Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

Unity

I'm sorry I'm not around much at present, but what with the weekend away followed by hospital appointments all on top of trying to get everything ready for Christmas - I am getting floored by it all and generally fall asleep during the news at 6 pm. There's all the usual stuff plus knitting a hooded top (designing it myself as I go) for DS and a pair of socks each for DD1 & 2.

Anyway I just wanted to say "NOBODY MOVE!" Don't leave, do not pass go and don't pick up £200. Let's not have our thread hi-jacked by the odd poster - and let's continue to give support to all who need it

That's all I wanted to say - and take care of yourselves.

LameWolf

((((Gentle hugs)))) to all who need them today.

Being very careful, as my paws and my back are giving me mega-gyp, probably as a result of doing a pile of washing by hand cos my washing machine was poorly sick.

Plumber has now been and fixed machine; pity he couldn't fix me as well!:D

*waves* to Molly. Might see you in town on Saturday.

crazy_girl

LM- ouch! are you feeling any better now? im impressed with your handwashing i think i would have just worn everything i owned till it was fixed, im too lazy and rubbish at stuff to manage that!

sandy- i was a little confused and mixed up about the whole thing but im thinking now what you anyone get from making that up? i believe you and im sorry that a poster posting similar stuff to you has caused this

molly- that phone call must have been very worrying, can anything be done about it/ anyone help you to solve the problem?

unity- agreed! christmas is really flooring me so i cant imagine how much its doing for those of you with children, i admire you still making them stuff when you feel so rotten

crazy_girl

went back to psychotherapy today, hes gonna ring my gp and get him to either diagnose me himself or refer me back to a psychiatrist who can diagnose me oficially, he said that the diagnosis will probably be: ocd (this is all it is thus far), depression, anxeity and BPD. sounds quite a collection.

im self-harming pretty badly at the moment, my arms and legs look awful

Unity

crazy_girl wrote: »

unity- agreed! christmas is really flooring me so i cant imagine how much its doing for those of you with children, i admire you still making them stuff when you feel so rotten

Thanks Crazy_girl - if only they were 'children' :rolleyes: the stuff I make would be so much smaller and quicker to make :rotfl:. They are all grown-up now, but I like to make them each something with my own hands, as I feel it is putting a little bit of 'me' into their lives. In addition of course it helps to keep my hands mobile, despite the arthritis. DD1 and 2 live at opposite ends of the UK - so I know whenever they wear the socks I've knitted they'll think of home. DS is about 5'11" and quite muscular - but at least he wanted the top to be fitted, rather than baggy he's at uni, living in a student flat, but we still see him alternate weekends as he's got a season ticket for the local team and wouldn't miss a game :T.

I'm so sorry to hear the self-harming is bad at present - it must be awful for you. I have seen programmes and read about it, so I sort of understand the reasons for it , although as I have no experience of it - all I can do is let you know I am thinking of you and hoping you can find a resolution to get you through to the other side of this.

Jennihen - your motto is so true:T - every day really is a new day for all of us, a new start and another chance.

Sandy71 - It's good to see you still posting :T. Like Jennihen said: "Rise above it". I don't believe that it is: "obvious that people believed it". If you ask for support on this thread, I've always found it is freely and unconditionally given. Ask yourself this: why should the regular contributors on here suddenly believe posters who have never posted in the past above someone who is a valued member on this thread?

It's hail-stoning here as I type and snow is forecast for this afternoon, so in the words of "Hill Street Blues" - "Let's be careful out there."

LameWolf

CG yeah, if it was just me, I'd probably leave the washing; but I also have Mr LW's stuff to do (clean shirt every day for the office type of thing) so if I'd left it, I'd have Mount Washmore to deal with, and be completely overwhelmed.
((((HUGS)))) to you, btw, I've never self-harmed as such, but I guess it's the same kind of compulsion as I have to head for the wine bottle.

I've just informed Mr LW that I want us up, dressed and outdoors for the sunrise on the Solstice. I think he's in shock.:D:D:D

((((HUGS)))) to everyone else here - I'd love to type more, but paws are hurting.

Later, folks.

sandy71

Unity, crazy_girl and jennihen Thank you for believing in me. A few people agreed with what she was saying and it just upset me. Looking back it was none of the people who have been so supportive to me in the past so thank you all.

CG I hope things improve for you soon, maybe if they treat the BPD the anxiety and depression will improve. (I now nothing about BPD though so if I'm talking out of my bottom please tell me:o)

LW Hope your hands improve soon. If the solstice falls on a day like it is today here you should be ok, I don't think Mr LW need worry. We haven't had a sunrise today :rolleyes:

Unity I admire anyone who can knit, I am such a disappointment to my mum and grandma

I was just about to say we haven't had any snow here but just looked out of the window and its a blizzard out there :eek:

Hope everyone else is ok. xx

dmg24

sandy71 wrote: »

Thank you both you ae very kind. The thing is after everything that was said it's obvious people believed it so I'm worried that I can't post freely anymore as I won't be believed.
I have no idea why I was singled out and if i'm honest it almost tipped me over the edge, I'm still so upset by it all. I know it wasn't true as do mse but people will always doubt me and I can't take much more.

There will always be people who will back up the bullies - I think it must make up for their sad little lives. You can take heart in the fact that you will still be posting long after they have left MSE, because people always eventually see through the lies and don't want to talk to them anymore.

After recent negative experiences with my psych, I have made an appt to go to the docs tonight. It isn't MH related, and I am going on the condition that anything MH related will not be discussed! Slightly scared, smoking lots to mask over my nerves. May write a little letter to take with me, so I can sit in the corner and avoid speaking.

Hope everyone is ok - and if anybody has to leave the house, I recommend Ugg boots and one of those big coats that looks like a duvet - maybe we could form an eskimo convention?

sandy71

dmg24 wrote: »

There will always be people who will back up the bullies - I think it must make up for their sad little lives. You can take heart in the fact that you will still be posting long after they have left MSE, because people always eventually see through the lies and don't want to talk to them anymore.

After recent negative experiences with my psych, I have made an appt to go to the docs tonight. It isn't MH related, and I am going on the condition that anything MH related will not be discussed! Slightly scared, smoking lots to mask over my nerves. May write a little letter to take with me, so I can sit in the corner and avoid speaking.

Hope everyone is ok - and if anybody has to leave the house, I recommend Ugg boots and one of those big coats that looks like a duvet - maybe we could form an eskimo convention?

Thank you (again!) I remember now why I started posting on this thread in the first place. xx

Hope it goes ok for you at the docs tonight. I think a letter is a good idea, I find its hard to say all I want so its easier to wright it down. It means you won't forget anything as well.
Not sure about the boots and coat, I was fancying hibernation really

Molly, Sorry I missed you out (My memory has more holes than a really holey thing!) Hope you are feeling better today.

crazy_girl

unity- thats a really nice idea with the socks, my mum still looks out for me and i moved out 6 years ago!

LW- mount washmore hehe hope the 'paws' are better soon x


dmg- the letter is a good idea, i hope it all goes well. i dont have any ugg boots but i have some primark rip-offs me mum bought me for £7! haha!

sandy- what you said about the BPD is exactly what the psychotherapist said, he said that theres no point in treating the OCD/ depression/ anxeity alone as teh underlying condition is the BPD