Buying a little piece of Middle England; Manifesting my way to mortgage free.

debtfreewannabe321

Afternoon! Work is done. If you can call sitting around pretending to look busy, work ...🤔 We did courses I've done a hundred times 🥱 not even a refresher for me as I just did them all again with the fostering process 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣. So I really was bored. I'm so fidgety, we had a talk on ADHD. I diagnosed myself mid way through 😉 I ticked every box as he went through it... If only teachers had been aware of different learning styles/ personalities and ACEs when we were kids eh. Oh how some of us could have thrived ...that was my take away from the day.

I will need to do the same again on Thursday 🙈.
However I have done some extra hours today and yesterday so Fri I am just doing a few hours and I'm done. No one is even ticking us in and out honestly if I was a little less honest I could just say I was there and working and no one would even know 🙈. But I'm too honest (I annoy myself with that).

So, I got the refund for the cooker 🥳🙌🏻 can I get a hallelujah!! Woop! 🥳 I paid the new cooker off, all other small bills on the CC which I already had money for anyway and the cc is clear 🤩 yay! Now to keep it that way!
Only the catalogue left I think 🧐 🤔. 
I'm so relieved I really thought I wasn't going to get the money back at one point.

I had a message last night from the ex that DS has had blood tests come back abnormal and a review about it today. He didn't say much more, but years of mental abuse from him has sent me into all the places and ways he doesn't say anything and I was putting in things he could be implying with this...I have stopped myself. I was aware of what I was doing and could feel myself spiralling into self blame and have stopped it in its tracks. I feel quite proud of myself for that recognition. I will wait to see what the Dr says before resuming any self blame for anything. From what I g00gled it sounded like vit D deficiency which oddly enough ds1 had at exactly the same age. The Dr asked me, does he game a lot? Yes. Does he draw his curtains whilst doing so and blocking out the light? Yes. And that was what was causing it. I'm hoping it is just something like this rather than something serious. But honestly that man cannot leave me alone. He's always poking. And prodding and reminding me he's there. DP said to block him. So has a friend actually 🤔. But I can't. Not whilst DS is there. 
He refused to give me bank details for himself so I'm not sure how I'm supposed to pay him his maintenance. 

Right off to watch some trashy TV for a while before cooking dinner. Day off tomorrow and DD and I have a girly trip to the cinema booked and perhaps a little mooch around some shops 🙂.

KajiKita

Hallelujah and may the trumpets on high resound to your cooker refund!! 👏😊🎊🥳🎉🤩 What a relief 😊 … and well done for immediately clearing the CC. 

Your Ex is a prawn of the first order! What on earth does he think you will do with his bank details apart from pay him …?! 😂😂😂😂🙄 Bonkers-nuts … 😊🤷‍♀️

You get an 🤩Awesome🤩 for recognising the Ex’s prodding and pulling back your response. You *should* be very proud of yourself! ❤️

Tomorrow sounds like a lovely plan 😊

KK

debtfreewannabe321

KajiKita said:

Hallelujah and may the trumpets on high resound to your cooker refund!! 👏😊🎊🥳🎉🤩 What a relief 😊 … and well done for immediately clearing the CC. 

Your Ex is a prawn of the first order! What on earth does he think you will do with his bank details apart from pay him …?! 😂😂😂😂🙄 Bonkers-nuts … 😊🤷‍♀️

You get an 🤩Awesome🤩 for recognising the Ex’s prodding and pulling back your response. You *should* be very proud of yourself! ❤️

Tomorrow sounds like a lovely plan 😊

KK

I'm still woop whooping 🤣😁🙌🏻🥳

debtfreewannabe321

Dinner was sausage and mash leftovers for DD she was utterly thrilled with this and told us no more sausages 🙈 unbeknownst to us she was having sausage sandwiches for her break at work on sat and sun then we fed it to her Sunday and also today 🤣🙈
DP and I ate curry leftovers. I offered them to DD but she said they stained her braces and begrudgingly took the sausage and mash 🙈🥳.

Fridge is looking a bit better now and I can see what is what. It was groaning a bit too much before and although some like their like this I don't as I get things lost and then end up throwing it away (we've a big larder type fridge that is taller than me). 

No news on DS so I'm going to assume it wasn't awful because ex would have been straight on the phone surely to tell me how I've neglected my DS...? 🤔 Anyway for now I'm going to believe no news is good (enough) news. 

debtfreewannabe321

Oh I forgot to say 🙈 sorry brain is utterly useless lately....at work we were asked to reflect on our strengths rather than weaknesses as is what most of us usually do. And we were asked to message a loved one or friend who'd message us back within the session with a list of three strengths they see about us. DP was on a call 😆 he's always on a call. But DD messaged me back! She said kindness, friendliness and adaptability 🥰. And I'd encourage anyone to look at their strengths rather than their weaknesses - to which we can probably all fill an A4 side on all the things we perceive ourselves to do wrong..I really struggled with the strengths (which is why they got us to ask someone else!) 

Then we were asked to list our community...those we turn to in tough times for advice, or a cry, or when we need a pick me up etc, DP was my number 1, followed by three RL friends and whilst everyone was listing family members I listed my online community...and that is all of the lovely people on here who've picked me up when I'm struggling and offered good advice and just a friendly ear. 🥰 So thank you all. 
It did make me so grateful for starting up on here again because without this diary I probably wouldn't have an outlet as mum, sis, DS have all one by one cut me off. Thank you 😁♥️.

Right really off now....😆

beanielou

You need to let the child support people about ex not giving you his bank details so you can’t pay him. 

Great news on the cooker refund. 

skint_spice

Great news on refund🎉🎉🎉

Jessy103

Woohoo for refund and what a lovely positive exercise with the training x

If you ever feel like letting me have horrible ex's address, I'll quite happily go and give him a swift kick to the man bits (of course we would never condone violence, obviously 🤣)

debtfreewannabe321

beanielou said:

You need to let the child support people about ex not giving you his bank details so you can’t pay him. 

Great news on the cooker refund. 

Oh I have already! I've asked him outright twice and he just ignores the question or states something silly like just take it off what I owe you each month, which I can't if they are doing the collection payments. Honestly talking to him and understanding his garble is a full time job.

debtfreewannabe321

Jessy103 said:

Woohoo for refund and what a lovely positive exercise with the training x

If you ever feel like letting me have horrible ex's address, I'll quite happily go and give him a swift kick to the man bits (of course we would never condone violence, obviously 🤣)

That's the very least of what he deserves 😁 I'd gladly let you have first kick!