Depression Support Thread

LadyMorticia

Alba - Hehe. I might.lol. It feels good to flirt sometimes but then I feel guilty for some reason. ****hugs****

Jen - Sounds like you're having a rough time r.e uni. I hope everything works out and things get sorted soon. It must be very worrying. ****hugs****

xx

alba37

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Alba - Hehe. I might.lol. It feels good to flirt sometimes but then I feel guilty for some reason. ****hugs****

Jen - Sounds like you're having a rough time r.e uni. I hope everything works out and things get sorted soon. It must be very worrying. ****hugs****

xx

Go for it, and don't feel guilty later!!! Let us know how it goes

shazrobo

hi all, didnt sleep much at all last night, so today has seemed so looong due to been tired.
jen, hope u get things sorted at uni
sazzy, glad your having a great hol
anni, i would text back a bit of flirting causes no harm and is fun
big hugs all
shaz xxx

alba37

Oh Shaz, hope you sleep better tonight. I'm going to have a relaxing bath, watch a bit of TV and get an early night (be on here too!) It's horrible when you tired all day. I usually come alive when it's time for bed!

top_drawer_2

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Jen - I was given a load of paperwork to fill in about my eating and how I feel about myself etc but some of the questions are making me feel uncomfortable as my doctor wants to go through it with me before the appointment and I know that I have to be truthful so they can help me but I worry that I'll get sectioned because of it. My doctor is so lovely though but I just worry....a lot. My friend Nikki is coming with me but I keep on waiting for an email from her to say she can't make it.lol. I'm used to people letting me down but I know that if she couldn't make it it would be because of family reasons.

Alba - I used to be very malnutrioned and was in hospital because of it. I had a pot belly then but now it's just flab and even with the exercise I do, it still won't shift.lol. I'm not sure if that's because I don't try hard enough or if it's genetics because all of my family are overweight. Even though I know logically I'm not, I still feel and look fat. I'm so desperate to love myself. I'm so desperate to be loved but I feel no one could ever love me as I am.
I was called an attention seeker by my foster mother and father and by therapists. I detested that I wasn't then and I still do detest that because I'm not. I so want to tell them that the way I behaved and all the moodswings was because of my BPD. I miss my foster parents. I miss my little foster sister more than anything, and I hate the fact that she might not even remember who I am. When I was in my foster placement little things made me upset like they would take photos of all the other children but never any of me. They told all the other kids they loved them, but never me. They hugged them, but not me. I'm not jealous but it still hurts. I know it's stupid.

Ilgd - I think in some cases the media can put someone on the path to an eating disorder. Even the magazines for kids as young as 9 have stick thin models in them now. Most girls don't look like that. It's putting a superficial image in their heads of what a "beautiful" person has to look like.

Thanks everyone for your support and listening to my ramblings. Sometimes this is the only place that I feel people understand, or at least try to.

P.S. Alba, sorry for going off on a tangent. Just needed to get some feelings out before I exploded.lol.

P.P.S Please excuse any spelling errors.

xx

Hey,

Definitely complete that paperwork and even tell you how filling it makes you feel. I was in the unfortunate position of being a receptionist in an assertive mental health team for awhile and I can tell you its a very loooong process to get someone sectioned. The criteria for sectioning is very strict - I would say that to be in with a chance you need to be showing potentially harmful behavior to others ie delesional thoughts/aggressiveness or be extremely harmful to yourself (seems to be less emphasis on self tho). I will go and have a look for the actual criteria and put a link on for everyone to have a look at.

There is NO evidence that anyone can be genetically overweight. Its more likely that when you are looking down at yourself you are seeing what no-one else can looking straight at you. Exercises alone won't reduce any belly as IF there is any fat there then it wont disappear without cardivascular exercise. Sometimes theres some things you just have to settle on tho....

My counsellor said I have to learn to love myself so we did an exercise together. I had to make a list of things I like about myself and then each day keep one in mind and keep recalling it especially when thinking any negative things about myself. I dont know whether it works or not but I dont seem to have as many negative thoughts as I used to have. It could be down to the meds tho but its always worth a try.....

Re: the media influence... there have been a few studies into this and mainly they concluded that media wasnt influential. They seemed to find that the pressure is more related to internal aspects of the individual themselves like self esteem, prospects for education/employment sort of like displaced anxiety.

Wow thats a mommonth post!!

Jen

top_drawer_2

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

the more i think of it the more i realise how much our past shapes how we are and how much it still influences our life...however much we think that our upbringing was "normal".
its funny to me how a totally diff subject or event can bring up something that you think is unrelated that you never thought at the time was unusual.
the other day when i got abit para over the trivial stuff on here made me realise that i had stuff at skool that i had buried and it took that unconnected, as i thought, to make me see that it still needed me to face my feelings about it and that it wasnt me to blame for feelin like an outcast...it was the gang who were the outcasts cos they were more insecure than the rest of us and when they were together they had power, but alone and away from each other, they were just the same as us.i love it so much when i can resolve alittle of my past and feel abit better inside for finally dealin with a skeleton.trouble is i have loads of unresolved stuff that im sure is still influencing how i view everything.
sorry im away with the deep stuff again.
anyway, alba......i have already been away 4 weeks ago to majorca and was total nitemare.went for 7 days, rained heavy for 5.
massive flood from ceiling above shower.bathroom waterlogged for a day.towells down and ceiling bowed.
next day when it all dried out, went to take shower.boiler exploded cos it had plastic piping so was nearly burned by steam and hot water trying to get pass boiler to get out of b/room.nearly slipped and broke leg on wet tiles.
wanted us to sign disclaimer but we refused.
rep was like a choc fireguard and fluent scots accent so was like talking to rab c nesbit but faster.sorry, i know you are from scotland so please dont take offence.
booked last sept for a low floor and pool view...got third floor, back of hotel near to noisy bars and restaurants.(room smelt constantly of chinese food and even worse when we switched on extractor fan????)
took dhs sisters 12year old boy who made damien666 look like an angel which the table manners of a 3 year old and the attention span of a gnat.

apart from that it was lovely:rotfl: :rotfl:
wel you did ask ......i can laugh about it now but at the time i was suicidel as you can imagine....and we spent about the same as the yearly budget of a small country:mad:

When you describe it like that it sounds like comedy - something from a carry on film maybe? :rotfl: :rotfl:

Jen

top_drawer_2

alba37 wrote: »

Oh Katie, don't read too much into it. Yes, it was last minute, but as she hadn't told you the board meeting was on Tue til Mon so it's not your fault! It was still in on time. Hopefully it'll be fine, try not to worry anymore about it for now.

Glad you had a good day LadyM, sounds like a great friend you have. It'll be really nice to give her something as a thank you. OMG Karl, I think flirt back! He wouldn't be doing it unless he wanted to!

Hope everyone is ok this evening?

A x

Hi,

You can call me Katie if you want but im generally known as Jen ...

Im trying not to worry but its very hard ... I have all these scenerios going through my head about what they could be saying at these board meetings.

Jen

ilovegreatdanes

top_drawer wrote: »

When you describe it like that it sounds like comedy - something from a carry on film maybe? :rotfl: :rotfl:

Jen

you had to be there to really appreciate the wonders of it all.:D am toying with a book or sending the script to one of the soaps.have to laugh about it or id cry and not stop....at least im still here.
i wondered if it was a subtle plot by dh to get rid of me....but think some of tiffs felineness has rubbed off and i just lost one of my nine lives:D

alba37

top_drawer wrote: »

Hi,

You can call me Katie if you want but im generally known as Jen ...

Im trying not to worry but its very hard ... I have all these scenerios going through my head about what they could be saying at these board meetings.

Jen

Ops Jen Sorry! My heads in the clouds! Nothing unusual there!

But still try hard not to worry. You did have it in in time, so it will hopefully work out fine. I really hope you get news very soon.

A x

ilovegreatdanes

alba37 wrote: »

OMG ILGD's!!! I didn't know that had happened to you! I don't know what to say :eek:

No offence taken! :rotfl: Some accents are so terrible, but you made me laugh. Where in Mallorca were you? My son has family there (his dad's side) I'm def not Spanish :rotfl: I'm def all Scottish, but don't sound like Rab C Nesbit, I hope! :eek: How long were you there? So now, it's a fight for compensation? Don't sign anything and don't accept the first offer! I hope you get something back to put towards another (better) holiday!

A x

we went to alcudia and stayed at the sol de alcudia apartments near the lamas and woody woodpeckers. not far from the bel vues aps.
we came back on the tues, picked charlie dane up on the weds.he had cough from kennels, so we took him vets on the thurs and she told us he had cancer so we had to have him put to sleep.:eek:
i was quite near to joining him at that point, as you can imagine.