Buffy's 30 Month Plan

Buffythedebtslayer

No, I think I know that. I am not even sure it is "him" I like sometimes- I mean I think it is more that I want a someone rather than him, he is... well quite self obsessed! And quite a lot of life at the moment is so hard.

Hence not pursuing him anymore. It is just hard when you speak to someone each day to not. I am well aware he doesn't think of me nearly as much and I knew from the start nothing would come of anything. Here is my safe place to share my thoughts, it is very private so I guess sometimes I say things that should go in my actual diary! but I don't think in reality I am under any illusions - hence being busy for the last forever until this weekend. cos I knew we weren't going to meet up.

To be fair finding an unobtainable guy and never saying a word about my feelings in any way that could lead to anything is generally what I do. Sorry he is an over arching theme I will focus on the money!

And I am on online dating. Horrendous!!

beanielou

It is your diary & write as you wish.
As you know I do on mine xx

Sun_Addict

Feel free to put what you want on your diary. It's your space to vent your feelings - and if someone can offer advice then that's a real bonus.

Come on Buffster, dust yourself off, onwards and upwards xx

beanielou

db2016~Always interesting to get a male point of view

Buffythedebtslayer

I am shattered. Shopping round one, Dog grooming, shopping round two, pick up dogs, eat lunch, try not to fall asleep, go to sisters, come back. NAP.

I am looking forward to the nap. XX

Buffythedebtslayer

Back from sisters. Tired but too late to nap. so am watching Lucifer.

Going to eat some crisps and cake.

spent A LOT of money today

dog grooming 66.00(get back 33.00)
shopping 25.00 (get back 25.00)
shopping 19.00
new shoes! 24.00 (two pairs plus socks)

got to check the bank!

Buffythedebtslayer

I am sitting here replanning the rabbit housing so the guinea pigs can have a holiday home...

It would be slightly smaller but it would be easier to manage, even I think in winter. I belong to this excellent fb group that has loads of design ideas. I wouldn't have to spend anything.....

Tomorrow I am taking the dogs out to walk around a pond - mate just texted. Need to go to the tip as well and do some washing.

hmmmm.

Buffythedebtslayer

Saturday sucked. Sunday was a lovely day. Today kinda sucked.

I am a bit annoyed with myself to be honest. It seems that without the structure of work I can't motivate myself to do anything. The cold is lingering and annoying me.

I woke up super early and made mum a cup of tea, let the dogs out, emptied the dishwasher and then went back to bed. It was a nice morning watching Grimm in bed . Had fruit and yogurt for breakfast, spoke to a guy on the phone from a dating website. Seems nice enough. Interesting.

So that was actually good in fairness(but not what I wanted to achieve). Then I went out to pick up a few things but felt terrible to the extent that I got to the car park turned round and drove home! I went to bed and do feel better now, after 4 hours sleep.... I think where I have relaxed a bit the cold thing is making a comeback. I can't swallow and keep bloody coughing!

I need to check the bank and consider the debt payment I want to make.

Buffythedebtslayer

I paid off 300 pound, so now the debt is 3700. That is ok.

If at the end of the month I have 200 left it will get put on the CC

A bit upset that I haven't heard from D ick. I normally do.

I am watching the Flash. Have NO IDEA what is going on at all. Like not even slightly. Any how that is 12 hours of my life wasted!!!

Debt is coming down. I have 4 days left to sort out my room and the house. I don't think I can do the garden. Maybe my shed, but not much else.

XX

Buffythedebtslayer

I have decided not to change the rabbit housing but instead to reorganise it so I can put a hutch in it for the Guinea pigs. This is not a welcome idea as having them live near each other can be a risk however when I showed this information to a couple of vets they thought the risk was very unlikely (and would mean they couldn't live indoors with the dogs either so hey, I will just get rid of them!) . And I can't take anymore room in the garden.

I stood at there last night (12.30am!) working out that I can put a proper roof on some of it which is the main problem. I do have work out how to slant it....so that the water runs off and not in... I can slant the first bit easily, but the roof will have to be in two parts, I am not sure how to slant the second bit..... I can put another wedge bit in but the angles might not work. I don't know about a flat roof? how do they work?

Anyhow I am rambling! and thinking out loud. All the payments went in ok yesterday so am officially 3712 pounds in debt, the 12 pounds is from the regular tesco card and me displaying my normal lack of adding skills!

got to go to the doctors today and try to pick up my online order, plus go to the fish shop again(!) I do feel loads better today healthwise. Mentally I am down. Things seem so hard for so many people and my sister especially. I am doing stuff, like the washing and some sorting but it all feels somewhat pointless.