NST A May Meditation

grandmanerd

Thursday 2nd May 2024

Don't forget to vote


One Step at a Time
Don't overwhelm yourself
by trying to take on everything at once.
Just take one step at a time
This is one of the surest ways
to make progress and to
get where you want to be in life

Be kind to yourself today
X   I messed up again today, I'm such a failure
>   Failure is a natural part of growth
X   I can't do it, I'm just not good enough
>   I am enough. I will achieve my goals
X   I should have achieved more by now
>   Life isn't a race. I'll go at my own pace 
X   No one cares about what I have to say
>   My voice matters. how I feel matters
X   I can't believe I made another mistake 
>   My mistakes don't define who I am
X   I'll never be able  to recover from this
>   In time I will heal and grow from this
(Sana Powell, M.A, LPC x @curly-therapist)

We BELIEVE What We Tell Ourselves
Tell Yourself:
Everything will work out
Things will get better
You are important
You are worthy of great things
You are lovable
The time is now
This too shall pass
You can be who you really are
The best is yet to come
You are strong
You can do this

beanielou

grandmanerd said:

Thursday 2nd May 2024

Don't forget to vote


One Step at a Time
Don't overwhelm yourself
by trying to take on everything at once.
Just take one step at a time
This is one of the surest ways
to make progress and to
get where you want to be in life

Be kind to yourself today
X   I messed up again today, I'm such a failure
>   Failure is a natural part of growth
X   I can't do it, I'm just not good enough
>   I am enough. I will achieve my goals
X   I should have achieved more by now
>   Life isn't a race. I'll go at my own pace 
X   No one cares about what I have to say
>   My voice matters. how I feel matters
X   I can't believe I made another mistake 
>   My mistakes don't define who I am
X   I'll never be able  to recover from this
>   In time I will heal and grow from this
(Sana Powell, M.A, LPC x @curly-therapist)

We BELIEVE What We Tell Ourselves
Tell Yourself:
Everything will work out
Things will get better
You are important
You are worthy of great things
You are lovable
The time is now
This too shall pass
You can be who you really are
The best is yet to come
You are strong
You can do this

@grandmanerd. Thank you. I am loving these 💜

grandmanerd

I was awake and had my pills before 6 am,  showered and washed my hair (it's fluffy now) then wrote today's positives. I looked for my 'body scan' exercise then realised it's  on my old e-mail and of course I couldn't remember which variant of my password it uses. I ate 2 nectarines (they were in my room) and had bacon and tomatoes when I came downstairs. (should have been beans on toast but the toast loaf had gone mouldy).

Went to vote (in the church for the first time, using their new 'community space' - it was only part done last time I went there for a funeral). I'd intended carrying on to little  Arseda to  check  out the ys fruit and veg but   changed course and crossed the road to go to the community shop. A £2 joining fee and I bought 6 ready meals, 4 mini 'no-pork' pies, 2 cabbages, 3 pak choi, a cucumber, a bag of mushrooms and a 'catering pack' of salad leaves, a large plain yoghurt + a free loaf (wholemeal toastie) for a grand total of £6, So that's something crossed off on my long-time to  do list.

Came home and DS3 had gone to bed so I zapped a rm, had a posh ice cream ice lolly for afters (could have got  more at the community shop) and spread out on the couch. I've  filled 3 takeaway carrier bags with assorted detritus, set off a load  of washing and packed one box for moving (and labelled and listed 3 more). Was going to move across to the book shelves when DS3 came down, so I'm now back upstairs (so grateful to take my shoes off). Will do more boxes, once my leg has had a good stretch.

As it's a spend day I may order some fruit and veg plants (found a site yesterday based at a farm in Lancashire and they've  given me 20% off for 48 hours). Just have to whittle down my 'wants' to something more realistic - I've missed out on seed sowing for brassicas and tomatoes etc but still have lots of time to set off peas and beans. Just need to work my way through. Some of the collections are the best value and as I only want one or two courgettes/ aubergines/ hot peppers etc I'll mix and match to see what suits me. 

Yesterday was also a spend day. I've been looking at duvet covers for a while (I bought new sheets, towels and pillowcases but made myself wait for duvet covers and bedspreads) and decided that I'd put the last one in my basket on Tuesday night. It was already heavily discounted but because I waited until yesterday they sent me a code for another 20% off.  

Grateful for time to rest my back and legs, feeling more organised and in control, a warm dry day but not oppressively hot.

DawnW

Are you moving @grandmanerd ?

Work today, and nothing spent, so NSD 1 for May. Tomorrow will be a spend day as I have to go to the dentist first thing before work.

Horrible weather here, a thunderstorm during the night and cold and intermittently raining today So wish it would improve - I wore my thermals to work today. I almost didn't, as it is May after all, but the thought of all day in a damp old building without heating was enough to persuade me! I shall definitely wear it again tomorrow too.

Walked down to the community centre to vote after work. OH went earlier with the dog, who was apparently making friends with the staff and the voters 

OH is cooking tonight   Only jacket potato, salad and ham, but I don't have to do it  

KajiKita

Shrewbie said:

KajiKita said:

@Shrewbie, I have bought a copy of TAW but I am really struggling to see how to do the daily writing practice as I already get up at 5.30am for work etc and only get 15 minutes free time each morning (around getting up, feeding cats etc. and commute). I’m not sure I could cope with getting up at 5am … 😭 (I’d shift my sleep pattern but am restricted by what time OH would be willing to go to bed - he already stays up later than I can really cope with ….) 

Any thoughts on this at all, as I gather you’ve done TAW a few times already? 

KK

Hi KajiKita! This is the first time I'm properly doing TAW, I started around a year ago but I had the audio book on a free trial and when the trial ran out I stopped  I'm 3 weeks in at the moment! Personally I would say write whatever you can in the morning, even if it's just a paragraph, whatever fits into your routine. I am sure even 10-15 mins would be enough to kick start the habit, then if you have more time at the weekends you could aim to write more then? perhaps @ditty1234 has some further insight xx

Thanks Shrewbie - if you think the limited time I will have will still make a difference / be worth doing, I will give it a try 😊

KK

lcc86

Evening turtles, its been a long day here! Woke up during the night because of the rain, I actually find it quite relaxing to listen to a proper downpour. 

Got out for a walk first thing and went into the local church to vote on my way. Had a quick online meeting and then had to drive to Bristol. Made sure I brought coffee and lunch with me. The journey home was dire, took about 4 hours altogether, I did stop off for a coffee but that was it. I also had to top up with petrol before the journey home so spent there too. I usually spend much more when I do that journey so at least I didn't need to today. I also used my blue light card to get a discount for the coffee.

Got a letter for a gastroscopy in a few weeks, it's come through quite quickly so can't complain although not looking forward to it. 

OH is out with friends tonight so I'm curled up on the sofa with my book, where I plan to stay until bedtime.

apple_muncher

We had an amazing thunder and lightningning show coupled with heavy downpours in the middle of the night - I know this cos I was up with pip from 2.30 for about 3 hours: excessive coughing leading to retching and struggling to breathe. We called 111 and got a call back but decided not to go to A+E. Needless to say, Pip didn't go to school today! I let him sleep until midday.

Today I am grateful for the NHS, for Pip taking it easy, for going to the gym while he slept, for having the right to vote, for dh stripping and changing pip's bed.

Shrewbie

A lovely day. Had a lazy morning, did my morning pages and a grammar point in Spanish then messed around on utoob. Did 2 laps of the running track, then took the dog to the park and read a lovely short story.... it was cold but sunny. In the evening I went for a meal at an ethiopian restaurant with my ex. I paid as it's his 40th in a couple of weeks but it was absolutely delicious and good value for money so I think well spent. So I'm over budget for the first time in about a month (I blame the bank hols) but I will recoup it next week by having a super frugal week... that's the idea anyway. 

Grateful for the amazing person my ex is and the fact we can be friends, although I have recognised our relationship isn't romantic, it is no less special for not being so. Night turtles x  

beanielou

@grandmanerd Fantastic bargains at your community shop.  Wish we had one.

Glad that you had a good day @Shrewbie.

I am continuing with charity paperwork shredding. There is a LOT.  I was the last chair before we closed due to funding cuts.

grandmanerd

DawnW said:

Are you moving @grandmanerd ?

Work today, and nothing spent, so NSD 1 for May. Tomorrow will be a spend day as I have to go to the dentist first thing before work.

Horrible weather here, a thunderstorm during the night and cold and intermittently raining today So wish it would improve - I wore my thermals to work today. I almost didn't, as it is May after all, but the thought of all day in a damp old building without heating was enough to persuade me! I shall definitely wear it again tomorrow too.

Walked down to the community centre to vote after work. OH went earlier with the dog, who was apparently making friends with the staff and the voters 

OH is cooking tonight   Only jacket potato, salad and ham, but I don't have to do it  

I wrote out a plan last week but haven't posted it yet. I've worked out that any books I've recently read (so won't want to re-read for a few months) could be packed. If I can get the cleaning at grandma's house sorted and the painting (thinking I may ask my younger niece - she does care work so is only on minimum wage). The front bedroom at grandma's has 3 wardrobes and a floor to ceiling cupboard with shelves in  a large alcove. My plan is to start moving things into that cupboard (and the wardrobes as soon as it's usable). So craft supplies other than those I need for current wips, most  of the books (re-reading some of my favourite series atm - they can be packed into boxes as I finish), winter clothes, bedding (already packed the 2 bedspreads and some sheets straight off the clean washing pile - as long as I have 3 sheets for using I will manage). Now that  the records have gone I can combine 2 pieces of furniture (set of shelves will go on top of a 'coffee table') to give me more floor space and filled boxes can go on there and on the cube shelves. Then when it gets to actual  moving, it will mainly be the furniture items.

My niece's  'put everything on hold until her dad is better' is not working for me. Last August i was ready to wind up my mum's estate - just had a couple of things to do, including transferring the house from mum's name to mine and my brother's. Then he dropped the 'want to sell it' bombshell and I've been dealing with the fallout ever since. I think the cleaning needs doing because the house is so dusty (myself and DS3 start sneezing whenever we're there) and the garden needs tackling because I need to see if the !!!!!! willow roots have gone through the flagstones and whether there's actual  physical damage to the house foundations/ drains etc. The sooner that's sorted the better because everything will start growing madly right now. 

If you haven't been reading along recently, I was going to buy out my brother's half of the house (it will actually be a deed of variation on the estate which is a lot quicker and cheaper that a sale) and then move DS3 and his Beloved there (buying or renting from me). In the middle of last  month, I had the brainwave that rather than trying to get DS3 to be proactive about mortgages, packing, sorting the house etc, It was far simpler to organise myself, pack  my things and move there myself, taking only the things I wanted to.