Mooloo's struggle with babies and bills

Savvy_sewing

Well I am back. I had a wonderful time. Even though the flight out was delayed. (And the one back landed early!!).
Oporto seems to be perched on the edge of the rocks. It was amazing. Very ecleptic mix of housing etc. The weather was warm, as it was here I believe, but the wind chill was cooling so it wasnt hard to cope with it. I even got a little bit of a suntan on my arms, neck, although we only went sunbathing for a couple of hours.
It was a lovely leisurely few days, pretty stress free, except when trying to buy tickets at the metro, from an automated machine that didnt have enough options half the time.!!
The hotel did have work ongoing and offered to move us to another hotel, but it only interferred with us for about an hour on Saturday as most of the time we were out. We walked a lot, and had a ride on the river. Nothing very MSE about any of it, apart from the original Ryanair cheap flights, and a good search for the hotel on rediculously low offers. We had breakfast included so ate a large breakfast and didnt need lunch much. Had a snack on Sunday more becuase I was hungry then BF.
It was a pity we had only 3 days though. But I am not complaining it was just what the doctor ordered.

Have come home to DS causing me worries as he still hasnt been pitching up at school. He didnt go today becuase of the strike he said. But I dont think he even tried. JUst going to double check with BF's family see if they went to school. ..........

Savvy_sewing

Yep school was on there!!. DS is in it up to his neck. Once upon a time, when I started this thread my problems were with babies and money. Now they are with son and money. (Well not so much the money at the moment, although its all about to change again, when I get the housing benefit resorted.).

Twin1 has gone up to bed (Had a hard day, she had to go to the Health visitors which is just across the street!!!!). She has taken the baby up with her as I refused to help.
Twin2 has nipped out with house visitor to take her chap back to his house.??? Why cant she go on her own. BBJ is asleep in his chair at the moment.

Oh and Visitor has given up her job at the famous pizza place and her cleaning job too? So I can kiss goodbye to any help financially from her.
So I am definitely not subletting!!!!

Savvy_sewing

Got hold of DS and told him to get back home asap as his Dad has rung him. Apparantly the school have rung him???(Why didnt they ring me when he lives with me I want to know!!!) Hasnt lived with his dad ever in his life. Dad left when DS was 1. He only has occassional weekends for god sake. Its me that has him 24/7 (well if he would come home!!).
BBJ awake, twin1's mobile phone rang that loud it made him jump and woke him. So I have to go into the other room, as there is no babysafe areas in here at the moment.
Notice Biggest of Mooloos is on line. (Thought you were at work?).
Told kids they cant have laptop on when baby awake so I better get off of mine!!.

Seaxwyn

HI Mooloo. Do you know what it is about school that DS doesn't like? Is there somewhere else he could go, if he really hates it? Where I live there is a special unit for 'school refusing' teenage boys, where they have really positive results and apparently no truancy. Could the school or social worker advise on any alternatives?

Savvy_sewing

I think that he has been struggling and his pride wouldnt let him own up, then he has put it off rather than face the work, and now all the teachers are shouting at him for all the years course work, and of course he hadnt done it. In too deep now. He wont tell me anything. He has just got off of the phone from his dad in tears and gone outside to talk to the house visitor, he wont talk to me. (He never does then I get frustrated, and lately I have let rip so I am not surprised!).
I will hope that the talk with her will get him to open up a bit, but I doubt that he will do this to me at all.
I dont want to get the social worker involved with him as they are already causing me grief over the twins. Samantha has had a letter from them saying tht they would interviene if she tried to leave home. So although I know that they have the babies interests at heart they have really started to get my back up. They are not offering practical help, just critisism and threats. The so called help has not been forthcoming. Just a list of do this or elses. I know someone here is a social worker, (cant remember who at the moment, and I realise that its not an easy job, but I have just had false promises and no bloody help at all.).
At times I want to say a swear word or two at them instead of trying to cooperate all the time.
Feel like bundling my whole family away from them and disappearing to France with the rest of my family, but reaslise that I cant afford to do that as I am a bankrupt.!!
Am trying to relax and not get all het up now that I am back from my jaunt, but I am already at stress levels as I sit here. Really just want to run away from it all permanantly.
I really dont think that my kids give a flying fig about me. I try not to think like that, and think that they will thank me oneday, but I could do with the realisation from them that they really are stressing me out and making my life a misery.
Perhaps I have made thiers a misery at times? But I dont see how.

Biggest*of*Mooloos

U got me xxxxxxxxxx

Seaxwyn

No, you haven't made their life a misery. They're just teenagers. When they are older they will really appreciate everything you have done. Even now they probably do care about you deeply, but their brains are warped with teenage-ness so they don't feel it all the time. Just hang on in there - I'm sure this is the worst time and one day it will just be a memory.

I must say your social workers sound particularly unhelpful. I have friends who have found social workers a godsend, but it's hard to see what yours are doing for you.

Savvy_sewing

Sorry you are the exception to the rule. xx

Savvy_sewing

Well is it the drop after a peak? I had such a good weekend away, but of course I have come back to all of the problems all over again.
I am supposed to be at work at the moment.:o I have also supposed to have been going to physio twice today, once at 11 and once at 4. But I am so low, I am in tears, cant seem to shake them, I worried all night about my BF as I didnt get any texts etc, and as he was feeling ill, I hadnt wanted to ring incase he was asleep. I then fretted all night long as I didnt get my usual night texts... So I am tired to the bone. The texts all came through around 7am in the end!!!!:rolleyes:
My son came home and my eldest also gave him a call, so what with his Dad and her he then burst into tears. Both of us are frustrated. He has left for school, once I managed to get him up. But will he arrive?
I have emailed his school and begged them to help. But will theY? I decided to email as I was supposed to be at work before and then after physio and so I would get my point accross when I needed to. I know that I feel so stressed and tearful I would have broken down and cried on the phone or in person.:eek:
Well i couldnt have gone in Person as I am still not dressed.
Today is one of my very low days. There doesnt seem to be anything extra happening or that I can put my finger on, its just that everything has compounded today and I feel that I have lost the plot.:eek: :eek:
I have text my assistant and told her that I will not be in until after my 11am physio (except really I have cancelled that), though i would be able to regroup so to speak. However I am failing at the moment.
Am trying to talk to my BF on the email, but he is busy at work, and its unfair of me to off load on him.
DD is moving house today, and I already know that last night she read on here and acted swiftly to try to help me,( since she found me on here its been a bit strange, but has been a help too.).
Have I any hope of getting this life of mine on an even keel? God alone knows cos I dont.

Savvy_sewing

Well I havent a clue where the last hour has gone? I am still not dressed, I have had a couple of cups of tea. Twin1 has woken up and brought BGP down with her. (She has cut two teeth while I was away!), I have asked her to wash up. Which I can hear from here that she is doing. She was a bit surprised to see me at home? But I cant really explain to her that things have just got a bit too much for me today. How do you explain why your crying when you dont know yourself???