Realisation Moment...My God How Did I Get Here???

DisillusionedAnna

Thanks all for reading my post, Isat here for 3hrs and did my SAO and the bleeding things gone whoof in cyber space somewhere out there my debt ridden life is floating about.
I have to work tonight till 8.30 pm but will post it again and will save it this time.
Apologies for losing it ..just my luck it looked lovley and well presented too arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh never mind.
Must say I feel more positive today, will catch you all laters, many thanks Anna x

serena

Hi Anna,

oh, I hate it when the post disappears like that! I try to remember to write anything long on Word, and then copy and paste it into the reply box.

I am no expert, and can only agree with some of the comments you have already had. Just wanted to let you know there is a fantastic amount of support on these forums.

DisillusionedAnna

soa keeps disapearing:eek: :eek:

ok am gonna try and do it for the 4th time, have warned everyone dont phone me dont knock on my door keep away lol:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:
nothing like a demented DFW female trying to post her SOA!!!!!!!!:mad: :mad: :mad:
each time I type it out I think OMG how the heck did you get in this deep, never mind least im doing something about it and my typing speeds improving:j :j
right back to the keyboard yet again maybe 5th time lucky sigh:T

itsgototstop

Just wanted to offer my support, people on here are brilliant and will help in all sorts of ways

you're not on your own hun

hugs xx

splishsplash

Hi Anna,
I think you're amazing to be able to stand up after all you've been through, never mind tackling your problems head on the way you are. I agree with some of the other posters... if that's your GP's attitude, and not just a bad day, find someone else. Especially in view of the fact that he's familiar with your family history.
I also agree with Need To Sort It - get a proper psych evaluation. You need some community support as well as meds.
Re your SOA - are you filling out the one on this site? It might be an idea to save a copy before you post it
I wish you the best, I'm so glad you found CAB helpful.

always_amazed

hi anna,

well done for facing things head on.

Sometimes, during bad and difficult and traumatic times, we feel that we are just coping, because that's all you can do, and it takes a bit of time and distance to see what a strong, determined and courageous person you are (that's what we're all seeing here!).

all the best,

xxx

dizzy_lizzie

DisillusionedAnna wrote: »

soa keeps disapearing:eek: :eek:

ok am gonna try and do it for the 4th time, have warned everyone dont phone me dont knock on my door keep away lol:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:
nothing like a demented DFW female trying to post her SOA!!!!!!!!:mad: :mad: :mad:
each time I type it out I think OMG how the heck did you get in this deep, never mind least im doing something about it and my typing speeds improving:j :j
right back to the keyboard yet again maybe 5th time lucky sigh:T

Oh Anna don't give up. Mine kept doing that and even when I'd copied and pasted, and logged back on the page just stuck on reply. I now copy into 'notepad' in applications,log back in again then copy from 'notepad'.
I read your first post, what a terrible time you've had, but by jingo you are such a strong person.:D Keep going, it will get better, every day is a day closer to your goal isn't it.
Best of luck luv and hugz Dizzy x

scorpio04

Have just read all these posts and it cetainly puts things in perspective - bad enough being in debt without all the other horrors you've had to go through. I'm sure you will sort it all out as you seem to be so strong inspite of what's been thrown at you. Good luck!

DisillusionedAnna

Ok final attempt at posting my SOA...

Income:
Wages: £89.45
WTC: £55.25
Total £144.70


Outgoings:

Rent: £52.25
C/Tax £12.60
Gas: £10.00
Elec: £10.00
W/Rate: £6.15
TV Lic: £02.75
Food: £25.00
H/Ins £03.25 (Contents need this in the area I live in)
CSA £29.00


Total £151.50 ish



Debts:

Provident: £1516.25 (guaranteed this for my sister who died )

Capital One: £750.00
TV/DVD/ £456.10
Welcome Fin£1247.32
C/Tax £675
Rent £289 (Arrears am paying back at £5.00 per week)
Gas £193(Am paying back through a meter £5.00/wk)
Elec £ 123( " " " " " " " ")
Littlewoods £178( used this to help furnish flat )
BT £155( phone about to be taken offline/cancelled)
AOL £150 (about to lose internet connection)
Sky £90 (asked them to cancel may have to pay full year)

Total
£5822.67
plus £1000 to family member

£6822.67


I have cancelled my Sky/Hopefully BT will be disconnected this week/AOL has to go may be held to full 18mth contract same with Sky 12mth contract.

Plus CSA are now debiting £29.00 per week from my bank acct...I am over £35.00 a week short of my basic outgoings

If I take on extra hours my CSA goes up at the rate of 35% of net wages.

I cannot claim Housing Benefit/Ctax benefit as they dont take CSA deductions into account when assessing any benefit i may be entitled too


I contacted CCCS who said go bankrupt...but as I have a beneficial interest in ex marital home this may cause probs, am waiting to hear from one of there sdvisors in the morning.

I am sorely tempted to just give in to the depression and give up my job but Id go nuts stuck in the flat 24/7 and I love my job and the folk I work with.

Plus the Police recentley raided the flat above me with a sniffer dog and 9 p/men, they didnt half smash the tenants door in. They tried to evict him but the judge tapped him over the knuckles and said now now naughty boy and let him stay, much to the councils horror:mad: :mad: .
All the council could do was issue him with a warning to behave etc etc:mad: :mad:
My dear upstairs tenant reckoned it was me that informed the police on his dealing, which was wrong, the whole street complained, so now I have to put up with a right racket day and night, and him sticking his fingers up at me as if to say go on mrs complain theres f**k all u can do.

I am determined to get through this, the more they throw at me the more I shall stand up and be counted, just somedays it gets too much, then I come on here and read others troubles and thank my lucky stars that at least Im still standing ( pinched that from Eltons song:rotfl: )
Right am going to hit post it button and hope it appears on the forum
Anna
xx

DisillusionedAnna

:T :beer: :beer: :j :j :j :T :T :T :rotfl: :rotfl: yahoo finally did it
all advice needed thanks
hugs
Anna