Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

mustangsal

thanks everyone. washing machine is looking promising for next week. have to manage handwashing in the bath til then. so fingers crossed. cant linger. got loads of cooking and prep to do.
sally. x

emweaver

my washing machine has broke to so am having to take it to mums to wash which is challening as I find leaving the house a challenge and finding the energy to get myself ready to go out!

mustangsal

hey everyone, emweaver, i know how difficult it is to get yourself motivated and just get past the front door. i try to see it as an achievment everytime i manage to get out though. it helps me feel a bit more positive.
unfortunately, i don't have the option of taking washing to my mams, we don't live near any family. which at the moment i'm quite grateful for. they managed to turn a tiny muisunderstanding into a huge row at my sons party last night. which ended in a screaming match in the street in front of my house.
i still cant work out how it escalated so fast. or from something so small. i was so embarrassed. no doubt it will now be dragged out. and now my family and my parteners family will not be in the same house together. which is going to make the kids birthdays really tough. it's not fair.
so my dog is loving all the drama, i couldn't stop shaking all last night. feeling calmer now. just dreading the next installment.
hope everyone is having a nice quiet restful sunday with their dogs.
sally. x

emweaver

my family are the same lol. i have found the energy to get ready today and was all set to leave the house and mums not there despite telling me to come up after lunch so feel a bit annoyed as she doesnt understand and thinks im being lazy by not going out, getting dressed etc

mustangsal

i'm kinda lucky in that my family kinda understand depression, my mam had it for years. my mil doesn't really get it. even though she's had a minor breakdown herself. she thinks you should just be able to "pull yourself together". i wish it was that easy!
should be getting my second hand washing machine next week. only costing me £30. so i'm thrilled. cant wait!

LameWolf

((((HUGS)))) to those whose families are less than understanding. I'm completely estranged from my family; just remember, "friends are the family you choose for yourself".:o

mustangsal

I totally agree Lamewolf! i have friends who have stood by me through the worst times. i truly do see them as family. real family. i wouldn't part with them for the world.:A

Gemmzie

Have any of you found a good counsellor privately? I've given up on getting NHS help due to the GP issue. How do you go about looking?

happymumto2

I have been reading this thread for a few days plucking up the courage to write, not that you're all scary, is just me scared of everything :eek: .

I was diagnosed with depression 2 weeks ago (reactive caused by life events over past 2 years or so). Am not one for medication but knew I hadn't been myself for at least 2-3 years, but never admitted it to anyoneas I didn't want people to think I couldn't cope.
Saw a GP (not my own but a locum), was in the room for 3-4 minutes, when I broke down and admitted how I was feeling and why, he suggested Nytol!! I said I din't think it would be very helpful so he gave me a prescription for anti depressants. Am seeing my own GP Thursday as am having every side effect known to man!
Now I feel like a fake, I have a very supportive colleague but find myself avoiding her as she keeps asking me when I'm going back to work, even though she was the one that said she had seen a decline in me over past 6 months, and felt I over-reacted to a situation with another colleague at Xmas (which I disagree with still, as even well I would have done some thing!).
I also have a very supportive sister, and stay with her most weekends, when I am there I am fine, a bit low now and again but bearable, minute Sunday morning comes and I know I'm going home the anxiety symptoms start and get tearful (she lives 3 miles away so its not a distance thing!), it's really bizzarre. Had no anxiety syptoms prior to the medication, just low mood and crying.
Colleague rang me Saturday in sisters and said "you sound much better, you're not as agitated, and then when into great detail about her stress levels because they are short staffed!". I love her to bits but I don't think she realises how bad I feel most of the time, she rang me at home yesterday and said "you sound flat today are you putting it on", I know it was a joke but it really got to me as I'm not faking this. I did explain I felt okay in my sisters.
Saw occupational health yesterday (I work for NHS, advised staff counselling, which is fine except the counsellor is male and I don't feel I could offload the last 2 years onto a man (no offence to gentlemen sufferers))
Have done a Peter Barlow today (you know the episode in Corrie at Xmas where he turned up drunk at his sons Christmas play!), well not quite that bad! As soon as I started getting ready to go to his Easter Fair, the pounding in my chest started, which I can hear in my ears, I start pacing and talking to myself to try and calm myself down, which makes me worse. So I drunk 2 glasses of wine before leaving (school is at end of street, so no driving!).
Have rambled on and on now, am really sorry, its just I feel if I keep talking to my sister and colleague they are going to get sick of me!
Hugs to all that are feeling down today xxx

holistic_witch

marrowgirl wrote: »

Hi guys,

I've noticed this thread has been a bit quiet for the last few days. I hope everyone is alright and the dogs are being quiet. Hopefully I'm just being over protective!
I'm taking my black dog with me to see my counsellor now. I've been told by my GP that I have PCOS which is messing up my hormones and making the depression worse She wants to prescribe the pill but can't cause I'm too fat, but says it will be hard for me to lose weight without the pill regulating my hormones. Catch 22 then eh? :think: I'm depressed and comfort eat, my hormones make me put on weight easier which makes me more depressed so I eat more. Sigh!
Sorry to be a bit miserable today.:(

have a word with GP i've got Pcos and take metformin 3x a day its regulated my weight but hormones still out balance