Depression Support Thread

meyore

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Has anyone ever lost someone who they loved but it was many years ago but every day they still get very upset about it?
Maybe I just haven't grieved. I don't know.
I don't feel normal....

xx

I understand that completely. But saying that, it might not be you haven't grieved, just that you might never be completely over it. It will get easier though. I've lost a few people and I've got over most of them (as much as you can iykwim), but there is one or two that are still as sore today as ever.

Xx

LadyMorticia

meyore wrote: »

I understand that completely. But saying that, it might not be you haven't grieved, just that you might never be completely over it. It will get easier though. I've lost a few people and I've got over most of them (as much as you can iykwim), but there is one or two that are still as sore today as ever.

Xx

I've never really spoken about it to anyone. My best friend died in 1995 when she was 7 years old. I was 8. She died of leukaemia. I get so upset about it, even though it happened almost 13 years ago and even though we were both children. I feel so stupid. I miss her so much.

xx

meyore

Sazbo wrote: »

Well that's a lot for you to have cope with. But you need to think of yourself too. What you need is just as real as what other people need xx

Sxx

I came home and found her lying on her bed with her clothes and shoes on sleeping. The windows were open and she was freezing cold. My first thought was she was dead. When I think about it I realise how stupid that thought was, but at the same time so typical of me. She was just tired, but I go into overdrive with the stupid irrational fears. I just want everyone else to be ok, them I can concentrate on being ok myself. OH despairs, telling me I can't make everything ok for other people and she's the grown up in this relationship, but I find it hard to let go. This definately sounds like me being the one with the problem not her.

Xx

meyore

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I've never really spoken about it to anyone. My best friend died in 1995 when she was 7 years old. I was 8. She died of leukaemia. I get so upset about it, even though it happened almost 13 years ago and even though we were both children. I feel so stupid. I miss her so much.

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I don't know if its of any comfort, but at least it was a release from her pain. I was 10 when my friend died of a brain tumour. Thats what they told us then, and its the thought I've always held, that at least she wasn't suffering anymore. You don't need to feel stupid though, she was obviously special to you and whatever you feel is right for you, no one can tell you its wrong because they aren't you.

Xx

meyore

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Heya Katie.

Glad you had a nice bath. I found a way to give my hair more volume and make it appear thicker. Just whip my head upside down and blow dry. No more flat roots for me.lol. I know that was random but I just felt the need to tell someone.lol.

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I wish that worked for me! I have baby hair, all soft and curly and its like fluff unless I straighten it! Its ok if I wash it and leave it, then its curly, but if I go near it with a brush its like a lions mane!

Xx

meyore

Tulip wrote: »

:hello: everyone,

I had a nice bath and washed my hair,going to sleep soon as I am so tired.I have had a good day.Nothing much on tv tonight.

Getting used to the laptop now and its keyboard.

*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,


Katie xxx

Hi katie, hope you're feeling better now.
Xx

Sazbo

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meyore wrote: »

I came home and found her lying on her bed with her clothes and shoes on sleeping. The windows were open and she was freezing cold. My first thought was she was dead. When I think about it I realise how stupid that thought was, but at the same time so typical of me. She was just tired, but I go into overdrive with the stupid irrational fears. I just want everyone else to be ok, them I can concentrate on being ok myself. OH despairs, telling me I can't make everything ok for other people and she's the grown up in this relationship, but I find it hard to let go. This definately sounds like me being the one with the problem not her.

Xx

I don't see it as a 'problem' hun. You care about people. I agree with your OH, your mum is the 'grown up' , in the sense that you can't live her life for her. I only say this because I do the same thing with my mum. I wish more than anything I could make everything right for her; give her the life she never had - but I have to try and accept that I can't do that, and the fact that I can't is no reflection on me.. I'm typing the words, but I find it oh so hard to carry out in practice... Wish I had the answers meyore hun, but I do understand some of what you're going through.

Much love,
Saz xxx

LadyMorticia

meyore wrote: »

I don't know if its of any comfort, but at least it was a release from her pain. I was 10 when my friend died of a brain tumour. Thats what they told us then, and its the thought I've always held, that at least she wasn't suffering anymore. You don't need to feel stupid though, she was obviously special to you and whatever you feel is right for you, no one can tell you its wrong because they aren't you.

Xx

I'm glad she's not in pain anymore. It was so upsetting seeing her in the last few weeks of her life. Everyone I've ever loved has either died or left in one way or another. I know that Rachel's leukaemia wasn't my fault but I felt so helpless. I felt like as her best friend I should have been able to stop it destroying her body, like I should have been able to cure her and sometimes I feel like it should have been me in her place.

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meyore

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I'm glad she's not in pain anymore. It was so upsetting seeing her in the last few weeks of her life. Everyone I've ever loved has either died or left in one way or another. I know that Rachel's leukaemia wasn't my fault but I felt so helpless. I felt like as her best friend I should have been able to stop it destroying her body, like I should have been able to cure her and sometimes I feel like it should have been me in her place.

xx

Its not your fault and it shouldn't have been you.
(((HUGS)))
Xx

LadyMorticia

meyore wrote: »

I wish that worked for me! I have baby hair, all soft and curly and its like fluff unless I straighten it! Its ok if I wash it and leave it, then its curly, but if I go near it with a brush its like a lions mane!

Xx

I was a bit sceptical at first but tried it anyway, so I'm glad it works for my hair. My hair used to be so thick, but then it started falling out so it's not as thick as it was so I guess I'm not used to it so to me my hair is thin because of what I'm used to but I think by hairdressing standards it isn't.lol.

I acquired the nickname Cousin Itt from one of my foster carers because it was so thick and I used to brush it all over my face so no one could see my face and then put my glasses on.lol.

I can't imagine what having baby hair is like because mine has never been that way but I assume it can be quite hard to do different hairstyles or to keep it in place?

xx