Depression Support Thread

ilovegreatdanes

btw,
think im in a sh*t load of trouble with dh.
on hols straight after bank holiday so booked with skool to make sure it was ok for ds to have time off in term time cos shouldnt take hols ,blah blah.
so told them when he went back last sept, and they said ok cos sats week would be 2 weeks later.
if you go on hols sats week you have to pay them £50:eek: cos its classed as unauthorised.
so have got slip and all great.
on friday ds said one of eachers said he would be in trouble cos he was gonna miss his sats cos they were on the week of our hols:mad: ...so i said id sort it cos he was upset and getting stressed.
so big gob, here:(:( foned skool to check and they said sats deffo in our hols week and we would have to pay the dosh.if only i had engaged my brain before putting my mouth in gear they wouldnt have realised.
in my defence, i told them how long it had been booked, that we had the permission in writing and, how they cant give us a weeks notice when they have known since last sept, giving them ample time to refuse.
also the sats are important but they are not proper exams and ds would miss them anyway if he was poorly and couldnt attend.when kids miss the sats, they take the teacher assessment so its better anyway cos they know him better and some kids are great in class and carp at tests.
mentioned to dh when he foned and he said they can **** and hes going in if they try to charge us...
feel really carp now cos its al my fault and i was only trying to do my blo*dy best but messed up again:mad:
why am i so stupid:mad: why cant i keep my big gob shut:mad:
skools ringing back later to see what they can do.shes trying to have a word with a jobsworth.
god i hate waiting.......now i know what its like on death row....and i dont smoke.......maybe ill start
somedays i wish my mother had stayed a virgin, im sooo upset and i cant blame anyone cos it was me.
:doh: :doh: :sad: :sad:

ilovegreatdanes

shes just rung back to say that, hopefully, if we send in a copy of the slips of authorisation tom, that everything will be ok and we may get away with the dosh.
feel like all this hol stuff has put years on me.i may go on hol and do a reggie perrin and not return.....or stay at home for the week and borrow tulips fame dvd.
ever feel like life is conspiring to see how much carp you can avoid while juggling with your sanity at the same time....and just when you think you have it cracked.....it dumps another load of manure on you......
now its peeing down as well:(

HAPPY DAYS......pass me the st johns wort and the smarties, someone....and ill get me white jacket with the buckles down the back.......argggghhhhh!!!!!

meyore

(((HUGS)))
To everyone who is having a rubbish day
And to everyone else too, I won't discriminate

rose07

Hello everyone

how are you all?

well its one tough old time in Rosie world atm, :rolleyes:

just today i have had my driving theory test and i failed :mad:, which has made me feel carp, as i did revise, but coza my learning difficulties makes it 10 times harder. feel like kicking myself :rolleyes:

Then i went into work, on my day off :rotfl:. Then found out we have a thief amongst the staff, soo not good. but i know its not me, and i know who it is, so least i can be weary of them, they were caught on cctv. Now i dont know why but the managers are talking to me like im one of them :rotfl:, so they tell me things. I think the staff respect me somehow :rotfl:, as last week one of the young ones came in my office, and says rosie rosie what do i do, im pregnant :eek:, well what could i do but be there and reassure the poor thing, she was too in shock.

so anyway then today i get stuck in the lift, and then a rail topples over in the lift hurting my hand, and then a wheel gets stuck in the door of the lift

Then i was ringen people, mainly customer services and ended up making the woman laugh with my silly questions.

Then i got stuck in a cupboard, banged my head on a rail, stabbed myself with a pin, and was sick coza something i ate :rotfl:

what a day, see one day in the life a rosie.......mayhem :rotfl:

and i have a cold and coming down wid a chest infection :rotfl:

and yes still on the hunt for jobs, still juggling things, and walking the tightrope of life, but im doing it.:T

so how is everyone else?

i see some of you are feelin carp

so heres something for you special people.











huggles
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feelinggood_2

Thats quite a day Rose! What are you planning to do this evening? Sounds like you need a nice, quiet sit down!

rose07

LadyMorticia wrote: »

My dad has been in touch and wants to see me. It's brought back a lot of bad memories so I've just spent the past 2 hours crying and having panic attacks.

My dad and I don't have a great relationship. I don't hate him but I don't love him like I should. He hurt my mum and I so much, and even though everything happened many years ago I still have the memories, and they are so vivid.

I don't know how to tell him I don't want to see him. I don't want to hurt his feelings. Does that make me weird? He hurt my mum and I so much (granted my mum hurt me a lot too) but I don't want to hurt him.

xx

Hi LadyM

firstly heres something for ya



okie dokie karaoke

hun, you have to do whats right for you. I can understand what you mean though, my parents have hurt me, and its hard to trust or let someone back in when they have hurt you soo.

Things from the past have a habit of coming back up when you least expect it, but sometimes we have to deal with the past to be able to move on.

Would you like to tell me a bit about your dad? you can pm me hun , and there is always msn too xx

I dont think your weird btw hun, i think its natural and perfectly ok to feel the way you feel.

Im here whenever ya need
xxx

rose07

feelinggood wrote: »

Thats quite a day Rose! What are you planning to do this evening? Sounds like you need a nice, quiet sit down!

yes sweetie, that sounds good, fraid thats a pretty normal day for me. but hopefully i can rest tonight, dont know yet, got a few jobs i need to do, and i should take my dog out, oh and then theres dinner and .....oh it goes on :rotfl:

how are you today? did you manage to get support you need?

xx

feelinggood_2

rose07 wrote: »

yes sweetie, that sounds good, fraid thats a pretty normal day for me. but hopefully i can rest tonight, dont know yet, got a few jobs i need to do, and i should take my dog out, oh and then theres dinner and .....oh it goes on :rotfl:

how are you today? did you manage to get support you need?

xx

Still not sure what to do about support. Had to cancel my Pysch appointment, so will discuss things with her in a month or two. Don't need to go back to Docs for at least a month, so I've got a bit of a break from those sort of things. Think I might just stick with my NHS Pysch, and see if she wants to change my meds. Don't think I'm going to mention the purging thing, I don't think that is a big problem.

I'm coming home on Wednesday, so will be nice to get back to normality.

rose07

gillette147 wrote: »

I'm at work but am so tired I just want to shut my eyes. I'm getting a tiredness headache too.
I now have a dilemma to go with all my other stresses.

I have a mock exam on Wednesday (NEBOSH H&S) and now i find out I have to be in an hour early tomorrow. So I will get home tonite at 7:30. I have to be up at 5am tomorrow. Back home at 7:30 and then up again at 6am to go to the exam.
I have SO much time to revise in that schedule.
I have homework to be done by then too!!!

If I curled up under my desk would anyone notice?

I hope you are all coping and even happy. Hugs and handshakes to you all
xxxx

What happened to QB?

hun you need some huggles too





Do you think you could be over doing it? I got told i was over doing it today

You need to slow down a little

good luck for your exam, remember all you can do is your best.

it will be ok badger
xxx

rose07

feelinggood wrote: »

Still not sure what to do about support. Had to cancel my Pysch appointment, so will discuss things with her in a month or two. Don't need to go back to Docs for at least a month, so I've got a bit of a break from those sort of things. Think I might just stick with my NHS Pysch, and see if she wants to change my meds. Don't think I'm going to mention the purging thing, I don't think that is a big problem.

I'm coming home on Wednesday, so will be nice to get back to normality.

where are ya atm hun?

You sound more clearer about what you want to do. which is good. but make sure you get the best support you can, you deserve it.