Progress not Perfection

doingitanyway

I agree with @Buffythedebtslayer. 
It was accidents that I found the hardest as a carer. 
You are doing so well to keep doing the other things that give you pleasure too.

Sun_Addict

I really can’t get motivated this morning. Mr SA is sat with the dog on his knee waiting for the rain to ease so we can take her out. 

I’ve been invited to attend a local community group meeting this afternoon. I haven’t told Mr SA yet. It’s in a local cafe and he’ll only come down to stare in the window if he knows where I am. He does this when I go to the hairdressers and it’s really annoying. I feel so trapped sometimes like I can’t get away from him unless it’s to go to work. 

Cherryfudge

I find rain a demotivator in itself, but at least you have the seeds planted and the garden is getting watered. Sometimes you just need a down day: is there a book you want to read?

I hope you can get your time away from Mr SA.

enthusiasticsaver

Can't you just say you are going out to meet friends and not tell him where?  I would get frustrated too and feel trapped and claustrophobic. 

Sun_Addict

enthusiasticsaver said:

Can't you just say you are going out to meet friends and not tell him where?  I would get frustrated too and feel trapped and claustrophobic. 

He knows I don’t have any local friends but I’m just going to say I’m going to a meeting to do with the park but be vague about where it is. If it’s still raining he won’t come out looking for me thankfully. 

We took the dog for a run on the park, it was drizzling but not too bad. I’m just about to make carrot, coriander and butter bean soup for work lunches. 

I didn’t do very well with surveys last week and was unable to cash out my target £10 🙁 Hopefully this week will be better. 

Mr SA has gone back to bed and DD is at work so it’s lovely and peaceful at the moment - apart from the radio that is 😆

I’ll have to re-watch last night’s concert as I fell asleep half way through. No point me even attempting to watch anything that goes on beyond 9pm. 

Sun_Addict

In the end I just said I was going to the local shops. I shouldn’t have to justify my every move to him. I met with the group in the cafe and had a coffee. The cafe was packed and it was boiling hot in there. It was nice to get a break and chat to some different people. 

I’ve had a few surveys come through so on course to hit my target this week. I’ve booked in to have my nails done on Saturday so am going to treat myself out of survey earnings. 

Humdinger1

Sending love @Sun_Addict.  Can you get any regular help with OH? I know he objects but where will you both be if you collapse under the strain? It wouldn't be optional then.  10 years of this is a hell of a stretch.   Please forgive me if I'm speaking out of turn Humdinger xx 

Sunshine_girl2

Glad to hear you got a change of scenery and a new conversation. 

Cherryfudge

I'm glad you got out and had your coffee and people to talk to. 

enthusiasticsaver

I am glad you had a change of scenery and a chance to meet up with some people.  Nurturing some local friendships might help you cope with the demands on you.