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angie_baby

Good Luck for today strumpet.

I hope it all goes well!

Angie

strumpet

Hi Everyone,

Thanks for all your support my little band of diaryites! Well Mrs P, your synopsis of the situation regarding me and OH is absolutely spot on! You are so right. I am going to make special effort to find that "us time".

Well the exam was very fair considering I did naff all towards studying for it. I answered all the questions and wrote 20 sides of A4 so either I was a know it all or I misunderstood the situation!!! Don't want to tempt fate but I only need 50% to pass and I think I've managed that. It was incredible actually just how much I knew without knowing I knew it if you see what I mean! It all came flooding back. Anyway it's all over now so I can concentrate on other things like getting my man back and sorting out my fat belly and going to the gym again. I feel 100 times better than I did at 08:30 this morning.

And I was very MSE too - I arranged for my car tyre to be changed while I was in the exam so I got to park for free on the garage forecourt!:rotfl::rotfl::rotfl:

Ooh she's cheap!!!!!!

Speak later

Strumps.
xxx
Ps I am so lucky to have met such a fine band of friends on here with all your support and kindness - thanks!:dance:

MrsPorridge

Strumpet - so glad you are feeling so much better now.

Its good that you feel positive about your exam. How long till you hear how you did?

Had to buy milk today so didn't manage an NSD - hoping for one tomorrow.

I'm going away to stay with Dad for a few days early Saturday morning and won't be back till about Wednesday. Looking forward to a nice break so I'll catch up with all the latest gossip then.

Hope you all have a good Bank Holiday weekend.

lucielle

Its over with now. Hope you have a chilled weekend.
L

strumpet

Should get the results round about 25th July by email. Last time, the email got sorted into the junk mail folder - the computer obviously recognised that I'd failed the exam!!!

Off to Worcester this weekend for the Central Council of Church Bell Riners AGM on Monday. Should be a right good laugh!

Strumps

strumpet

Morning all.

I might not be around much for the next few days.

When I got home from Worcester last evening, I found that OH had taken all his stuff and left. I am utterly utterly devastated and not coping very well at the moment, but I will be back when I've sorted myself out.

I knew before I walked into the house that he had gone. Call it instinct but I just knew. He hadn't been answering my calls all weekend and what started out with me thinking he'd just forgotten to take his phone with him turned into a worry that something else was up. In the end, he left me a note saying that he loved me so much, it wasn't my fault but he needed to discover who he was and what he really wanted and although he loved me, he couldn't be with me. He didn't love himself at the moment and until he found that he could, he felt it was unfair to me. I am very sistressed at losing him because I considered him to be "the one". I now see my life before me with just me in it. I am scared and hurt but time will heal all.

The house is very empty as all his stuff has gone and what is left behind is stuff we bought together so that's hard to look at too.

At the moment I am taking it a minute at a time.

I called him to say that I understood his reasons but felt that I deserved better than a piece of A4.

He hasn't called me back. I don't think he will. My life feels like it has just ended.

So that's why I might be a bit quite for a while.

Strumps

The_Dragon

Oh Strumpet, huge hugs coming your way - just letting you know I am thinking of you :A

Horace

Oh Strumps...firstly well done on the exam. I would have gone to Worcester but I still have the lurgy so haven't ventured out much and my eyes haven't been right so I havent felt like driving anywhere.

That's awful about OH - and to do it sneakily by letter too, that was really below the belt. If you want to chat, cry, scream or shout - you know where I am (you have my number so call).

:grouphug:

strumpet

Thanks both.
I'm not doing so bad but have bouts of tears every now and again. OH said he needed to be on his own to find out what he wants. My friend Robin says that the same thing happend to him and his partner Mark - they had been together for 2 months and then Robin asked Mark to leave as he didn't know what he wanted. Afte a few weeks, Robin went back to Mark and said he was now sure he wanted to be with Mark and 24 years later they are still together. I'm hoping this is the case with OH - I'm hoping he just needs space to work it out.

I hope that he will come back to me because if he doesn't, I am seriously going to struggle to cope without him. I always told him that he never knew just how much I loved him.

Robin has offered to ring him on my behalf and ask him to let me know that he is OK. Not sure what to do for the best. I know he's not behaved in the best way but I just want him back because I miss him so much and it's only been 1 day.

Horace

He's been a weasel and a coward if you ask me. It was good of Robin to offer to call him on your behalf but I don't see what it would achieve - maybe if Robin could ring in a week or so but not right away? Its horrid when you love someone and they treat you like rubbish so take some time to lick your wounds and then get out there - don't pine for him because he ain't worth it and if he sees you out and about having a good time then he may just think about what he is missing out on and comeback with his tail between his legs. I know exactly where you are coming from.

You've got my number so give me a call if you fancy a chat or at least some cheering up - remember you don't have to hide your posh chocs anymore:D

My grandma was right she would always tell me "if you love him, let him go, if he loves you he'll come back" she told me this particularly after R dumped me and it has taken 27 years for R to return to me:j He is the one feeling guilty about the way he treated me all those years ago - me, I am carrying on as normal:D