KTjazz - the great life overhaul

Piquant_2

KTjazz wrote: »

checking in. I'm still alive.

Things have gotten marginally worse. I don't want to go into it, it makes me sad. I just wanted you all to know I was ok (and I am ok, kinda)

Thanks everyone for being great.

Thanks for checking in with us, especially if you're feeling horrid, just shows what a lovely person you are KT.

Still sending you oodles of love

Piq x

Pippilongstocking

Waving (quietlly) ........left a hug for you xx
.........skulks back off again.......xx

[Deleted User]

Just popped by to say hi - hope things are getting better for you. x

MrsAudus2b

Also popping in to send love, hugs and interviewy thoughts
xxx

andan

Hi KT, glad your job is safe and that you are moving forward with sending out applications. Hope your feeling a little brighter and working through your difficult time. Were all here thinking of you.

ms_london

Hi KT

I've only just found this diary and have found it so motivating & encouraging reading it, especially with your mahoosive 'Things to do before I am 30' list.

Sorry to hear you are having troubles with your boyfriend - I am sure you will sort things out, there are no hard and fast rules for dealing with things like that, but if you are both honest with each other and communicate, you will get there.

I will def be subscribing to your diary, I think it is amazing what you have achieved already, and I am definately going to expand on my own list, but make it before 35 as I am 30 next year :eek: !

Enjoy your day & I look forward to reading the next installment.

Sending a smile your way xx

KTjazz

I've never mentioned this here but sometimes I am good at manifesting things in my life...

I mentioned to myself (while alone in my flat, getting ready to go out) that I'd been very good, I hadn't even engineered any 'accidental' meetings with OH...

I went out in Glasgow, parked my car, walked around the corner... guess who was walking up the hill towards me?!

Thank you Universe for listening and giving me what I know I needed and hopefully what he needed too.

We were both shocked and surprised but happy to see each other. (We are still in contact but not everyday.) He hugged me very tightly, told me I was the best part of his week (He'd had a rubbish week though, so that doesn't go for very much). I still don't know what will happen, but the fear and dread that was forming knots in my stomach has lessened greatly to know he's doing ok. Not great, but ok. I felt like I'd seen, for the briefest of seconds, that we are going to come out of this mostly intact. He's not going to make it easy on either of us though, he's still punishing himself. People are fighting my corner though - his dad definately has said "She's doing all this for you, doesn't that tell you something?" But it will take him and him alone, and that is the hardest part of this, the lack of control on my part.

Maybe the Universe was answering questions and helping us both out by crossing our paths on a road neither of us would normally have been on at that time on that day.

Maybe the Universe can send a few more signs his way, help him do what's best for both of us (hopefully what's best will be the outcome I feel is best too...) and maybe the Universe can help him sort his feelings out. Make him feel better in himself.

Universe, if you're listening, please ask him to get in touch again a little more often now. I miss him. Saturday seems a very long way away.

Piquant_2

Hiya KT, glad to see you :cheesy:

I do hope things are going to work out for you, I really do. You've been in my thoughts everyday. Saturday will come around quite quickly I promise!

Love Piq x

[Deleted User]

Just a message to say good luck KT and I hope everything works out for you.
Stay positive
XX

[Deleted User]

Hi KT - sounds like a good sign to me, hope everything works out for you.