The Best Is Yet To Come

slm6002

Thank you to you all. I haven't had any therapy to help, but realise that it may be something to look into. Now that he has split with the other woman he seems to be hanging around here a lot more. It wasn't until a ladies refuge came into work and talked about what they do, that I realised that he had mentally abused me for most of our marriage. Withholding / controlling the money for the household even though I was the one trying to pay the bills with the little money I did have, telling me I couldn't go out, not letting me stay friends with people and making everything my fault, even if I was sure it wasn't, he would still make me believe him. I was put down so much that I eventually believed that I was not worthy of anything. Not a nice person, and me and the kids are so much better now. I think it is the fact he was walking around as if nothing was wrong and look at how fantastic a person he is. His friends just believe it all and I feel like shouting at them that this is the not the real him. Anyway one day I hope that he will be found out.

Anyway I am feeling ok now and had a busy but productive day yesterday. Food shopping completed, took DS for his jab at the same time collecting everyone's prescriptions, met with a friend, took DD2 to the gym, did some washing and clearing up. I didn't really stop. Then DD1 came in demanding I go get her cheese for dinner as my cheese was not the right kind, it got my back up. I refused and she did not like it so stropped off to her room. When she was with BF everything he did revolved around her and now she is expecting it from friends and family. That is not working out too well for her. Friends are cancelling on her for the same reasons I am expecting. I feel she may realise soon what she has given up.

We are still waiting to hear if an offer will be made and I am really hoping that it will as there is one of the houses that we have considered in the right village that has yet again reduced its asking price. There is a small possibility that we would be able to move mortgage free too, but because of their low price I fear it will not hang around much longer. I am going to contact my agent to see if they can speak to the couple and get an answer out of them either way.

Today there is nothing in the diary other than DD1 going shopping with her friend, and DS working. I plan to potter around the house and make it look a little less messy.