Buffy takes it 6 months at a time

Buffythedebtslayer

Jellytotts said:

I hadn’t realised your friendship and moved forwards with him. Be easy on yourself, these feelings take a while to unravel.

Poor Bunny, he’s really going through it, must be so much stress on him and you. Do you feel the vets are giving you the best advice or just trying to make more money from you? Hope you can find solutions you can live with.

Glad your Mum has eaten, are social services in place to help liaise with the Dr? My mum is refusing to drink more than a few half cups of tea a day as she feels she’s constantly in the bathroom, she doesn’t want to leave the house incase she needs to go urgently - won’t believe us that she’s causing herself further issues...what is it with that generation?!

OH Jellytotts, are you sure we don't have the same Mum? ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

that is the only response! I will have to see what the doctor says. Mum doesn't believe a word I say. 

My vets are lovely, they have tried very hard to save me money over the last year so I am happy that they aren't trying to make money at all. The specialists might be a different story but I will cross that bridge when it is on fire. 

XXXX 

Buffythedebtslayer

Nicnak said:

Keep going Buffy, it does get easier. x

Thank you x I have to say the weekend is so hard. Yesterday I wore myself out running round, napped and then spent the evening in front of the TV just constantly checking my phone. It is somewhat pathetic. 

Today I am overwhelmed with the mess. But sitting here isn't going to help. 

In money news, I paid the CC, it was about 50 quid higher than I thought, but small bun needed his vaccination and the dogs got groomed. and I *may* have bought myself some perfume and face cream and ermmmmmmmm moving on! 

I need to do the housework down here. I am aiming for some progress in each room 

1. Living room 
2. Shed
3. My room 
4. Conservatory. 

I need to buy bread. We are having stir fry for dinner and scrambled eggs on toast for lunch. Trying to keep to small light meals for mum. 

XXX

badmemory

Please you somewhat younger ladies than me, do not underestimate the terror someone can feel at being out & about & being caught by an unexpected sneeze or whatever.  We none of us want to get involved with Tena.......  All I can suggest is proper preparations for an outing that does involve Tena with the strict proviso it is not to be used on a daily basis.  Maybe stating that from what you have read she may be reaching the danger zone agewise.  Giving the impresssion that it is for YOUR peace of mind.

Buffythedebtslayer

We had omelette for lunch and bread and jam for dinner! I feel really sad and fed up. But I have 
1. Mopped the floor 
2. Hoovered
3. emptied the dishwasher
4. Cleaned the kitchen
5. Done two loads of washing. 
6. Tidied the hall 
7. And finally cleaned out the poor fish in the big tank. 
8. Went for a 47 minute walk 
9. Which also involved shopping for bread, got mum new slippers and me a new nightdress. 
10. I tided some of my room. 

I haven't prepped for tomorrow. I am massively disappointed he hasn't texted. !!!!!! it. And upset with myself for being so upset! 

Mum has eaten a bit more than absolutely  sod all. So that is good. I mean it is better. She has spent all day in bed. 

I found a fish tank I like. Just need to find a site that lets you have a delivery day. I am sort of making a plan regarding finishing the house decluttering and the getting of the fish tank. I really need something to look forward to. 

I was watching the news earlier and they were talking about the cladding and the scumbag government. They interviewed a man who had come from Syria due to the Civil War, lost his home there and so came here, worked, saved. He even said that he walked to work instead of taking the bus so he could add the money to his deposit. Of course now he has to pay for the cladding so is pretty screwed. It did make me think. I don't have sort of dedication at the moment. I want a fish tank and a hot tub and need the money for the house bunny. It really stuck with me tho. I had that sort of dedication when I was in debt. It was a drive. I had it when we faced inspection and when I was being bullied in my 3rd job. 

This whole decluttering thing, i found a lot of lists of goals and fair play to me I have achieved a fair number. The first one is always own a house. Not even close. I sometimes wonder what I want? Hmmm too much big thinking for a Sunday. 
The tiny house I really liked is still for sale. Would need 28000..........

I am glad to be going to work tomorrow. It is a welcome distraction. 

in_need_of_direction

Have you been to see the house? If not, it may be worth going even if it’s just to rule it out.

Buffythedebtslayer

badmemory said:

Please you somewhat younger ladies than me, do not underestimate the terror someone can feel at being out & about & being caught by an unexpected sneeze or whatever.  We none of us want to get involved with Tena.......  All I can suggest is proper preparations for an outing that does involve Tena with the strict proviso it is not to be used on a daily basis.  Maybe stating that from what you have read she may be reaching the danger zone agewise.  Giving the impresssion that it is for YOUR peace of mind.

It took me a full minute to work out what you were talking about Badmemory! I do bear this in mind. She isn't easily fooled and will not discuss such things. Hey ho. XXX 

Buffythedebtslayer

in_need_of_direction said:

Have you been to see the house? If not, it may be worth going even if it’s just to rule it out.

I may drive past it... I am not sure if I can view it. Not a hope of me having 28000. 

Buffythedebtslayer

I am completely shattered. 

I have loads to do. All I can do is think about is !!!!!! head. But it is fine I haven't succumbed, of course I have obsessively checked and checked and checked my phone. And then checked it again. Cos I have muted the chat......................ridiculous behaviour.

I am just going with it. These feelings will be felt and they WILL PASS. THEY WILL. 

Food shopping is being delivered soon. The dogs want dinner. XXX 

beanielou

Why do you need a new fish tank Buffy?

Buffythedebtslayer

beanielou said:

Why do you need a new fish tank Buffy?

The stand for this one is going, the filter has gone, the lights have gone and although the tank is ok by the time I buy replacements (100, 189, 140?) I may as well get a new tank, I have replaced the light unit with a single bar light and it looks pathetic, am running two smaller filters which are good but not great. The stand is wedged up but not safe really. I have had this tank and stand about 15 years so I don't think it is too bad. Would be able to sell the tank and small filters and have another tank to sell in the shed. I get that it seems a bit silly but have kept fish since I was 11 and these fish are about 9 years old.