as you can that these feelings are temporary. Also it takes a little while to tweak the dose to get the best out of the medicine for you. So sorry to hear how tough its been for you, a lot of us have been through similar and I've found the support of strangers a real help. Hope you do too. Good Luck

Jo4

Enjoy your day out with your nephew. Take time to yourself and enjoy doing the simplier things in life.

Merlinexcalibur

I am going to my sisters today to take my nephew to the park to help clear my head. Maybe sit on the swings. xxxx

Good. Begin to enjoy life again.

UNCLE_BUCK

Good on ya blondie thats better, you sound much more positive now, stick close to your family they will help you thru the crap times. i know what its like, the seperation, the debts, the divorce, the heartbreak of not seeing your kids every day like before the split, it was bad but blondie it will and does get better, please please keep going and keep ya chin up. you will come thru this and you will be one strong woman for it.