Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

KittyBoo_2

skint,single_mum_of_4 wrote: »

I wish someone would come along , wrap me in a warm blanket , carry me off on there shoulders....take away my troubles & worrys !

Me too.
I feel like taking all the stupid tablets they have prescribed for me and going to sleep for a long time.
To be honest, I haven't even got the guts to do that either.
My life feels totally rock bottom and I have had masses of anti depressants and also morphine based painkillers but still I can't face every day life.
I seem to bounce from anxiety to overeating and then to vomiting and then to panic attacks.
There doesn't seem to be a way forward.
Today I am going to see a therapist for more CBT but I am beginning to lose faith in this as I seem to come away with masses of paper exercises to fill in that are not even looked at the following session.
Sorry for the moan - I don't think this dismal weather helps.

sandy71

Yesterday was a really bad day so I forgot to say welcome to the new people so hello:santa2:
Hope everyone is feeling ok and want to thank you again for all the support you have given me.

My GP rang this morning and I have to go and see him later on today so will probably get a telling off. He is great though so I may tell him everything.

LadyMorticia

Hey everyone.

I'm off to see the hospital consultant soon. Wish me luck.lol.

I've written down a list of all my symptoms just incase I forget one.

louise35_2

i am feeling really bad at the minute it is nearly a year (28th december) since my dad died and i am dreading this christmas......i too wish that i could go to sleep and wake up after christmas.

skint,single_mum_of_4

KittyBoo wrote: »

Me too.
I feel like taking all the stupid tablets they have prescribed for me and going to sleep for a long time.
To be honest, I haven't even got the guts to do that either.
My life feels totally rock bottom and I have had masses of anti depressants and also morphine based painkillers but still I can't face every day life.
I seem to bounce from anxiety to overeating and then to vomiting and then to panic attacks.
There doesn't seem to be a way forward.
Today I am going to see a therapist for more CBT but I am beginning to lose faith in this as I seem to come away with masses of paper exercises to fill in that are not even looked at the following session.
Sorry for the moan - I don't think this dismal weather helps.

I know what yr goin through , i dont want to be here but i don't want to end my life if that makes sense.I'm just exsisting !..ive been in casualty 3 times this yr with panic attacks ( though i was dying) my anxiety levels are that high that i shake with fear...some body just put me down !

LameWolf

crazy_girl wrote: »

if i actually acted how i feel i think id be banned from most places!:eek:

LOL me too! I think that's why I'm so fond of computer RPG games - you can bash the living carp out of the baddies and not get put in prison!:p

We_Are_The_Mods wrote: »

What AD's have people tried so far?

I think I've had just about every Auntie Dee known to Man. Most I've forgotten the names of, but I do remember I did very badly on amytriptilene (sp?) in that I was a danger to myself and others.
Seroxat was fine for about 7 years, then it stopped working. I'm now on Moclobemide, on the highest dose I can have, and fingers crossed, sort of coping.

sandy71 wrote: »

My GP rang this morning and I have to go and see him later on today so will probably get a telling off. He is great though so I may tell him everything.

Please do tell him everything, Sandy. Good luck with the visit.

louise35_2

skint,single_mum_of_4 wrote: »

I know what yr goin through , i dont want to be here but i don't want to end my life if that makes sense.I'm just exsisting !..ive been in casualty 3 times this yr with panic attacks ( though i was dying) my anxiety levels are that high that i shake with fear...some body just put me down !

this is just how i feel dont want to be here but dont want to die i feel like a nothing in a big pond

LameWolf

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Hey everyone.

I'm off to see the hospital consultant soon. Wish me luck.lol.

I've written down a list of all my symptoms just incase I forget one.

Sensible idea, LadyM. Best of luck.

louise35 wrote: »

i am feeling really bad at the minute it is nearly a year (28th december) since my dad died and i am dreading this christmas......i too wish that i could go to sleep and wake up after christmas.

Aww, sorry to hear that. Of course it'll take any shine off Xmas for you. Y'know, I think hedgehogs have the right idea - hibernate!

darknesshayz

Argh!!!

I want to SCREAM....................

I am also confussed, I hate myself when I am confussed.....

crazy_girl

We_Are_The_Mods wrote: »

Thanks for the welcome to the thread! Hope everyone is coping.

What AD's have people tried so far? I've been on sertraline, fluoxetine, citalopram and sertraline for a second time (most recent) the only effects I seem to notice are the numbing ones, all the other symptoms I got previously still happen, so I'm taking a break from them now.

The other strange thing is when my last serious bout almost crippled me I was in the fittest condition of my life due to a very physical job, and yet they say exercise is a genuine aid to recovery/keeping it at bay. I would say at that time my mood was incredibly unpredictable from day to day where as now it's more stable, but this could be the stress thing and not exercise related.

Off to bed now to try and sleep.

ive had more than i can count im currently on anafranil, a higher dose as its for the ocd symptoms primarily

it makes me giggle every time i pick up my prescription as i wrote a comedy muscial called mental health: the musical a few years ago and one of the songs was about anti depressants and had the lines

'ludonimil, paxil and anafranil,
trust me im a doctor you wont be feeling ill'