5 months to emerge as a butterfly

beanielou

I don't have the energy!

benbenandme

Buffythedebtslayer said:

Oh MY GOD. Where do you find these men?? 

I live in a desert! 

No men, no fun no nothing!!! 

Am so jealous!  

Tinder   

benbenandme

So todays update

I went for a coffee with the fitness instructor guy this morning - a nice guy but not my type at all. He just seemed old, even though he was a year younger than me. Very nice manners but just no spark there. He did kiss and hug me when he left which was not welcome, particularly in Covid times. 

But then, out of the blue, I had a message saying hello from a guy I met last summer before I met Andy - this was my post about him last August ... So yesterday I met up with a guy I've been chatting with and let's just say a very nice time was had by all  Huge confidence boost for me, he's 10 years younger than me and without doubt the hottest guy I've ever had  Hopefully I'll see him again but who knows, but whatever, he's made me feel sooo much better about myself, got me out of my comfort zone and is another step to forgetting all about Mr S  

I hadn't heard from him since around the end of January, I had messaged him on social media weeks ago but not heard anything, then today he suddenly pops up to say hello Hopefully that could be someone to revisit at some point  

In other news today is the last day of the Easter holidays and I have hit my target of walking 200 miles during the holidays I had a good walking day today, I did 10 miles before 9.30 this morning down the beach, then walked some more when I met the fitness instructor, then after lunch met another old friend for a walk in the forest, so today I have clocked up nearly 21 miles

I've had my bath, done the ironing, the house is all nice and tidy and clean, I've roasted a chicken and some veg ready for lunch tomorrow, so I'm feeling quite organised and ready to go back.

benbenandme

Today went well at work, tonight ds is at work so I have been for a walk, tidied up the kitchen, had my bath and am going to have an early night with the laptop. Not in the mood to watch the football tonight, utterly fed up with all the Super League nonsense

benbenandme

I hadn't heard from him since around the end of January, I had messaged him on social media weeks ago but not heard anything, then today he suddenly up to say hello  Hopefully that could be someone to revisit at some point  

Well, that revisiting happened sooner than expected - he messaged me this morning asking if I wanted to go round tonight ... a very nice evening indeed   

efes_shareholder

benbenandme said:

I hadn't heard from him since around the end of January, I had messaged him on social media weeks ago but not heard anything, then today he suddenly up to say hello  Hopefully that could be someone to revisit at some point  

Well, that revisiting happened sooner than expected - he messaged me this morning asking if I wanted to go round tonight ... a very nice evening indeed   

Careful of that kind of behaviour.......... screams of just after a bootie call and out of options which is obviously fine if your happy with that but not so much fun if you dont want to be just a number he can call on when he is in need

benbenandme

Yep, we had a chat the first time I met him -   we both know the score, it is only ever going to be a bit of fun, we're both fine with that

benbenandme

£80 csa arrears arrived today so that has been swept off to the boiler fund
Tonight I've watched my football ( we won!), done a workout, eaten some soup, had a shower and am in bed now for a nice early night

Buffythedebtslayer

I just love your life Benben  

What fun  

benbenandme

Buffy right now I love my life too, it's not very often I say that   I was chatting to my best mate about it and other than ds' Dad, the two guys I've seen in the last week are probably the two people I've fancied most in my whole life. My life really couldn't be much better right now, I haven't bothered going on Tinder all week and I've barely even noticed the neighbour either, I'm in a really good place

Tonight when I finished work I went to the beach for a walk, it was lovely down there tonight, it won't be long til it's properly warm again and I can do that each evening again. Other than that I did a small food shop, had a shower and hoovered. 

It's Friday again tomorrow, both of the two guys have got their kids this weekend so a totally man free weekend for me I will do lots of walking, possibly some shopping as all my clothes seem to be black, I want some lighter coloured tops for work.