MOT and twins - Start of our new life!

luxor4t

mumoftwins wrote: »

Hi Luxor!

Thanks for reassuring post - I had 3 steroid injections in my back many moons ago and can't remember much about them. Could I just ask - do they hurt? Are you sedated?

You have a pm.

binnie

Hi MOT,
How are you, sorry not been on your thread for ages, but not forgotten about you.
xxx

beanielou

ampersand~ SOTW is slimmer of the week.
HTH.
Great to have you on the other thread.

ampersand

Bonne nuit, mot -letter done, check your em.
n.b.-a.m. now - will do small edits and send to you again.
And once again well done you! - half a stone already.
(Don't worry, I'll give you the other half, so you can have a nice whole one back again.:D :eek:

mumoftwins

Awful journey to and from school today due to weather and traffic, it left me feeling really down so much so that I-T has gone for a swim alone as I didn't feel up it - I know it would have done me good but just having a really down day again, can't get to grips with the emothional roller coaster that I seem to be having at the moment. Driving back school alone takes about 25 - 30 mins and thats when the thoughts start whirling round in my head from what has happened over the last few years to why haven't we moved in yet?

Have to do letter to school and Ed Auth this afternoon and send off, and have done a letter of complaint to Nationwide Bldg Soc about their dreadful Customer Service and 'c*ck ups'.

Sorry don't mean to sound so miserable but just needed to get it off my chest.

locutus2003

Hey MOT (hugs)

I'm sorry you're feeling down today. You're going to get days when things are good and days when you don't feel so good. Anything can trigger any of us off - and you do have a lot on your plate at the moment. Shame you didn't get out for a swim - but sometimes it's as well to do what you need to do as well. Hope the journey to pick the twins up wasn't as bad and that you're feeling a bit better now.

I can spend most of my time thinking about the 'whys' (I didn't get promotion last week, which I should've done. Minor in the scheme of things, but still doesn't stop me turning it over in my mind at every available opportunity!). It's the way we are unfortunately.

You WILL move - and very soon. All the augurs are good. Hang on in there.

Love
xxx

Bagpuss741

mumoftwins wrote: »

Hi all,

Had a lovely day with D - it so relaxing in her company a little like someone else I know Ampersand and your kind regards to her were passed on thank you xx

Also has a lovely natter with Wol2 whilst sitting the sunshine outside school - what a fab place MSE is I have made some lovely friends :A :A

On a more sombre note - I have received THE LETTER :T :T :T :T from CAP confirming that the house is ours as soon as electrical works have been completed (not started yet!) so am now able to write to the Educ Auth and The Hemel school requesting that the twins be considered for this school due to its proximity (300 yds or so) - according to the Educ Auth website it could still be some months before we find out if they have been successful so
ANOTHER hanging around period .

Hope you're all ok xx

I'm so pleased for you Mot and the twins (and not forgetting i-t:D ):j :j :j :j :j :j

mumoftwins

locutus2003 wrote: »

Hey MOT (hugs)

I'm sorry you're feeling down today. You're going to get days when things are good and days when you don't feel so good. Anything can trigger any of us off - and you do have a lot on your plate at the moment. Shame you didn't get out for a swim - but sometimes it's as well to do what you need to do as well. Hope the journey to pick the twins up wasn't as bad and that you're feeling a bit better now.

I can spend most of my time thinking about the 'whys' (I didn't get promotion last week, which I should've done. Minor in the scheme of things, but still doesn't stop me turning it over in my mind at every available opportunity!). It's the way we are unfortunately.

You WILL move - and very soon. All the augurs are good. Hang on in there.

Love
xxx

I know I should have faith in this very kind man but the fact is that we are still here nearly 6 weeks later - and the twins are starting to feel the 'pinch' - they have nowhere to get away from each other and have recently been arguing a lot with each other, this also gets me down and makes me worry about how my friend must feel having us staying here at the moment. I have thought that I would like to get a job again, but know that I am not ready and also worry again about who would look after the twins in the holidays, which then made me think perhaps I should move back to the Midlands where I knew a lot of people and property prices are cheaper to rent - but then I would have to leave I-T and I don't want to do that either.

Sometimes I wonder if life is worth all this effort.

locutus2003

:grouphug:

Hey - sorry about the dodgy MSE hug - but you know where I'm coming from!

It must be really difficult - almost unbelievable to think just the last part of this has been going on for six weeks. You've had such a lot to put up with, over such a huge length of time. The twins are bound to be getting on top of each other - my brothers and I had quite a lot of space and it STILL didn't seem like enough some days! As for your friend - she is your friend - and that's why she offered to put you up. I'm sure she knew it wouldn't be easy all the time and that you would not be able to move straight away - and it really won't be long and things will move on again. It just seems so frustratingly slow (for all of us!) at the moment.

It's up to you when you feel ready to go back to work - personally I think you've got a lot on at present and working is probably not the best thing to be thinking of. However, everyone's different - work is my salvation actually ... but it's very difficult to get up and go to work and do my best when my depression is bad ... so it's not all great. Advantage is, of course, work gives you the opportunity to be with other people and talk about other things with them and I think that all helps too.

Please don't put so much pressure on yourself. I really think you're doing such a fantastic job, coping as you are.

Take care ... watch out, another dodgy MSE hug coming up ...

:grouphug:

xx

ampersand

Hope light off means you're off to byes, mot.

Take :whistle: a certain book :whistle:with you and go snuggle.......

I hope you do realise that a lot of this roller-coasting is due to mind and body knowing it's safe to ease up a bit, after all that's gone on.
The key to this change is the house offer, which you cannot now UN-know.
It is all entirely natural, but no easier to pace the wait for knowing this.
Be aware, too, that already, your marvellous weight loss is also playing its part - you know the Lit. better than I, mot, but I read that this morning and it makes sense.
Whether or not it's so - can you try this?(it's as likely a scenario as the slight 'doom' one your mind is trapped into circuiting endlessly atm)
Your benefactor Landlord(YOU DO HAVE THAT LETTER, mot)learns more and more about your situation. Perhaps he reads this Thread. Perhaps, as he reads/learns more of you en famille, he decides he wants to cover extra miles for you. Perhaps he goes and looks at the house and realises it needs a bit of sorting. Perhaps he feels he can see well enough that if anything DID go amiss, need work, in your first 6 mths/1st year, you would do ANYTHING rather than tell him and would somehow resolve to fix it yourself, even though it makes your financial tunnel more perilous.
Few here would see you feeling you could make ANY sort of comment in this situation, after such generosity as you will shortly live beautifully in and be testament too, throughout the years to come.
Perhaps he wants to make very, very sure that your sense of abode/home/secure/hearth is absolute, does not seem cobbled together for 'a tenant'.
Let me tell you, in another life[25-30 years ago], whenever I mowed down by one of the apple trees, I ALWAYS found myself thinking about Charles and Camilla....... long before etc.etc. and goodness knows why.
But I became aware of it, and this in turn triggered the familiarity of the repeat response. This sort of familiarity can be retrained as 'friend' in times of strain.
For you, it comes with the drive home, at the same time of day - announce it to whoever's in the car as you go along, even to yourself. 'Uh oh, here it comes again - I'm entering my misery moments/downward spiral/discomfort zone. Felicity, Adam - don't you DARE bicker - this is my Grumps time' etc.etc. apologies for feebleness, but it's one way through, J.
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I'm just going to say Bless you and yours, which includes everyone who visits this loving and companionable place.
No-one who comes here is alone.
To all who need comfort and gentleness tonight, please take.
mot, I won't be able to afford petrol to Midlands often - you know I struggle now, so don't you dare go any further, at least not until I hand over the latest box of books.......AND all the other books and bits I know are itching to cross my path for you.
Let me see, that should be ...yes, it's 19 March, 2028.
Are yew free?
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I am writing that note to Emma now.