The giving up/cutting down alcohol support thread!

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Bingowings wrote: »

Jack will be back - when he's ready

good. we'll be here when he does xx

Bismarck

eselt wrote: »

Hi all- have to agree with Bis about the money thing, in the end when I had nothing I was taking the sofa apart, checking the car, searching in the garden etc for cash to buy the stuff- the money didn't matter really, in fact when I had no money at all because I'd blown it on booze it stopped me being able to drink and I didn't have those should I/Shan't I conversations with myself because I didn't have a choice. My sister even took my purse off me once so I couldn't buy any more booze. Molly, Bis do you have a period in your life which you can't remember and things just seem a blur? I seem to have blocked out 2005-2006 and it worries me- all I can really remember is that I didn't send any christmas cards that year, and I spent a lot of time on the setee after losing my job drinking and being useless. Now I've emerged from that I still don't know if it was the drink or an underlying depression which led to that awful time. Perhaps best not to dwell on it?!

figured out that stopping access to cash wasn't the solution as I was way too resourceful for that...later on I knew people who'd pawned everythign they had for the next fix and I understood how it happened.

regarding bits missing - no there are none really...that said, I "maintained appearances" and "functioned" to a large extent although it nearly broke me. I was never hospitalised and have a reasonable memory of what happened...sometimes it gives me the creeps but usually it helps me focus on the way forward.

take care everyone!

Wanna_Bee_Free

2 AFDs in a row, followed by a boozy pub night on Thursday and again on Friday. Think I'm drinking the same as I was before but in fewer evenings. Although managed a very moderate (for me) 5.2 units yesterday.

Bismarck, what you said about the money aspect really rang true with me. Lots of last weeks boozing was paid for by other people which is adding to my guilt. Plus spent yesterday in a doom and gloom mood because embarrassed about a scene I'd caused drunk at dinner the night before.

Ho hum, off to catch up on this thread again properly.

jo1972

I keep screwing up recently. Went out on a night out with my oldest mate (in time not age :rotfl:) last night, had a curry and lots of cobra, felt like throwing up when I got in but crashed out and so feel like carp this morning. Had a great evening though. My body needs to be alcohol free today otherwise it might not continue working tomorrow!

ageing_biker

hi jo, still havent managed a dry week yet but starting a new job on the 12th on nights so hoping this will help, hope you feel better soon, ab

Pippilongstocking

Hiya all - just read the thread for past couple days, not switched my computer on for 3 days (unheard of!) making too much scrambled eggs - bacon and lovely stuff for visitors. All gone.

Didn't manage to be AF - but did manage to only have a couple on thurs/fri and more last night - wierd to see how much alcohol is consumed by folks when you aren't in the kitchen yourself pouring another glass. I did lots of cooking which always keeps me busy and off the hook (not sitting and yapping with glass in hand) there were tonnes of kids around over weekend too and that always makes me a bit wary amongst a pile of kids I didn't have anything really until late, limited the time I could drink (it didnt stop me) but I dont like the kids seeing me drinking other than a tiny wee bit, tells me something doesnt it if I dont want them seeing me drink - cos I know i will get drunk.

Will read thread properly later, last visitor goes at t time, kitchen in full off booze I seem to have made an alcohol profit.......now to figure out what to do with it cos if its here I will drink it and to be honest I dont want to drink the contents of my kitchen - its been wierd not have made a complete ar*e of self this weekend. No paranoia, nothing to apologise for (that I remember!!!)

The 'nice' Highland Park went home with the guests, but the kitchen is still afloat with booze we shopped on saturday and it came to over £107 - probably about 30ish quid of food and nibbles - I was horrified, thankfully I wasn't allowed to pay - what a waste of money - £20 quid for a bottle of Highalnd Park and there's hardly half of it left today, 2 bottles gin gone, 20+ cans in recycling,......might as well have set fire to - um - over 150+ quid this weekend. Thankfully I only bought all the food and some alcohol free wine and beer and made it available - some even got scoffed -

Made me think I can tell you, did it stop me drinking um no - but god did it make me think - aiming for an AF week - managed 4 days before - gonna try really really hard - Waving xx

barshamhillbilly

Jo don't feel bad --- we will get there !

The plan didn't work for me yesterday - somebody paid up for a small job I did and I had some cash ! I only had a couple of bottles .... and a couple of tescos finest cheapy lager - but it was a couple of extra bottles none the less.

I have an appointment with the counsellor on Tuesday and the OVERALL trend is downwards so I am happy with my progress so far. Lets Hope I can keep it on the downward slope (the drink trend - not my life :rolleyes:)

Have a great afternoon everyone

Apple crumble and custard just about ready

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yum!!!!

Catch you later

BHB

Pippilongstocking

Thus far the alcohol is stashed outside in shed - cold and wet wander should I feel the need isnt very appealing - not sure its a good idea to have it around but dunno what else apart from chucking it in bin I can do with it - told myself if I drink even one bit of it - its all to be chucked down the sink.

So far so good. AF today - did chuck the opened gin down the sink, as well as all the odds and sods of bottles that were open from the weekend just needing 'finished'.

Odd seeing my friends very drunk (as I am usually equally as bad), slurring words, passing out on sofa and this lovely couple on the last night haviing a fight because of a stupid drunken commment, floods of tears and both a bit sheepish huffy this morning, whilst I did have a slightly sore head I managed to escape to bed when I found myself thinking that one more drink was a good idea at 2am - am an idiot.

One passed out on the sofa, the other one slept alone sad because of silly comment her hubby had made - seems pointless really and incredibly sad.

Will try to have a quieter week, away at hotel and conference for 3 days later in week, not looking forward to free bar etc, need to work and avoid the stuff as much as possible.

mollypolly

Bismarck wrote: »

regarding bits missing - no there are none really...that said, I "maintained appearances" and "functioned" to a large extent although it nearly broke me. I was never hospitalised and have a reasonable memory of what happened...sometimes it gives me the creeps but usually it helps me focus on the way forward.
take care everyone!

I totally agree with this.There are odd hours here and there missing but mostly it is all there.
The rows with OH...Staggering into church half way through a service half cut:o ...dropping prayer book twice:o ....the pitying looks.Falling asleep in the street with a bottle of whisky:o ... lying on the pavement vomiting at the feet of a policeman.:o ..been taken home in a police car.:o ..never again....
All these thoughts help keep me on the straight and narrow along with the little things like bright eyes and healthy skin and a slim figure at last after 30 years of diets that didnt work because of the alcohol intake.

A very hard battle but worth fighting I think.......
All the best to you all.I hope you get to wherever you want to be.
Love Mollypollyxxxx

winebox

My own little halloween horror Friday night; don't remember going to bed (but at least I got there I suppose). Sat morning found a large, full glass of red stood in the sink (?) & some left in the bottle, & some white left in the fridge, in fact there was so much not drunk that I don't know how I got into such a state. Maybe there's an empty bottle I've not even found yet. Judging from the state of the kitchen table I was trying to juggle with the glass of red; now have to return a form to school covered in a rather obvious purple stain . As I was trying to pour the glass back into the bottle Saturday morning I thought, this is farcical...so both red & white went down plughole & the house is now AF. I'm not, have been at OH's for weekend so have been no saint, but when I go home after work today there is nothing in my house to tempt me. Even though nobody will ever know about Friday (except u guys) - no silly phone calls or texts etc - I still felt thoroughly ashamed & off-kilter on Saturday. I don't usually have such a blank. I didn't have much Saturday but overdid it again yesterday & got into silly row with OH, but at least it calmed down & we were all OK before the day was over...I so hate going to bed on an argument. So, what a pooo weekend. & mrs-never-has-a-hangover has....a hangover. Keeping my head down this morning; contact lenses feel as if inserted with glue rather than solution. Here's to an AF day today......