Depression Support Thread

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are all ok,I went to my church to find it was shut for the day as friends were ill so couldnt go in,had subway on a bench and then I went to co-op to get a can of coke to go with it.

I then took the can to another bench and drank it and it was nice just to sit down for a bit before I walked up to the college for my craft

One of the teachers met me as we had moved to another buliding of which I wouldnt have known but do now.

tonight I will watch the end of the Apprentice to see who wins out of the four


*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

ilovegreatdanes

hi.
sazzy.....im really glad you are havin a wonderful time....but ill be glad when you are back cos im selfish and im missin you:o ....this break is just what you needed and well deserved.enjoy the rest of your hols.xx

alba....your grass must be really high by now.we have to cut ours once a week at least.might rain later so thats an excuse

lm....im afraid i have exactly opposite prob with my weight and had trouble grasping the idea of anorexia, but delving deeper, i think underweight is really as bad as obesity, even though lots of the obese would like a little anorexia, until they read up on the subject.some of the pics ive seen are really bad.i do blame society for alot of it.only today they said in news that a size 12 was too big to be in miss world....and they think a model is massive at size 6:eek: ...so how on earth are young girls suppose to cope with that kind of self image and pressure, along with ragin hormones and peer pressure and exams.i fear the worst for them with girls as young as 9 or younger goin on diets and sayin they are too fat.
and now everyone wants a gastric band fitted as though its the latest fashion accessory:eek:

im turning into a grumpy old woman:rotfl:

nearly had a big row with dh today.he foned travel agent to check nightmare hol progress.said to give them 28 days....today is 26th.now the letter we took in to branch has gone on its own hol and never reached h/office so will be another 28 days:mad: .
anyway dh couldnt rem where he put the stuff about the hol and we had to fone an 0845 no instead of the local one.
i got mad cos im pretty organised with paper stuff bein a capricorn and can lay my hands on stuff quite quick...but dh is totall opp but wont let me deal with it...and it and he really make me :mad: .anything to do with his precious motorbike (otherwise known as his second child:D )and he knows the location of every piece of paper hes ever had for it.
so we are talkin priorities here and though not important to some....i dont ask much of him, wait on him hand and foot..and generally do anything for a quiet life...a little understanding would go miles, iykwim.
i found it in the end:j cos im like a dog with a bone til i solve stuff....then im fine again.

anyway, thanks for listening and apologies for the long post.
hope you all can find a smile in your lives today.
love ilgd xx

alba37

Hi ILGD's. My grass it awful, with all the rain and the little sun we've had it's grown like mad. I really would have done it today if it hadn't rained! I do tend to put it off and use any excuse til it out gets so out of hand it has to be done! Like now! I hate doing it. I only have a wee bit at the front so it's easy, but actually getting the mower out puts me off. The back is just a total nightmare for me, on a slope and too big for me!!

I'm the same re:weight, far too heavy, I have lost a lot over the last year but still need to lose 2st. I've been amazed at how many people have insinuated my depression should be gone now I look better! :mad: People don't seem to realise the depression is in my head, not in my fat! :rotfl: But I think the opposite end of the scale is just as bad, and just as hard to get within a healthy weight.

Where and when are you going on holiday? Doesn't sound like things have been going smoothly?

Hi Katie, :wave: I'll try and watch the apprentice too tonight, not seen much of it but want to know who wins!

LadyMorticia

Jen - I was given a load of paperwork to fill in about my eating and how I feel about myself etc but some of the questions are making me feel uncomfortable as my doctor wants to go through it with me before the appointment and I know that I have to be truthful so they can help me but I worry that I'll get sectioned because of it. My doctor is so lovely though but I just worry....a lot. My friend Nikki is coming with me but I keep on waiting for an email from her to say she can't make it.lol. I'm used to people letting me down but I know that if she couldn't make it it would be because of family reasons.

Alba - I used to be very malnutrioned and was in hospital because of it. I had a pot belly then but now it's just flab and even with the exercise I do, it still won't shift.lol. I'm not sure if that's because I don't try hard enough or if it's genetics because all of my family are overweight. Even though I know logically I'm not, I still feel and look fat. I'm so desperate to love myself. I'm so desperate to be loved but I feel no one could ever love me as I am.
I was called an attention seeker by my foster mother and father and by therapists. I detested that I wasn't then and I still do detest that because I'm not. I so want to tell them that the way I behaved and all the moodswings was because of my BPD. I miss my foster parents. I miss my little foster sister more than anything, and I hate the fact that she might not even remember who I am. When I was in my foster placement little things made me upset like they would take photos of all the other children but never any of me. They told all the other kids they loved them, but never me. They hugged them, but not me. I'm not jealous but it still hurts. I know it's stupid.

Ilgd - I think in some cases the media can put someone on the path to an eating disorder. Even the magazines for kids as young as 9 have stick thin models in them now. Most girls don't look like that. It's putting a superficial image in their heads of what a "beautiful" person has to look like.

Thanks everyone for your support and listening to my ramblings. Sometimes this is the only place that I feel people understand, or at least try to.

P.S. Alba, sorry for going off on a tangent. Just needed to get some feelings out before I exploded.lol.

P.P.S Please excuse any spelling errors.

xx

alba37

No, not at all LadyM, nothing to be sorry for. I truely understand those feelings of rejection and jealousy. I just don't know the answer to put these experiences in life behind us. I do know these things are in the past we can't change them now and we have to move forward, I just wish I knew how.

Sorry I can't give constructive help, but I can say you're def not alone in how you are feeling today. (((hugs)))

top_drawer_2

just checked my uni email and the course leader has replied to my email and said that I handed my EC's in very late (she only replied on Monday to my email saying that the board met on Tuesday and I handed them in at 10.30 on Tuesday morning!) and that there was no evidence in the envelope (I clearly stated that I had requested this and would get it to them as soon as possible). They seem to be aiming to make me feel as bad as possible and get at me all the time.

Jen

ilovegreatdanes

the more i think of it the more i realise how much our past shapes how we are and how much it still influences our life...however much we think that our upbringing was "normal".
its funny to me how a totally diff subject or event can bring up something that you think is unrelated that you never thought at the time was unusual.
the other day when i got abit para over the trivial stuff on here made me realise that i had stuff at skool that i had buried and it took that unconnected, as i thought, to make me see that it still needed me to face my feelings about it and that it wasnt me to blame for feelin like an outcast...it was the gang who were the outcasts cos they were more insecure than the rest of us and when they were together they had power, but alone and away from each other, they were just the same as us.i love it so much when i can resolve alittle of my past and feel abit better inside for finally dealin with a skeleton.trouble is i have loads of unresolved stuff that im sure is still influencing how i view everything.
sorry im away with the deep stuff again.
anyway, alba......i have already been away 4 weeks ago to majorca and was total nitemare.went for 7 days, rained heavy for 5.
massive flood from ceiling above shower.bathroom waterlogged for a day.towells down and ceiling bowed.
next day when it all dried out, went to take shower.boiler exploded cos it had plastic piping so was nearly burned by steam and hot water trying to get pass boiler to get out of b/room.nearly slipped and broke leg on wet tiles.
wanted us to sign disclaimer but we refused.
rep was like a choc fireguard and fluent scots accent so was like talking to rab c nesbit but faster.sorry, i know you are from scotland so please dont take offence.
booked last sept for a low floor and pool view...got third floor, back of hotel near to noisy bars and restaurants.(room smelt constantly of chinese food and even worse when we switched on extractor fan????)
took dhs sisters 12year old boy who made damien666 look like an angel which the table manners of a 3 year old and the attention span of a gnat.

apart from that it was lovely:rotfl: :rotfl:
wel you did ask ......i can laugh about it now but at the time i was suicidel as you can imagine....and we spent about the same as the yearly budget of a small country:mad:

LadyMorticia

*hugs* to everyone.

I've been talking to my best friend about things and now I feel a bit better. I'm going to send her a card and a present as a way to say thank you for always supporting me and being the best friend a girl could ever have.

Karl's flirting with me....strangely I don't know whether I should flirt back or not....

alba37

OMG ILGD's!!! I didn't know that had happened to you! I don't know what to say :eek:

No offence taken! :rotfl: Some accents are so terrible, but you made me laugh. Where in Mallorca were you? My son has family there (his dad's side) I'm def not Spanish :rotfl: I'm def all Scottish, but don't sound like Rab C Nesbit, I hope! :eek: How long were you there? So now, it's a fight for compensation? Don't sign anything and don't accept the first offer! I hope you get something back to put towards another (better) holiday!

A x

alba37

Oh Katie, don't read too much into it. Yes, it was last minute, but as she hadn't told you the board meeting was on Tue til Mon so it's not your fault! It was still in on time. Hopefully it'll be fine, try not to worry anymore about it for now.

Glad you had a good day LadyM, sounds like a great friend you have. It'll be really nice to give her something as a thank you. OMG Karl, I think flirt back! He wouldn't be doing it unless he wanted to!

Hope everyone is ok this evening?

A x