Nichelette wants her own house (and to be overdraft free)

Nichelette

To behonest I've never actually deposited on tombola which is probably why. Jackpot joy used to send me a lot of bonuses but they seemd to have dried up now.

Nichelette

Well, another day at work is over... I've managed to make £205 from TAB so far with £125 left to spend. I'd love pizza hut now but I'm not going to give in . I did a pinecone survey last night which paid me £4, so that's another £4 off of the overdraft . Oh, and a cashback transaction from ages ago has finally tracked after an enquiry so that will give me £25 if it pays out which I will take off of the overdraft, plus I'm almost at payout level on global test market.

Nichelette

I got paid today so I can add some more to my house deposit, I'm not sure how much yet though.

I've been really down since I've got home, which is a bit stupid because work wasn't too bad, I just hate coming home to a dark, empty house. Seven of us used to live here, but now there are only three and it feels really empty. My brother spends 99% of his time in his room playing a stupid computer game, and the earliest my dad ever finishes work is 8, though usually it's 10.

I've been a bit miserable generally lately. I feel like my life is going nowhere and that there isn't much to look forward to. I'm a bit worried I'm starting to slip into depression again. The last time I was really bad was in my first year of uni when I was getting really drunk by myself every night, I was miserable enough with other things as it was, but my mum (who I was really close to) was being really withdrawn and horrible to everyone - because although I didn't know it at the time she was having an affair. She moved to the other side of London so I only see her once a month or so on average.

I'm really miserable at the moment, I'm trying not to cry but I really don't want to start drinking because I might end up like I did before. Back then I could kind of understand why people become alcoholics which is pathetic and scary. I'm considering going to the doctors but I hate feeling like I'm wasting their time. I don't think I really feel bad enough to warrant it yet, but at the same time I'll probably get worse if I don't, plus it's hell actually getting an appointment (though I guess that's the same in most places). I don't have time to sit on the phone for ages trying to get an appointment when I should be at work - then I'd actually have to have the time off work and so forth. They're nice and I'm sure they wouldn't have a problem with it, but that's more lost earnings and effort.

I'm kind of able to pick myself up a little bit at the moment, I just worry I won't be able to soon. I've tried calling three of my friends, but I think one is working, one went straight to unavailable, and the other went to voicemail. I guess being Friday everyone is busy. I should really eat but I don't want to, I tend to lose a lot of weight when I'm depressed because of that. I guess at least I don't comfort eat like some people do.

This is stupid really, I should behappy, it's Friday night. I'm supposed to go to Brighton later too. Geh.

Nichelette

Okay, I'm a bit happier after all the doom and gloom of my last post. In the end I went to Brighton and had a really nice night. I was a bit down too yesterday but to be honest I think it's just the weather making it harder for me to pick myself up at the moment. *Anyway*, moving on.

I went to a wedding fair this morning as I'm starting to consider making a bit more wedding jewellery to see what kind of stuff everyone else is offering. I went with OH and had to pretend we were getting married which felt a bit strange (I did actually feel quite guilty about lying). It was quite informative, and I may have softened a bit about ever getting married after seeing all the free magazines and things I was given. I've never really been one of those girls who is really obsessed with the idea of marriage. There were some really pretty things, and I saw the most beautiful wedding dress which did make me wish I was actually getting married. It was the most expensive one on the rail though .

Nichelette

I was so tired earlier I completely forgot to even update the money related stuff... I took a top back to H&M earlier because I don't think it suited me so that's £15 back, I was going to buy this dress http://www.newlook.co.uk/women/dresses/going_out_dresses/1746836/174683678/productdetails.aspx?vid=1748789&language=en-GB as I tried one the same on, just with a striped top bit and it made me look really slim, but I thought the top was red and have just read it's magenta so I'm not sure anymore. I don't really wear pink so I'm a bit scared of it being too girlie for me and losing the postage. Irritatingly it's an online exclusive one so I can't try it in the shop .

I've also added £100 to my house deposit, and I made £4.50 when I gambled £1.80 of my scratchcard money, so I'm a bit closer to withdrawing now. I've had to put £30 of petrol in my car as it's my week to drive to work, but that has been my only spend today. I do really need make up remover though which I forgot to buy earlier. Actually, I had to pay £2.50 to get into the wedding fair, but I'm not counting that.

Nichelette

Just another quick update. I've added another £12 to my overdraft fund as I won a bit on monopoly again, I've also added another £30 to my house deposit as I get paid again on Friday. I won't have to buy anything tomorrow and I got a full tank of petrol this week so it was 'spare' money.

I was telling my friend at work how proud I am of not buying myself any clothes in the last couple of weeks as this is usually my biggest weakness. He (being male and resistant to buying clothes) mocks me about it a bit, but I'm going to try not to buy any clothes for the next 3/4 weeks. It will be hard, and if I see things I like I'm very weak willed and will want to buy it, so my plan is to avoid clothes shops entirely which seemed to work quite well when I was jobless. In the end, as good as a skirt/shoes/dress may look, I can't live in any of them and I want a house more.

mariagti

Haha so true nicki, although buying new clothes makes us feel great wearing them we cant live in them.

Your doing well on this wins of yours! Im tempted to gamble a little of my littlewoods money from the free cards.

Nichelette

Excatly! I'm going to have to avoid online clothes shopping too lol. I love asos, and although I usually only buy stuff in their sale it's still money I could better spend elsewhere. I'm quite surprised I've won this time as usually I don't (or I do then blow it, but I'm being good now).

wendz86

Good luck with the not buying clothes, I haven't bought any this month and am quite proud of myself.

Nichelette

I haven't updated over the weekend so here goes...

I went out on Friday night with loads of work people. Every couple of months or so a couple of people arrange it and 30 or so people from our floor go to Wetherspoons. I had a niceish time, but I ordered some nachos with chilli as we went straight from work so I thought I shouldn't drink on an empty stomach, and I'm convinced they gave me meat chilli so I wouldn't eat it. The stuff I ordered was supposed to be 5 bean but I could only find one in the whole thing, and I tasted a tiny bit which I swear was meat, so I didn't swallow it. I don't like causing trouble so I wouldn't take it back, but when my friends did they were told it was veggie. I've been given the meat one before in a London one, but at least they were nice about it and gave methe right one in the end (which is why I sweat it was meat - I've seen both versions). The manager at this one just kept saying it was pre-packed (not that I'mm debating that, I'm just sure they got the wrong one). Anyway, no joy there so that was £6 wasted. I'm debating wether it's worth writing to complain in the hope that I might get some vouchers lol.

All in all I think I spent £22 that night. The good news is that I've added £170 to my house deposit, and I've got another £65 to add once I send my ID into take a break. I didn't do much on Saturday as I was so tried, but we had a little buffet type thing with my family and a few friends as it was my brothers birthday on Friday so that was nice. Oh, and I bought the last xmas present for one of my sisters. I also managed to get my nans which is good as it seems that at 82 there isn't much she really needs anymore.

Today I went into town with my mum and sister, I found a nice jacket and some lovely shoes which I really wanted but for once I was good and showed some restraint. My mum also took a skirt back to Asda for me today, I couldn't find the receipt despite swearing it was on my dressing table and it had been reduced to £5 from £10 so she only got £5 back. That was a bit irritating as if she bothered to call me before doing it I could at least have looked for the receipt again and possibly got the other £5. I know it sounds ridiculous as it is 'only' £11 but I'm not happy I've wasted the whole £11, I think I'm far too obsessed with saving for a deposit.