Buffy takes it 6 months at a time

Buffythedebtslayer

I am cleaning the hall. You will notice this is not on the list. 
Any how! Gone through old post, recycled, tried on new dresses, hoovered. Stopped for lunch and need to get back to it. 
Might shift some furniture round... maybe I have found my mojo. X 

Buffythedebtslayer

Mojo was going well till Mum struck. I know she is in a lot of pain, I mean I don't as I am not, but she came downstairs, turned the tv off, shut the blinds (well I did at her request) and that was it, no noise, no music, just silence. Oppressive silence. 
I finished hoovering and have made her watch one of her crime programmes. 
Currently I have 5 bags of "stuff" downstairs which need to find homes in my room or the shed. I have a tonne of stuff to go to the charity. At least ten bags. 
Sainsbury's is coming tonight (YAY! not Saturday!) Nap time now. XXX 

Sun_Addict

Wow you’ve been productive today. 

milann

Sorry to hear that you and your mum have been having a bad time. 

You have been productive today. 

beanielou

You have been a busy wee bee 

Buffythedebtslayer

This evening has been super stressy cos Mum didn't feel well. It was heading towards calling 999 type situation. So horrible. I think she was stressed by the new sainsbug's delivery arrangement. Once that was done she improved a fair bit. Frightening tho. If she isn't doing a lot better tomorrow I think I will call someone. It is a lack of food and sleep and not being well and then being freaked out by the changes. I am trying so hard not to panic. 
I have found a way to buy a fish tank and stand for 80 quid cheaper then I thought. It also means I can order one part one month and other part next month. 
I miss D!!khead. I just have to say it. He is still in touch but I know it is not the same. We have been apart for over a year. Nothing will ever happen. His father is still as far as I can tell very ill. And I think he has made friends with a neighbour. who isn't miles away and drinks wine. I hope I am wrong. But I know I am not. Big Sigh. 
After the holiday life is going to get super hard. Work will be tough. Things with Mum could go either way. Obviously Covid. I need to make some significant changes to the house. 
Take care all XXXXX 

Four_Seasons

Hope mom feels better today. Fish tank sounds good. Sending easter hugs x

Willowtree222

Your bound to miss him. You are undergoing a huge amount and the comfort of someone being there is always something you will miss. I miss my ex all the time and we haven't been together for nearly three years. It isn't the relationship though it is just someone being around and to talk to in real life. I try to fill it with other things like decluttering and it works most of the time, but there are times when it doesn't. x

Buffythedebtslayer

Four_Seasons said:

Hope mom feels better today. Fish tank sounds good. Sending easter hugs x

Thank you XX She seems better this morning so that is a relief, I can go for my walk with my friend. I am pleased about the fish tank. It will also give me time to sell the old one. I am a bit annoyed with myself that I didn't wrap my friends' gifts so can't take them along to them. Aside from that I hoovered this morning and the hall looks better so that is something. 
XXXXXX 

Buffythedebtslayer

Nicnak said:

Your bound to miss him. You are undergoing a huge amount and the comfort of someone being there is always something you will miss. I miss my ex all the time and we haven't been together for nearly three years. It isn't the relationship though it is just someone being around and to talk to in real life. I try to fill it with other things like decluttering and it works most of the time, but there are times when it doesn't. x

Yep, this is all very true. And I too try to fill the gaps with decluttering, I think for me that is also a way of feeling in control. Plus the more I can get rid of the easier it is to live here and then move out.  Ironically he messaged this morning. But it isn't enough, it shouldn't mean so much to me.  
I have hoovered my room and not much else this morning. Need to get on with stuff and then meet my friend for a walk. Am watching Homes under Hammer. Sets my little brain a thinking............