The Diary Of Onebrokelady Aged 60 And A Half

Onebrokelady

Willowtree222 said:

Sorry about the cat and the difficulties you are having. 

Glad you can at least have your appointment although not sure why it had to be checked. 

X

She needed to make sure the service was covered because we are very short staffed at the moment in the HCA team, there’s two off short term sick, ones just gone on long term sick with stress and someone else is on holiday that week. 

Onebrokelady

Yay my colleague was there when I got to work 😀 we actually had quite a nice day as well which was a relief after Wednesday. I didn’t feel too good all day and was quite wheezy for most of it but I was able to sit down quite a lot so that helped, what didn’t help was some parents strong perfumes and whatever they used for washing powder as it really irritates my chest. Leaving work to get the bus was a pain as well, I left work at 5pm and got home at 6.20 pm which is ridiculous. I had to jump into a hot shower when I got back because it was freezing and chucking it down while I was waiting for my bus.

I’m not planning on going anywhere tomorrow but DD2 is supposed to be coming over to see the cat so who knows what will happen 😀 I suspect the weather is going to be horrible so we won’t go anywhere. 

I also have an overwhelming urge to get out and make a start on tidying up my garden but in reality it’s too cold 🥶. There’s some rubbish I can get grid of and I could tidy the patio a bit but I will see how I feel and of course it depends on the weather. I should also be doing my bedroom so maybe the gardening is a displacement activity because I don’t want to do the bedroom 😀 I will dither about it and end up doing neither. I’m really looking forward to sitting out in the garden this year when the weather warms up and I intend to make the most of it. I think now my noisy neighbour has gone it will be more pleasant this year, I have noticed there’s no sweet wrappers / crisp packets thrown out on the path that leads to the houses since they have been gone, she was adamant that it wasn’t her kids but I stood and watched them just throw their rubbish on the ground 😡 some other poor person has to put up with them now though. 

milann

It makes such a difference to have nice neighbours…hope we get a nice warm summer with not too many very hot or very wet days 🤞I want to make the most f our garden this year too.
Hope you come to the right decision for the cat. 

Onebrokelady

So plans changed on Saturday. DD2 came over to see the cat and agreed with me that the kindest thing would be to say goodbye but the only problem was she was now not going to be off on a Saturday for two weeks and she wanted to be there so she phoned the vets to see if they could come out that day and they couldn’t but they pointed us in the direction of a vet who offers a home euthanasia service so we called her and she was able to come out. I must say if I ever have another pet I will use this service because she was so lovely and spent lots of time with us before and after. She also liaised with a local pet crematorium place so he could be cremated locally and she took him to them for us. It made what was a horrible thing such a calm peaceful experience. His ashes will be delivered back to our local vet who we normally use as they work closely together. I then went to sat at DD2s for the night because we were both very upset and I didnt want to sit in my house with no cat 😟 I came home on Sunday morning and the house just feels wrong now, I’m not sure I will get used to it but will have to wait and see. I felt really sad because Dd said this should be the last awful thing that happens this year but she still doesn’t know about my diagnosis yet 😟 I’m not telling her until I know for sure what’s going on.

I sat here last night and had a good cry about everything not just the cat just everything that’s happened and I do feel a bit better today. I am going to miss him so much though because he was a real cuddle buddy and spent every night draped around my shoulders fast asleep. He was an unusually cuddly cat and would let you hold him in your arms like a baby where he would fall asleep. He also used to come and lay on my tummy if I fell asleep on the settee so that will be strange as well now and he was very vocal so the house is very quiet 😟 I’ve packed all his bits away and put them in the shed for now.

I haven’t done much today just a load of washing. I was going to go shopping but I’m going out tomorrow to see my mum so thought I would combine the trip. It’s freezing and windy here today so I didn’t really fancy going far. I’ve been out and let the chicken out and that’s it. I do need to strip my bed and put fresh bedding on so will do that later.

Im seeing Mum tomorrow and going shopping then on Wednesday I’m working and have my occy health appointment.

dawnybabes

Aww I’m so sorry.  We had our last dog pts at home and it was so much better as ddog wasn’t stressed out by the vets and we could take our time. 

A good cry can be so cathartic and much needed.

we lost our dcat 6 months ago and we are just now looking for a pair of kittens.  We’ve a dog but the house needs cuddly cats too. 

foxgloves

Oh that is just such a sad thing to do, @Onebrokelady - It doesn't matter how long I'm a cat owner, I just never find saying goodbye to them gets any easier. It does sound as though having a vet come to do the deed at home is a lot more peaceful. I've felt with all our past cats that it's such a shame their final journey is to the one place they absolutely hate going & find stressful. I think I will consider having it done at home next time it becomes necessary. Yes, you have had a rotten year for sure & I'm sending my sympathies. 
Take care now,
F x

Cherryfudge

I'm so sorry, though I know that will have been the kindest choice for him. I remember my mum saying how good the vet was who came when one of her cats had to be pts. The whole experience reduced the stress on the cat such a lot and was so quick. But it's a big adjustment for you and your dd. Sending hugs.

Sun_Addict

So sorry you had to say goodbye to your lovely cat. Even though you knew it was imminent it's still sad all the same. What a rotten time you're having at the moment, it just seems to be one thing after another for you. You're doing the right thing not saying anything to DD about your diagnosis until you know what's what. I really hope things start to take a turn for the better very soon. Take care x

jwil

So sorry about the cat xx

daisy_1571

sorry about darling puss, so very hard but done with the highest amount of love

Dxxx