The Best View Comes After the Hardest Climb.

Buffythedebtslayer

The thing that I was afraid of happening happened. Migraine got worse, so when I went out to the rabbits I brought in a bag of hay for the indoor furries. It is a big bag. I put it on the dog crate but last night despite wondering why the kitchen smelt of hay I couldn't find it. It is a big bag......bin liner size. Stinks of hay......... couldn't find it. On the dog crate. In front of me! 

Any how when I went to bed I was all over the place, woke up about 5 for a wee and cos the guinea pigs hear me (they are noisy!) I fed them, I think somewhere in the pain I thought I was ok to go back to sleep  as the animals were ok and slept in till 9. This meant mum didn't get her pain killers  on time and is now in pain. It really brought it home to me how much she needs me. 
That was highly depressing. Then Sainsburys came and everything has been a bit of a rush. I still feel rough, but not out of it any more. The dogs know something is wrong, they haven't left me alone. 

Plan for today is washing and a stern look at the conservatory. It is going to rain on and off so the garden is out. I really need to go to the tip.... but ugh frankly! 

efes_shareholder

Buffythedebtslayer said:

The thing that I was afraid of happening happened. Migraine got worse, so when I went out to the rabbits I brought in a bag of hay for the indoor furries. It is a big bag. I put it on the dog crate but last night despite wondering why the kitchen smelt of hay I couldn't find it. It is a big bag......bin liner size. Stinks of hay......... couldn't find it. On the dog crate. In front of me! 

Any how when I went to bed I was all over the place, woke up about 5 for a wee and cos the guinea pigs hear me (they are noisy!) I fed them, I think somewhere in the pain I thought I was ok to go back to sleep  as the animals were ok and slept in till 9. This meant mum didn't get her pain killers  on time and is now in pain. It really brought it home to me how much she needs me. 
That was highly depressing. Then Sainsburys came and everything has been a bit of a rush. I still feel rough, but not out of it any more. The dogs know something is wrong, they haven't left me alone. 

Plan for today is washing and a stern look at the conservatory. It is going to rain on and off so the garden is out. I really need to go to the tip.... but ugh frankly! 

Give yourself any respite you can get whilst your feeling washed out , the jobs can wait.

I overslept until 10 recently after a bad nights sleep , mum has her morphine at 7am , it was a work day and I only woke up because I heard the carers voice - I felt terrible but mum was fine and work thankfully didnt notice , if they did I was just going to have to confess to having a bad night 

Whilst your feeling rough , I suggest you rest where you can and leave things until such time how you feel improves 

milann

Whilst you’re recovering just do the absolute essentials and rest in between. It’ll take you longer to recover if you push yourself too hard 👍

Buffythedebtslayer

Not much happened yesterday. The oversleeping really messed up my day. I managed my steps, I started emptying the conservatory. I want it arranged one way but Mum has an idea about the dining table. I don't know if I can move that alone tho. I feel like it doesn't fit through the doors without lifting it up at an angle and I definitely can't do that alone. When my parents first lived here it was in the conservatory and it was moved cos it is was too hot or cold out there. I get what mum wants - the living room is fairly cramped but it will just make the conservatory cramped instead. I will already have to move a bookshelf (small) and a cupboard (medium sized) to free up space and organise the spare room. 

I used to love decluttering. Gave me such a buzz but it is now so depressing. I seem to spend my life thinking about how to make this house "work" and I never get a good run at it without having to do something for mum or have the regular stuff to do which I know is the same for everyone. Even the idea that I am going out tonight is annoying me.  I think I am used to doing it when I lived alone, that was when I was most successful at it, being totally free to leave it and go out or pull an all nighter just because I wanted to wake up in a clean house. 

Now I just think it is pointless if I am honest. I mean how many times have I done it. Equally tho my holiday is nearly over and it is horrible thinking about work again. Absolutely horrible. Especially with the house the way it is. 

I don't know what to do really. 
I should do my returns, buy bread and hay(!) 

I am really worried about what to do with the rabbits. Really worried. The smallest bun is so aggressive and it is really unpleasant looking after her, I literally have to throw food at her. Last night I thought she was stuck in the bars and so I moved the litter tray and she freaked and went for me. Scared me quite a bit and drew blood. She is really stressed and nervous. Also the rescue people haven't got back to me - totally understandable, I know they are over run. Meanwhile my pair are "territory" pooing all over the enclosure and the cleaning up is mental. 

I might attempt a soft boiled egg for breakfast if Mum ever comes downstairs. I should have put some washing on.... 

Oh dear. XXX 

milann

The rabbit sounds quite aggressive…..watch yourself. You don’t want to end up with a nasty bite as they can become infected so easily.
Can you drag one of your friends in to help move the table. Is the table used if not I’m guessing that mum wouldn’t agree to letting it go.

Buffythedebtslayer

milann said:

The rabbit sounds quite aggressive…..watch yourself. You don’t want to end up with a nasty bite as they can become infected so easily.
Can you drag one of your friends in to help move the table. Is the table used if not I’m guessing that mum wouldn’t agree to letting it go.

This is the thing about the table - we use it loads in the living room. And with some decluttering we could have a much better room.... 

The rabbit is not yet spayed and I am hoping that is the cause of the aggressive behaviour. Got to wait two more months....so do I move her outside, give up bonding her with my house bun and bond her with my pair instead(post spay). She just doesn't strike me as an indoor rabbit. 

milann

If it’s works in the living room makes sense to keep it there. Would it be worth emptying as much of the living room as you can to declutter and let your mum see a lovely room without the clutter…..then once it’s out of the room working with her to decide what happens to the excess……probably not……you seem to have a good plan already. It’s hard to come up with ideas to help when we don’t know the layout of the rooms. 

Buffythedebtslayer

milann said:

If it’s works in the living room makes sense to keep it there. Would it be worth emptying as much of the living room as you can to declutter and let your mum see a lovely room without the clutter…..then once it’s out of the room working with her to decide what happens to the excess……probably not……you seem to have a good plan already. It’s hard to come up with ideas to help when we don’t know the layout of the rooms. 

I think if I swap the sofa and the tv over I could turn the table round and it would fit better. I might do that. See what mum thinks. There is no benefit to moving it. Basically imagine an overfilled living room with one too many pieces of furniture. 

Buffythedebtslayer

Went out to check the rabbits after  down pour and their litter tray was flooded, my boy rabbit doesn't like the rain, was happy to have me feed him through the bars. 

I hate this weather. So unpredictable. 

I had better get on with something. Really do not want to!! 

Buffythedebtslayer

Tried to move furniture... 

Went for a walk, bought bread. Came back, had lunch and am now watching Silent Witness............Jack is improving in this episode......

in a bit will tidy up in the loosest sense of the word and then get ready to go out. I don't feel great. Oddly shakey...