Realisation Moment...My God How Did I Get Here???

DisillusionedAnna

Hi Everyone:hello: :hello:

I have not posted for a while, been busy working,and still am having to use libraries computers, works getting me down a bit as I seem to live there, scuse my witterings am having a bad darkish type of day not helped by the fact that for some daft reason I feel isolated .
The debt battles getting me down, in reality I know Im winning do you all have days when you get fed up?? I know that I will feel better tommorow and be back on track, do you have dips of inspiration then downs of "oh my god is it always going to be like this"???, common sense sees me through, but its on days like this when I feel like whats the point that I feel the impulse and pull to spend what I have not got.

One thing thats kind of getting me down is how my so called "friends" dont want to know you when your not buying your round of drinks and driving them around in your car anymore, and then again I have found that the people I have found supportive are people that I took for granted ( shame on me:o )

And its been a real eye opener this debt free journey, that money can be so emotive a subject it can make you laugh and make you cry and all the emotions in between but as my bestest pal Malcolm says only if you let it.

Ah Anna stop being a grump, have just turned on BBC1 and seen Marti Pellow, ye gods that man makes my pulses leap and my eyes pop out oops sorry I digress, being Scottish myself I lurvvveeeeeeee his accent ad those brown eyes and that smile:p scuse me I am listeningto him sing....ooh errrr the:( just gone to am going to blow the dust of my Wet Wet cds and have a lazy git morning and eat that last bar of chocolate in the fridge and pig out and have a ME ME morning, time I was a wee bit selfish I think.

Thanks for reading my moaning self pitying post lol :rotfl: :rotfl: just tapping this out has gotten it out my system, have a good morning, the chocs beckoning and hang the diet lol :rotfl: :EasterBun :EasterBun :EasterBun :EasterBun :EasterBun just found this smiley am away to the fridge till laters
Bye all xxxxx

Anna xx

StressedSteph

Hi Anna
Have just read your first post and I think you are incredibly brave to be coping so well.
Keep smiling hun, hope the chocolate was good.
BIG HUGS xxxx

chevalier

I think after having such beautiful weather for nearly a week, today is a bit of a downer just because it is cloudy. Enjoy the chocolate
chev

free-range

DisillusionedAnna wrote: »

One thing thats kind of getting me down is how my so called "friends" dont want to know you when your not buying your round of drinks and driving them around in your car anymore, and then again I have found that the people I have found supportive are people that I took for granted ( shame on me:o )

Hi Anna,

I just want to say that you are doing a fantastic job! Yes, it will be a long journey for a lots of us but it will be SO worth it when we get there!

As for these so called 'friends' - you really are better off without them. A true friend will stand by you through thick and thin, not just when it's you getting them in at the bar! Don't let them get you down... you are better than that and better than them!!! :A

Keep your chin up Anna x

DisillusionedAnna

Eating the choccie cheered me up today:D :EasterBun :EasterBun so yummy hi all

cunningfox_2

Hi you know you could get money from one of the weekly mags for your story.........................

The Americans coined the phrase for my feelings right now - shock and awe!

I have one question, and I'm usually against violence (and I'm sure you are too) but did you ever give that doctor the smack in his mouth he was so desperatley trying to get - cos I would of been up on some sort of charge!

Keep on keeping on!