Depression Support Thread

LadyMorticia

I have a question, but I know it's going to sound like a stupid one.

I'm having my hair cut on Friday. Can having a hair cut make hair fall out even more rapily? I have a scalp condition (that is undiagnosed so far but it's defo not normal dandruff as I have scaly patches of skin on my scalp too and I'm going to the doctor next Tuesday about it) and my hair falls out a lot, more than the normal amount of hair. I'm worried that having a hair cut will make it fall out faster but I have a lot of split ends so really need my hair cutting as I haven't had it cut in almost 2 years. My friend works at a hair salon and every 6 months they get to cut a family member/friends hair for free so she chose me. I feel stupid asking her about it so I was just wondering if anyone here knew?

I know it sounds stupid. But my hair is the only part of me I feel comfortable with and I get so upset about the rate it's falling out at,

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LadyMorticia

Have a nice bath Sazbo. [[hugs]]

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LadyMorticia

[[[[[[hugs]]]]]] Meyore.

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meyore

Thanks saz, means a lot. Tried to reply, but felt silly when I saw in in writing so I had to delete it.
Xx

slowlyfading

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Thanks. It was lovely. Had a very small amount of bubbles though so not as nice as it could have been.lol.

That's cool. When is your birthday? Mine is 2nd December.

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the 6th december! so very close

slowlyfading

Meyore, I hope you're okay. ((( HUGS))) xx

rose07

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Hello.
I'm okay. I'm ebaying at the moment.lol. How are you?

Thank you. I'd love to see some of your art.

I've had extensive CBT and CAT to help me deal with the feelings. Also had two CPNS, two therapists and 2 counsellors and numerous amounts of consultants. Not one has been able to help me shrug off these feelings. I know it's me who has to do the work, and I do, or at least try to everyday but sometimes it just feels like I'm struggling up a massive hill with numerous amounts of bricks on my back that keep stopping me from being able to make it, if that makes sense? I'm really not any good at this analogy thing. I'm determined not to give up though. I'm a stubborn person.lol.
Thank you for your kind words. [[hugs]]

I only got 4 GCSEs A-C. The rest were Ds but it makes me sound more intelligent to say I got 9 A-D.lol. I was predicted an A* in RS but got a B in the end, which i cried endlessly (or what seemed like endlessly) about as RS was my best subject. I got A*s in my coursework though so at least that's something. My exams were a very stressful time though - both at school and at home and I'm not good under pressure. I'm much better at coursework because I like to be concise and like to take the time to make things perfect. I was told by the 6th form head that I was too "stupid" to do A levels - in those exact words. So I just went and did them somewhere else. I did A level RS, Sociology and Health and Social Care, and because of stress again got bad grades. I did get a C in the Philosophy exam of RS so that's something I guess. I used to want to be an RS teacher. Still do, actually. When I get a bit better I want to do retake my GCSEs at home as I can work at my own pace and won't be kicked off the course if my attendance is low due to my anxiety. I study by myself a lot of the time though. I download the GCSE syllabuses from the exam boards website and then research on the net. I can't afford to do a home course so I like to think that if I eventually can then I will be able to use the things I've researched against the course. Yep, anything is possible!

Yeah. I don't understand any of my family really, or their motives, but I'm determined not to turn into her. One of my friends said to me that all people who have been abused will abuse any children they have. That really peeved me off because it's not true. In some cases it may be, but most people who have been abused know what it feels like and wouldn't want to put anyone else through it.

I have a few friends who are dyslexic and people thought they were stupid and bullied them, but dyslexia doesn't mean someone is stupid. It just means they have problems with reading and writing. Some of the most intelligent people I know are dyslexic. From reading your posts and the lovely presence you give off, I think you are very intelligent and in no way stupid.
Thank you for your kind words. I hope that one day I will believe in myself more.

No pets at the moment. Patchy was taken away by the council because my mum and dad didn't train her properly and she used to poop on people's doormats in the block of flats. We had a cat called Pepsi, but she ran away. Then we had Closo. I loved Closo but she was maltreated and got very skinny and had flea bites all over her. She died of a heart attack a couple of years ago. I miss her. My friend Nikki says that if I do well at my ED appointment then she is going to take me to Wood Green to get a cat. I love animals. It feels weird not having a cat about the place. I'm such a cat lover. I get so sad when animals die. Was it interesting having a goat? My foster sister had a hamster called Erton. He got stuck in the dishwasher once, and survived. :eek:

I feel safer because I live away from my family. They live about 30 miles away but their not the sort of people to hop on a train to come over unannounced thankfully. My nan occasionally sends me money. I'm not sure why. =/ It doesn't change anything. =/ They only got my address because I thought I could trust my cousin not to give it to them...and of course I couldn't. He's in care too. My auntie was also in care, and my half sister was adopted aged 8. My family is screwed up.lol. I feel safer but I get so scared sometimes. Any noises and I'm almost jumping out of my skin. If someone knocks at the door I jump, and get panicky. I sometimes worry that I'll be in a situation like when I was a child again. My ex put me in a situation like that.

Lol. On good days, I try to reason with myself, on bad days I can't even try. I don't think I'll ever shrug this feeling off either. I think for me it's just a case of trying to put it to the back of mind (even though that is sometimes one of the hardest things to do. ). We'll both get there in the end.

I'm too stubborn to give up. [[hugs]] Thank you for all of your kind words and support over the past few days. It really does mean a lot to me.

Many hugs and sparkly love
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Hi hun

How are you doing today?

I like ebay, I used to be addicted to that site farrr too much, that’s when I found this site lol

Nice yellow dress btw, will be lovely for these summer months ahead.

Ok im going to try and show ya some of my artwork, I do videos, paintings, poems/lyrics, some digital stuff and photography, also have my own website, which im tryna update.

Ok here is a couple of my videos:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkLyKqb4IjM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EX_hzVy7JUg

Paintings are too big too post lol

Sometimes theres only soo much the professionals can do, it is good that you know that its you that needs to put the work in,. Makes perfect sense what you say hun, I know numberous times ive felt like your just fighting and climbing, but ya don’t feel like your getting anywhere, I could it being stuck in the mud, as much as you struggle you just cant get free. But you will eventually, guess time is the key, and perserverance.

Your definitely got determination in you, with your studies, and if you have it there, you can put your determination into other things too. I got a RS certificate, cant remember why, sooo long ago lol. I got certificates for most promising, and best student, gives you a great sense of achievement. Indeed anything is possible .

Yes someone said a similair thing to me, about if someone is abused they will abuse themselves, I don’t necessarily agree, I think different people have different ways of releasing their pain. Some may release it into others, but I agree with you, I would never hurt a child or abuse them, I think children are a blessing.

Pets, well weve had, hens, ducks, he sweetest thing are the chicks,yes the goat was interesting, I was only a wee thing, but yeah, was interesting, we also had a cat but it got ran over, and my goldfish died. Awww your mate is lovely to say she will get you a cat, gives you a reason to work hard

Its good you feel safer now, shame your family know where you are, but as you say they aren’t the sort to get a train down, I will jump at almost anything, I jumped on the bus when a guy was closing the window, ive taken to sitting up the top of a bus now, dunno why, coz its where all the school kids are lol Don’t worry hun, I have a fcked up family too, strange some things family do, when there meant to be there and protect you and help you grow.

Ok im gonna keep saying it. ........Its not your fault, Its not your fault, Its not your fault,. Lol

Keep up the fight
Anytime hun, and lotsa love and huggles to you

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rose07

meyore wrote: »

Why can I never let go of stuff, why do I worry myself ill? I just want to be normal and not think twice about the small stuff, not have any of the weird stuff that normal people don't have to deal with. I want my family to be normal but they're screwed up, I feel guilty for having that thought in my head.

are you ok hun?

(((((((hugs))))))))

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rose07

slowlyfading wrote: »

hm.. i'm alright. you? x

Hi hun

How r u feeling tonight?

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slowlyfading

rose07 wrote: »

Hi hun

How r u feeling tonight?

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I'm alright, you? xx