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I am so sorry to hear of your news MeandO. Sending you strength and courage, and some hugs. 

MagicCat

So so sorry to hear this, how awful for you all. Thoughts and prayers with you.

Honeysucklelou2

So sorry to read this...thinking of you and sending gentle hugs.

Mrs_Money_Penny

Oh you poor thing. Sending love and hugs xx

Chrystal

Thinking about you and yours.  ((((hugs))))  XXX

Honeysucklelou2

Thinking of you MeandO. How are your parents?

MeandO

Thank you everyone for your kindness, it's been a really tough time and I am struggling to keep myself together if I'm honest. My Dad has had further tests and scans to determine the severity and stage of the cancer; we get the results on Thursday, so as you can imagine, the wait is just horrible. I am praying every day that it has been caught early and can be treated as Dad has already said he will not have surgery if it has spread. He is also getting people in to make adjustments to things in their house and explaining how practical things work to my Mum, he is making arrangements in case he's not here, it is heartbreaking. The tears are running down my face just typing this. The only positive is that he seems to be in less pain than he was last weekend and the symptoms seem to have subsided a little. My Mum is still in agony most days with no progress towards a diagnosis of what's causing the latest issues. 
I told DS about my Dad as he obviously picked up on the fact that something was wrong and I think his little heart is breaking too. This weekend he brought back a prized stick from his dad's he found when he went on an adventure in the woods with my Dad last month. The stick has been put on display in our house downstairs at his request. I'm encouraging him to talk about things if he wants to and explaining it's ok to cry and be upset whenever he feels so, but I am worried about him. I am praying I can give him good news about his much adored Grandad on Thursday.

The other life issues are still ongoing. Still no sign of a decent, suitable house despite viewing another one. I didn't even bother going upstairs on this one, it was horrendous, even the estate agent was brutally honest for a change and said they were going to struggle to sell it as it was. 
The ex is continuing to cause huge issues and upset with his lies and behaviour. I've realised now that he has even started to believe his own lies as he has repeated them so much. It's shocking and quite worrying to be honest that someone could actually do that. Thankfully I still have old messages in which he admitted to fabricating these statements in particular and actually apologised about doing so at the time, so just sent those messages back to him as a reminder. I am so tired of dealing with his nonsense.

crazy_cat_lady

Hey
I've been out of the loop for a while now and am just catching up. Wanted to send you a load of love and good wishes, which I know are of no practical help, but I think of you often. I hope that there is positive news on your dad today.

MeandO

Thank you CCL, good wishes much appreciated. I think of you often too and send virtual hugs and cheerleading your way x

I'm so thankful to say it was relatively good news yesterday, with no current sign of spread. He will still need surgery though and to have the offending organ completely removed for which he has to go to a larger hospital out of area. Hopefully this will be done imminently and everything will go smoothly. I sobbed tears of absolute relief yesterday. 

It's payday today and I've received just over £175 extra this month in backpay from a payrise. I've paid off the credit card bill of £110 and put £50 extra into the Christmas pot and an extra £50 into the premium bonds. Everything has been allocated on YNAB and, once all income has come in this month I should have a couple of hundred pounds at least, that I can split between savings pots. I'm refraining from overpaying the mortgage at the moment, I think it's probably wiser to save money in case I need it for now with the current state of the world. Speaking of which, I'm anticipating us being locked down again within the next few days. Cases are scarily high here and are on the rise. I was hoping to be able to go and help my parents out, but I don't know whether I'l be able to and whether it'll be a risk for me to do so, just in case I pass anything on to them at their most vulnerable times. I wish this virus would pee off now, as we all do.

I'm not participating in the great supermarket queue and dash now so have ordered a click and collect from Tesco for a week today. We are fine for now, but will need to stock up with the usuals by then.

Hope everyone is doing ok and keeping safe. xx

Chrystal

So glad it was positive news about your Dad.  (((hugs))) XX