Depression Support Thread

TangledMemories_2

Hello peeps.

Well, it's 10:50 and I already feel like I've had a hard day!
Didn't get too much sleep last night. Tossing and turning all night. Plus OH had a bad flare up so he wasn't sleeping too well.
Had physio at the hospital at 8:20 - walked in and my physio gent kindly told me I looked a bit worse for wear. CHEERS! But proceeded to give me heat treatment and nice massage on my neck.:T
Just got back from my GP - blood tests have come back showing I have a virus and hardly any immune system :eek: All my poor white blood cells are worked to exhaustion. Can't be put on any antibiotics either because of lack of immune system. Oh joy! :rolleyes: 2 weeks sick note to be sent off to work.

Spoke to my mum yesterday. The twins are missing me so much. One of them refused to speak to me because he was so upset. Makes things so difficult not having my family over here.:(

Ended up nearly ruining my mate's barbecue on Saturday night. Because I'm so out of it mentally at the moment, I can't think about two things at once so OH thought I was angry at him...at which point I went into meltdown mode and ended up going sitting in the front garden in tears. Felt sooo guilty for acting like such a child, but I couldn't stop it. The tears just took over!:o
What a mess.

Tangy (as newly nicnamed!)

TangledMemories_2

gillette147 wrote: »

I'm at work but am so tired I just want to shut my eyes. I'm getting a tiredness headache too.
I now have a dilemma to go with all my other stresses.

I have a mock exam on Wednesday (NEBOSH H&S) and now i find out I have to be in an hour early tomorrow. So I will get home tonite at 7:30. I have to be up at 5am tomorrow. Back home at 7:30 and then up again at 6am to go to the exam.
I have SO much time to revise in that schedule.
I have homework to be done by then too!!!

If I curled up under my desk would anyone notice?

I hope you are all coping and even happy. Hugs and handshakes to you all
xxxx

What happened to QB?

I doubt anyone would notice if you curled up under your desk lol :rotfl:

slowlyfading

I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately, I've had so much work on. But I need someone to talk to. My arms are a mess, and I've binged and purged 3 times this morning already.

gillette147

I am sorry to hear that SF.
I wish you could be happy
xxx

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
gillette......best to take one minute at a time, im sure all this good work is gonna pay off for you soon,...havent heard from qb for yonks either.wonder if hes hooked up with miro????anyway,if you are reading this,please drop in with some graphics and then we will let you off:)
tulip......you made me all nostalgic with the kids from fame.i liked bruno and than jewish girl whos name escapes me ,but you can tell me when you have watched it.they should bring it back.
ladym.....dont know what to say re your dad.suppose it depends what happened and all the stuff that we dont know about, iykwim.sometimes its theraputic to meet ppl again as it will bring you closure and sometimes its best to let sleeping dads, i mean ,dogs lie.(apols for the joke,thats how i deal with stressful stuff by joking so wasnt being insensitive:( )...you can choose your friends but not your family so its up to you.if its dredging up so much hurt, then maybe thats your inner self wisely saying dont go for the meeting.but noone can tell you whats best.good luck.xx
sybil.....dont know what to say.just to take it one day at a time.im wondering if a new baby might be even more stressful if you two are not getting on and may drive you further apart, but who am i to stick my 2p in.hope you take the comments as they are meant,....maybe a new baby is the last thing you need ,or the best thing you need right now, im not sure tbh, but its not my life so if it was me, id deffo do a bit more soul searching to make sure i was 100% ok with myself and my stuff with everyone else., iykwim.i hope it goes well whatever happens and i hope you can find the happiness you need and derserve in whatever form it may take.xx
tangly......hope you are better soon.take care of you....at least things will only get better from now.xx
love ilgd xx

feelinggood_2

slowlyfading wrote: »

I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately, I've had so much work on. But I need someone to talk to. My arms are a mess, and I've binged and purged 3 times this morning already.

Hey SF - been thinking about you lately. Sorry things are hard for you. Wish I could help. My PM box is always open. I'm out this afternoon, but maybe we could chat later? I'm having issues with binging/purging, and would be great to talk to someone who understands. Don't know if that'd help you? Up to you. xx

slowlyfading

feelinggood wrote: »

Hey SF - been thinking about you lately. Sorry things are hard for you. Wish I could help. My PM box is always open. I'm out this afternoon, but maybe we could chat later? I'm having issues with binging/purging, and would be great to talk to someone who understands. Don't know if that'd help you? Up to you. xx

Hey, thanks for replying. You are more than welcome to PM me if you want hope you're alright xx

slowlyfading

gillette147 wrote: »

I am sorry to hear that SF.
I wish you could be happy
xxx

Me too how are you sweetie? x

ilovegreatdanes

slowlyfading wrote: »

I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately, I've had so much work on. But I need someone to talk to. My arms are a mess, and I've binged and purged 3 times this morning already.

sf....am so sorry that you are so unhappy.its hard for me to comprehend the SH although i do bite my nails really badly till they bleed and hurt, but i dont mean that to belittle, god, you know what im getting at, i hope:o thats my form of SH so i can sympathise,iykwim.its so hard to constanly pick yourself up from all the bad stuff in your life and you wonder how to get throu.
but you will come throu, sf,if you were not a strong person,you would have thrown in the towel well before now. but you have achieved so much, even surprised yourself at how good you have done.you didnt surprise us though, cos we all knew how good you were and how strong in resolve you can be.
got to remember all your good stuff, easy i know,.......throw out your mirrors and put your long sleeve cardie on.....(how old am i????cardie:) )
dont let the work grind you down,do something you really enjoy, watch shopping telly, read some romantic novel.....just try an hors escape to refuel.be kind to you cos you are all that matters.........read my posts,all of them.....if they dont send you on a well earned catnap, nothing will:D
you are a wonderful and unique human being and we are all better for knowing you:A
ilgd xx

slowlyfading

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

sf....am so sorry that you are so unhappy.its hard for me to comprehend the SH although i do bite my nails really badly till they bleed and hurt, but i dont mean that to belittle, god, you know what im getting at, i hope:o thats my form of SH so i can sympathise,iykwim.

I do know what you mean - one of my friend's does that. ((hugs)

its so hard to constanly pick yourself up from all the bad stuff in your life and you wonder how to get throu.
but you will come throu, sf,if you were not a strong person,you would have thrown in the towel well before now. but you have achieved so much, even surprised yourself at how good you have done.you didnt surprise us though, cos we all knew how good you were and how strong in resolve you can be.

Thanks, that is the sweetest thing to say.

got to remember all your good stuff, easy i know,.......throw out your mirrors and put your long sleeve cardie on.....(how old am i????cardie:) )

Lol :rotfl:I love a good cardie me! I've got a big woolie jumper on at the moment

dont let the work grind you down,do something you really enjoy, watch shopping telly, read some romantic novel.....just try an hors escape to refuel.be kind to you cos you are all that matters.........read my posts,all of them.....if they dont send you on a well earned catnap, nothing will:D
you are a wonderful and unique human being and we are all better for knowing you:A
ilgd xx

You know, you are the kindest person. Thank you so much for writing those kind words. I've got a DVD evening planned, providing I get everything done on my to do list for today. I hope you're okay. xx