taking responsibilty to get me where I want to be

Kitten868

I meant to respond but I've been on Robert dyas website because of you!

I'm so sorry to hear about NMs mum. It is horrible for him and the logistics are so hard. There's a tell us once service which is meant to be good in regard to council tax. He will have to go to her bank with her certificate. I think your sister should support you to support him but we know how that goes. I know anything for you but not really for you is hard. Stay strong. Is NM a rum fan? It's definitely my favourite and so easy to go down for anyone xxxx

efes_shareholder

Kitten868 said:

I meant to respond but I've been on Robert dyas website because of you!

I'm so sorry to hear about NMs mum. It is horrible for him and the logistics are so hard. There's a tell us once service which is meant to be good in regard to council tax. He will have to go to her bank with her certificate. I think your sister should support you to support him but we know how that goes. I know anything for you but not really for you is hard. Stay strong. Is NM a rum fan? It's definitely my favourite and so easy to go down for anyone xxxx

shes been a bit better lately but its still very much a case of me expected to be here.
I had to go to A&E yesterday after a call to 111 , I ended up feeling better( usual stomach issues) and wondering what on earth they could tell me after all the tests I've had so left after 3 hours waiting to see a dr. It was only my daughter out of the whole family who offered to leave work to check on mum.
Fortunately we have a good neighbour who popped in but it very much showed that ultimately there is not much support from the family so they need to hope I remain in good health!

efes_shareholder

As above , yesterday afternoon was spent at the local hospital , alongside my stomach issues I was very dizzy and pretty much hallucinating when I tried to rest , it was packed and I left after 3 hours having only had my blood pressure taken. 

Was in bed by 8.30 last night.

Today I was up early and bought some flowers and visited my step dad in the crem , its been some time since we put any down so it no longer looks unloved.
Hoping to grab a sunbed and NM is meeting his friend at my local pub so I'll pop round for a little while.
Rest of the day I'm just going to try and get straight a bit , we have the rest of the garage being cleared this week so i'll swoop through the house and see what can be added.

Have had a naughty spend in the river island sale , £28 on a top which will match a blazer that I currently have nothing that co -ordinates and a cami/cardi set , I prob dont need it so will see if I keep it , I wouldn't have looked at all if our carer hadn't mentioned it.

Kitten868

Oh no! Oh ES. I'm so sorry to hear you're having a bad flare up. I wish I had a good suggestion. Do you think it's because NMs mum? Seeing his pain? It can't be easy for either of you when your mum is so ill and he's grieving. Or just rubbish timing? Or both?

I hope you get to reach out to a medical professional soon and get the right help. So much pain you're dizzy and hallucinating? That's horrid. 

I have lost my support circle through covid. Well covid has made me realise it was never really there to begin with. I've really struggled with this and I'm losing myself to it. I'm trying to rebuild myself as an independent person. I can't even imagine how you are feeling. To have so much duty and so little support. To not be seen for all the sacrifices you're making. You are so strong. You are wonderful. 

I really hope you get some relief from your pain soon. Xxxx

efes_shareholder

Kitten868 said:

Oh no! Oh ES. I'm so sorry to hear you're having a bad flare up. I wish I had a good suggestion. Do you think it's because NMs mum? Seeing his pain? It can't be easy for either of you when your mum is so ill and he's grieving. Or just rubbish timing? Or both?

I hope you get to reach out to a medical professional soon and get the right help. So much pain you're dizzy and hallucinating? That's horrid. 

I have lost my support circle through covid. Well covid has made me realise it was never really there to begin with. I've really struggled with this and I'm losing myself to it. I'm trying to rebuild myself as an independent person. I can't even imagine how you are feeling. To have so much duty and so little support. To not be seen for all the sacrifices you're making. You are so strong. You are wonderful. 

I really hope you get some relief from your pain soon. Xxxx

I think I possibly rested on my laurels and haven't been taking the stuff to help me go as its been a lot better since the procedure............not sure if that caused it or just the general unpleasant ambeince around life at the moment but I am feeling better.

efes_shareholder

so saturday i had an hour in the pub and then NM came to my house and we watched the football with mum , got her settled and popped out for fish and chips ( somehow I paid for these which wasn't my intention but it was my idea so hey ho) Ended up a late night as after he went home I was up waiting for my daughter who was staying as on a night out locally so pretty shattered when I woke up at 6.30am
Had the bread and milk and my friends b'day present dropped off by 8.30 am and had done 2 loads of washing , NM and I didnt do much yesterday , collected my robert dyas order , quick tesco shop and I cooked us home made wedges , cajun chicken and salad.
Spent the rest of the evening watching the football.
Today fb memories reminded me that the car is due its MOT , unusually it had completely slipped my mind so its now booked in weds afternoon and fingers crossed its just the cost of the cert.I've got £60 until pay day on weds , so technically i'm in credit however last month I had £150 which I didn't transfer so if I take that angle , I'm technically -90 anyway hey ho my account needs replenishment asap

creditkarma is looking good , my balances are 82% of what they were a month ago so I'm definately on the right track

efes_shareholder

just popping in to say how much i enjoyed the football last night , feels like the tournament finally came alive but im not enjoying the hangover this morning !!

efes_shareholder

Tomorrows payday !! 
stepping in to the new month with the £60 excess and an optomistic outlook.
Waiting to finish work so I can put the football on , NM is joining mum and I to watch it and I am currently roasting some baby potatoes in rosemary and garlic and later will be adding some salmon and a nice salad for dinner for us all. Mums over eaten , her appetite has really improved lately and old habits die hard ......by 2pm she had had a crumpet , cheese toastie , banana and a corned beef and pickle sandwich which is loads and now she is feeling rather uncomfortable and I wouldn't be surprised if she swerved dinner.
Its another expensive month I've realised with the car MOT and my hair cut on friday evening ( had to book mums care in 4 weeks in advance !!) 
Works been really quiet , probably most people are already on the lash for the game , I've spent most of the morning looking at flights ( off course not until its safe) , thinking of a couple of short breaks for NM and I prospective birthdays in a city where we can get some footie in , maybe Barca or Madrid , I've been to both but didnt go to a game in barca so its a possible.

Kitten868

Oh dear! Your mums going to be paying for that indulgence. 
Glad the footballs lifting you mood and giving you an escape xxx

efes_shareholder

so paydays here , cleared my every day spend c/card and have sent £152 over to my savings to round my house fund up to 136k
June really was a tight month so I've had a reconcile of my bank account to try and work out where the wheels came off a bit - First increased spend , Fuel. Can't quite work this one out as too why , only did one longish journey ( and even then not that long ) to our friends at start of the month. NM and I do tend to take my car if we go out and I have done a few more journeys to his recently. I've spent £150 this month which is about £60 more then in previous times , I still have half a tank - I'm going to encourage him to take his car a bit more.
Think I also paid out a bit more on our social side , this does even up and it tends to be the person that suggests we have lunch out etc that pays so as July looks likely to also be quite tight I'm going to keep my mouth firmly shut !!!
Paying car insurance up front was also a major impact on this month , i think I need to consider "pot saving" 
However all that aside all bills were met , the debts were reduced and not increased and due to a holiday refund and 2 £25 bonds wins , the savings were increased so I guess right now I'm winning in life.
I'm paying down £515 a month on the debt which once July goes out will sit at 
Tesco 0% card £1800
car loan £1075
total £2875

Today is MOT day , lets hope it sails through and keeps my savings pot intact.