Debt and Caring

WelshmansDaughter

Today has turned into one of my least favourite types of day: The Interim Day. I'm not that sick but tiredness has gotten to me and I tried to have a nap this afternoon. Not entirely sure I slept but I was conscious that I had promised to give Heavy a lift at 3ish so I got up. It was a bit of motorway driving on the way back which has given me a new metaphor for how my brain works. It was heavy rain most of the way back so I had to focus on the changed driving conditions: I took note of the differences like poor visibility of road markings and cars due to road spray, I slowed down and put my lights on. Then as I was approaching home the rain disappeared, the road was dry and the sun shining (ish). Still on the same road, in the same car. Different mental vibe. 
I find that when I have a visual to explain abstract concepts it helps
Interim Days are generally spent in a state of light torment. I keep trying to convince myself that I can keep on going with whatever mental train has left the track. Right now it is decorating. I really want to be moving stuff around but I have to hoover, clean skirting boards and under a radiator. So no. So I think I can draw. Because that requires no mental effort <rolls eyes at self>. Eventually I accept that nothing more than videos is going to happen today. 
Not an NSD as it is Saturday and I get the papers today. And pancakes to alleviate my misery. 

Cherryfudge

It's amazing what a difference a bit of sunshine makes. I like your metaphor: when it's miserable weather you have to pay more attention and give yourself more help than when it's all okay, is that right?

I hope the lurgy doesn't develop. Get some rest when you can.

WelshmansDaughter

I may have moved some stuff. Maybe because the glare on my laptop finally got too annoying.
It's not so much that I think that the weather is miserable. I don't have emotional connections to weather. It's more that there is more externally to pay attention to so less attention goes to the internal.

WelshmansDaughter

I am not a good patient. So far I have been grumpy, undercaffeinated, sound overloaded and self pitying. 
I managed to get dad out for a short walk in the wheelchair this morning. Other than that I have been in bed. Or trying to do stuff and then going back to bed. Only to be tormented by the fete going on behind the house. 
I am a miserable old lady today.

savingholmes

Sorry you're not well. Hope you feel better soon.

On the Feng Shui - do you almost need your storage built into or under your bed so you don't have to look at it... I found when I had tall cupboard I found them overbearing too - even though visually I thought they were very smart - when I removed them the room felt so much better. 

I think your road and weather analogy is similar to what I heard someone call emotional bandwidth. Sometimes I have more bandwidth to deal with others or tasks that require concentrations and sometimes I don't. I have to learn to go with the flow. I'm still learning. 

WelshmansDaughter

A short nap before dad woke last night has done the trick for my mood. Sadly it has not banished the cough. Still plotting revenge on Child 1 who has now apparently passed it on to sisters. Cannot decide if this means it is safe to go to work tomorrow or if I should avoid the House of Plague.
Emotional bandwidth sounds interesting I must look it up. 
I was thinking along similar lines but perhaps putting storage around the bed rather than under it. I do not have a bed frame and my mattress (and pillow extravaganza) reside on the floor. I have put it in what I think is the recommended place (who knows) where I can see the door but am not in line with it directly. Surprisingly this has made a difference. 
Perhaps I can draw a floor plan and you all can point out what I have not yet considered 

WelshmansDaughter

Dad's new chair has been delivered an hour and a half early AND on a bank holiday. Ireland has lost the run of itself. I now have several more projects in mind as a result. 
The house has just got stuff piles everywhere.

savingholmes

Good luck with the organising.

WelshmansDaughter

It turns out that there was a reason that I didn't take painkillers. They make me high as a kite. Either that or I'm constantly in pain and taking painkillers restores natural energy levels? 
Whatever,  this morning's breakfast is homemade pancakes with mango and a side of paracetamol. And a strepsil for good measure. I've gone a bit manflu really time to get over myself. 
I did find teacup out in the garden at 8am though so maybe there is something in the air. 
Yesterday:
Sorted dad's chair
Phoned OT
Looked after dad
Went for a walk
Got top up shop (dog food)
Made heavy lunch
Did measurements using bits of wood
Polyfilla'd bits in wall
Started turning nightdress into pjs
Comfort for heavy (attempt)
Made dad dinner
Took some kitchen measurements 
Continued making wild flower bed
Started hugulkulter bed
Cut down mutant veg plant (leaf beet?)
Made pancake batter for morning

I feel like I did more yesterday and am frustrated cos I can't remember it.

Just waiting to hear back from work to see if am going in today. Otherwise my to do list for today is pretty much exactly the same as yesterday 

WelshmansDaughter

The trouble with being sick is that you have all this lying down time and absolutely no focus or concentration to do anything.
This whole week has forced me out of my head and into a body that leaks, spasms and does unmentionable things. 
I nearly choked on my own mucus this morning. 
Randomly occurred to me last night that I should be worried about my house insurance expiring. Checked this morning to find that January Me paid for 6 months of insurance so that is now July's issue. I love January Me.