Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

crazy_girl

sandy71 wrote: »

Yesterday was a really bad day so I forgot to say welcome to the new people so hello:santa2:
Hope everyone is feeling ok and want to thank you again for all the support you have given me.

My GP rang this morning and I have to go and see him later on today so will probably get a telling off. He is great though so I may tell him everything.

please do x im thinking of you x

crazy_girl

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Hey everyone.

I'm off to see the hospital consultant soon. Wish me luck.lol.

I've written down a list of all my symptoms just incase I forget one.

how did it go? x hope youre ok x

crazy_girl

louise35 wrote: »

i am feeling really bad at the minute it is nearly a year (28th december) since my dad died and i am dreading this christmas......i too wish that i could go to sleep and wake up after christmas.

im sorry about your dad (((hugs)))

LadyMorticia

I'm furious.:mad:

The doctor basically blamed my mental illness for all my symptoms.

He said "You have the symptoms of CFS but it's where to draw the line at a diagnosis and it's probably caused by your mental illness anyway!".

Exercise and Anti-Depressants will cure all my problems apparently.:mad:

!!!!!!!

I give up.

crazy_girl

LM- thats terrible! you obviously need a 2nd opinion, please dont give up x

jennihen

Hello everyone!

Lots of new peeps recently on here - all battling our own black dogs and physical symptoms as well.
Sandy - How did it go at the docs? I had my fingers crossed for you even though I was at work!
LadyM - how frustrating for you. I had the same response so many times. In the end I practised saying phrases like "Thats all well and good but I need to move on from this regardless of whether you think its in my head. It is not normal for a 30-something year old woman to be wracked with pain. Are you going to help me get my life back or do I need to get a second opinion?"
Louise - I'm right there with you. My brother died last year on the 29th Dec and my mother 13 days later. I spent last christmas torn between my children and my mum and brother 200 miles away, knowing that they were both dying. I can't give up (although I'd really like) to so we are doing everything differently this year - We have a new baby in the family next year so its time for new traditions. Wish me luck in this and I will try and support you through this horrible, horible time x

I'm on Mitrazipine - the dose got put to 45mg (previously 30mg for dealing with long-term chronic illness) after last christmas. To be honest I still get really low but its more short-term now. I find it easier to chivvy myself along and when I'm not in pain and am doing all the stuff I need to do I'm am a normal happy being!
I read CBT for dummies and found it quite helpful. Not much I didn't already know but it kind of reinforced it all.
Also I have to recommend the 'Be your own best friend' way of life!!
Crazygirl - you have inspired me and I have 2 pices of writing in progress - I'm finding it very liberating so I thank you xx

sandy71

Went to see the GP today and gave him the same story I gave the hospital that it was an accident. He listened then said he knew me to well to believe that I would be that daft. I broke down then and admitted I did it on purpose.
He wanted me to go back to the hospital but I refused so I have to see him once a week and ring him if I feel I can't cope.

He didn't want to give me any anti dee's as he said 2 of the aed's I'm on are used as mood stabilisers for bi polar so he increased it slightly for now.

Lady M Sorry it didn't go well for you. Hope you are ok now.

Louise My Grandad died on 28th December as well. Its so hard that close to christmas so will be thinking of you.

jennihen I don't know what you do but the thought of you trying to type with your fingers crossed made me smile.

CG and LW thanks for thinking of me and hope you are both ok.

Hugs to everyone else. xx

crazy_girl

jennihen- its really cathartic isnt it? only problem is im trying to write some festive cheery stuff and its all coming out sad at the min

sandy- im glad that you told the doc the truth and that you dont have to go back to the hossie x

Molly41

Hi Folks,
Ive woken up really tired this morning too so have much sympathy for those who are feeling weary this morning. I have so much going on and it keeps me awake worrying and going through every worst case scenario. Any tips for getting to sleep ( apart from a bath cos I cant get in and out at the moment or alcohol as it interacts ). When I got to sleep DS1(18) woke me up coming in at 4 am. Its just not on is it? I despair of him!

I am seriously very low in mood. I am also very worried because I have an insurance claim going on at the moment for my physical disabilities and they want to see my full medical history from 1997. I talked to the assessor yesterday and basically they are trying to find a way of not paying... if i dont disclose a certain report then they say they wont be able to assess my claim. However it has exceptionally personal info in it that is not relevant. It frightens me that this will be shared with them. I also have a report that I could share which has the info they need but not the personal stuff...but they want the original stuff. I also have two versions of a report one with stuff in it and one with stuff taken out for work. They gonna see both versions now and I did not disclose my mental health problem for fear of being discriminated against. Does anyone know where I stand with this? I so tired of the DWP, the pensions people and the insurance people picking away at my medical history - its dehumanising.

Sorry Im feeling very down in the dumps - my dog just jumped up to lick my face - she loves the taste of salty tears:rolleyes:

Lady M - keep fighting for a diagnosis. I remember one lady i cared for had a mental healh problem and was pregnant. Her psych kept putting all her symptoms down to MH but we got some bloods done and it turns out she had a roaring thyroid problem.
Sandy - Im really pleased you shared with your doc who sounds fabulous. Keep positive.

Lots of hugs,
Mollyx

skint,single_mum_of_4

IS THIS AS GOOD AS IT GETS !

I hate the mornings , my anxiety levels are so high.
everyday i get up take my son to get his college bus then go to work.
I only work 4 hours every morning , i dread it everyday , i'm a bag of worrying nerves.when i get there i spend most of the morning just feelin nervous , dizzy and sick to the stomach with anxiety.I fear one day it will get that bad i will pass out ,this is my biggest fear !..I clock watch every morning , just want to get home.When i do get home i'm exhauted not with work but with what my body go's through each morning. I then spend most of the afternoon on the settee exhausted and deppressed !..In the evening i cook dinner , watch abit of more tv then bed !
This is my life day in day out !
only good thing about weekend is i dont have to go out to work or out of the house..
Is this as good as it gets ?