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MeandO

Just purchased the £25 premium bond, thanks to my much loved and greatly missed Nan xx  

I've booked a viewing on a house that's come to market today, it's not a street that I would jump to live in as it can be a bit busy at times, but it looks like it would be a nice home for DS and I and it ticks all the other boxes. The price is good too at £55K less than this house has sold for. Fingers crossed for Tuesday. 

MeandO

After a day of mostly siting on my backside at the laptop (for work & house-hunting), eating pretty much non-stop and feeling so rubbish by the evening, I've made it my mission to be a bit more productive today and eat better.
So, this morning I've changed DS's bed and switched his duvet back to his warmer one, putting his nice new duvet cover on that I picked up at morrisons a while ago for £6. That load of washing is now on and I have another waiting, hopefully it stays dry so I can get it dried on the washing line. I might change my bed shortly too.
I've put names in the last remaining bits of DS's school uniform and PE kit and ironed his school trousers ready for next week. I've also just finished a freezer inventory as I lost track of what I actually had in my two small freezers. Through doing that, I've managed to cross off a couple of things from the shopping list I wrote this morning as I have plenty in the freezer. I've also listed some ideas for meals for us for next week so that I don't run out of inspiration of what to cook when school's back in full swing and DS is with me. 
I'm just about to sort out the 'snack' cupboard as it's a mess with everything shoved in it. It's mostly stuff for DS's packed lunches as there are no school meals for a couple of weeks now.

I need to go shopping later, mostly to pick up fresh fruit, veg and a couple of other bits, hopefully the supermarket won't be too busy as this will be the first time in ages I've gone to one before evening time.

MeandO

£130.20 from Topcashback is on the way to my bank account. It’ll pay for my boots, jeans and some tops I’ve ordered today with hopefully enough to make a nice little OP to the mortgage. 

I absolutely hate buying clothes and shoes for myself, but my boots have split at the seams and now have obvious holes in them and I’ve had to throw two pairs of threadbare jeans this past month. I’m down to two pairs now and I live in them. Tops too, I have a few that fit me which I wear on rotation, I feel embarrassed wearing the same thing all the time, if I could just lose weight I have lots more that would fit.  The boots were £32 with a discount code (huge feet and wide calfs mean I’m limited from where I can buy from.  ), the jeans were £18 each and tops were a fiver each. Less than a hundred pounds spent which, although a huge amount of money to me, I think I got quite a lot for my cash. 

Shopping wasn’t too traumatic at Tesco today, I spent £40.32, but used £20 cash from my purse and the rest from the account. 

Pink_Butterfly

I have huge feet too!!! 😂🛶

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Another big foot here. So frustrating isn't it! I always feel it's so unfair that if you're slightly above average, you're sized out of all the nice shoes. 😭 No strappy sandals for me!
Hope your house viewing on Tuesday goes well, fingers crossed!

MagicCat

Fingers crossed for your next viewing.

Well done on the clothes, you've got a lot for your spending. I know it's hard when you want to lose weight but I've found choosing clothes that fit and look better make me feel better about myself, enjoy your new stuff.

MeandO

Nice to hear I'm not the only bigfoot around, I hate buying shoes for that very reason.
Thanks MagicCat, I know exactly what you mean, I'm afraid I've only bought the 'hide all hoody' type clothes though so I'm not sure they'll make me feel any better, but at least I'll have a few other options of jumpers to throw on in the morning. 

I'm absolutely miserable this morning. DS was at his Dad's yesterday afternoon and OH now has to study towards something quite intensive whilst also working so I am leaving him be for a bit. I spent the evening alone, went to bed alone, woke up alone and probably won't speak to anyone or see anyone until I pick up DS from school later. This is my life and I really feel like, at 41, I'm just waiting for old age and a lonely end to it all. I don't mean to sound over dramatic, I feel like there is nothing to look forward to in life, not many people in my life and my life is over now. I don't feel depressed, I'm quite good at dragging myself out of these things now, but this feels like an acceptance that this is it now and where did I go wrong in my life. I've been feeling like this for some time, but on days and nights when I only have myself for company, it really gets worse. I phoned my friend and had a chat with her last night which helped, but she is going through horrendous issues herself at the moment too and so I'm trying to help her through those.  
Wish I could find a way to feel more optimistic about the future.

MeandO

I was surprised to see the child benefit had gone into my account today, I was expecting it a week later. Turns out I’ve mis-marked the dates on my calendar for the CB & tax credits for the rest of this year, so have adjusted that now. Once the Tax credits and topcashback payout have hit the account too I’ll pay off the spending on the credit card this month and that will be cleared again. I’d like to round the mortgage down a bit too.

I’ve been alerted to an issue with the deeds of this house I’m trying to sell. I only found out tonight so haven’t had chance to speak to my solicitor, but I’m hoping I’m not a victim of the developer’s sneaky tricks. This is a freehold property, but there is something being disputed on the deeds by the buyer’s solicitor. It sounds like it may cost me quite a sum to sort out and take some time. This really is all I need right now.

I cooked up a big pan of pasta sauce full of veg today for DS and I, which we had with some Italian chicken meatballs from the freezer tonight. There was enough pasta sauce to freeze two portions too. At least DS has eaten a lot of veg tonight without realizing it. I’ve eaten better today too. 

I need to chase up DS’s paediatrician tomorrow. DS was due to have an exploratory procedure before March of this year but it still hasn’t happened and I am concerned about his symptoms which are ongoing. I understand things like this have been delayed greatly at the moment, but as this was due to happen before March, I am concerned of the implications if it’s left any longer. 

My Mum had a specialist MRI today too. We can only await the results and pray they are positive. 

So much to deal with as usual, so much to worry about, it’s no wonder I don’t sleep well. 

Chrystal

You've got a lot going on honey.  Sending  you gentle (((hugs))) XX

MeandO

Thanks Chrystal xx