An in-between phase

PennysIntoPounds

Thank you @beanielou.
I think I'm having extra trouble processing it as he was the healthiest, fittest, most chilled person anyone ever knew. It's just absolute madness to have outlived him. It's madness that anyone has outlived him. My emotions feel like a little child going 'but I don't understand'.
There wasn't even any cancer of any type in his family at all so I can't even go 'well these genetic predispositions lurk and its a reminder to make the most of your time and enjoy it', I just don't understand

beanielou

PennysIntoPounds said:

Thank you @beanielou.
I think I'm having extra trouble processing it as he was the healthiest, fittest, most chilled person anyone ever knew. It's just absolute madness to have outlived him. It's madness that anyone has outlived him. My emotions feel like a little child going 'but I don't understand'.
There wasn't even any cancer of any type in his family at all so I can't even go 'well these genetic predispositions lurk and its a reminder to make the most of your time and enjoy it', I just don't understand

I get this  I really do.  I had a family member die in their early forties.  He was just a bit older than me.  He was the healthy fit one who did all sorts of activies.  One moment he was here & then just gone just like that.
That side of the family which was small gone within a few years.  Anyway, I hear you.

KajiKita

I don’t have any wise words but sending hugs and Nil Carborundum Illegitimus! about the poxy broker … 🙄

KK

foxgloves

I get it too, PiP. One of my two very best friends died suddenly a few years ago. She was 53 - she was very fit, didn't drink much, never smoked or did drugs, walked everywhere, went to the gym twice a week & didn't have any degenerative illnesses. It makes it a lot harder to come to terms with the loss when, as you say, the understanding of the situation is missing.
F x

Watty1

I hear you.    The unexplained sudden deaths are so hard to process.  

PennysIntoPounds

Thank you my dear chums. I'm sorry for everyone else's losses too. 
Good thing I'm not particularly fit and healthy, seems to be very bad for you.
My brain was making up sad songs in my dreams so hopefully a bit of lamenting has helped the mourning process.

Our friends are away looking after their friends house so we're going to go and stay at theirs for a couple of nights to have a mini holiday (in South London). Keeping an eye on emails in case any last minute pick-ups needed on the client job then Mr PIP will drive us over this afternoon. 
Then some beers at one of our favourite pubs then a nice Italian in one of our favourite restaurants.
There are things to enjoy and achieve so I'd better bloody go and enjoy and achieve them whether I like it or not!

doingitanyway

IMHO it isn't understandable. It is entirely nonsensical and random...